Sharing Love: Is My Husband Yours?
Vengeances

Mas Darwin had been on guard and accompanied me in the hospital room. In the meantime, I've been keeping my mouth shut, not talking to Mas Darwin.

Darwin then sat down to my bed. He lifted the food spoon that the nurse had prepared. He wanted to feed me food. But, I pointed my head in the other direction, I threw away my face.

"You haven't eaten since, Rania. You have to eat" he said.

I was silent, unwilling to open my mouth and my voice. He again thrust a spoonful of food at me, trying to feed me. However, I don't care. I don't expect any more attention from him.

"You should eat. Your child needs nutrition."

'I've very much assumed Mas Darwin was paying attention to me just for worrying about his son, ' my inner self. All this time he never cared if I had eaten or not. He never cared about my health.

"You have to eat to keep your body healthy." Again, Darwin offered a spoon. This time he thrust it until the tip of the spoon touched my lips.

I threw the spoon out of my lips and said, "I can eat by myself." So, Mas Darwin finally put the spoon back to its position on the table. He touched my forehead, trying to feel the warmth of my body. However, I immediately let go of the rough touch of his hand. 'I don't have a fever' I said.

"Go home! Don't mind me" I'm still very angry at Mas Darwin.

"I'm staying here tonight" he said. "I want to accompany you."

I don't know why the words of Mas Darwin didn't make me happy at all. My heart used to be so flowery when it got the attention of Mas Darwin. But right now my heart is numb. I can't appreciate all that attention. I'm too angry. I just kept it quiet.

I didn't talk to him for hours. Then, he finally said, "I'm going to the cafeteria, looking for food." Since last night until tonight Mas Darwin has not eaten and I do not care.

"Is there anything you want to leave?" tanyakanya. I just keep quiet. Until he finally left the room.

I'm alone in my room right now. Silent, deserted. My mind is focused on asking for a divorce from Mas Darwin. Then, suddenly the ringing of the phone surprised me a little. I grabbed my phone which was on the nightstand next to my bed.

"Dad of Darwin," I murmured. Then, I answered the call, "Assalamualaikum, Dad!"

"Wa aleikum hail, Rania!" the answer. "So afternoon you called, but missed. Sorry just called back now. What's the matter, Rania?"

I'm silent. My lips are. I got an answer to my question this afternoon. Now I know Mas Darwin married Alya seven years ago and I'm only a second wife. Then, what am I going to tell Mas Darwin's father right now? Should I say I want a divorce from her son?

"Why shut up?" ask Darwin's father.

I then opened my voice. "Dad, why did you keep Mas Darwin's first marriage a secret from me?"

"Hmmm...." His voice sounds heavy. "So you already know."

"So, is it true that you knew Mas Darwin's marriage and you covered it up with me?" my spoken.

"No, I didn't mean to cover it up. Dad came when you were married. You are legally husband and wife. How could Dad tell you everything and ruin your happiness at that time. I think it's better you don't know. There was nothing I could do at that time but give you your blessing."

"I'd be much happier if Dad said it to me so frankly" I said.

"Dad didn't want to let you down then, Rania."

"Now I'm more disappointed, Dad. My marriage was based on lies. I want a divorce from Mas Darwin." I said it so plainly to Mas Darwin's father.

"Think about it, Rania!" said it. "Did you love Darwin during your marriage?" ask Dad.

"If you love her, keep it! Keep your husband, your household! Whatever happens keep your husband!" said Dad convinced me.

"I can't, Dad. I don't want to be the third person" I said.

"You have my blessing and the blessing of Darwin's mother, a blessing that Alya never got and probably never got. So, hang! Darwin will be yours." Mas Darwin's father was impressed to encourage me.

"Why don't you want to give her blessing to Alya? I see she's a great, kind, educated woman. I don't even compare to the end I've had with him?" tanyaku.

"It was for a very personal reason" said Mas Darwin's father and I did not understand his point.

"Then Amarhum Alya's father was a big thug in the Komering area. My former in-laws own a fairly large plantation there. Because, the matter of the garden land dispute was Marina's sister and Alya's father involved in a dispute. The showdown eventually culminates and ends with the killing of Marina's sister at the hands of Alya's father."

I was quite surprised to hear this story. My mother never told me the real reason. Apparently, there was a feeling of resentment behind his rejection of Alya.

"I know very well the nature of Marina. He's very vindictive. Until death he will never allow Alya to be his son-in-law" said Mas Darwin's father.

"Hold on while you can! Darwin will be yours" he said.

I'm speechless. My brain thinks, 'Mas Darwin only loves Alya. I won't get his love. I'll only get marriage status and mother's blessing. But, what's all that for? The blessing of the loveless mother of Mas Darwin would be of no use. Like right now I'm just a puppet.'

'I will still be divorced, ' my determination is deep in my heart.

Tomorrow I can leave the hospital. After finishing all the hospital administration, Mas Darwin wanted to get me into the car he had prepared in the front-door parking lot of the hospital. But, I refused it. I walked alone to the car.

'I don't need any more attention from him. It just gives false hope. His heart is not mine, it belongs to another woman. I don't want to be disappointed any deeper. I have to completely erase all my feelings for Mas Darwin.'

"I will take you home to Kayuagung" said Mas Darwin on his way home from the hospital.

'I don't want to go back there. What else am I going there for?' Stuck there, while Mas Darwin will be free here to combine love with Alya.

"I don't want to go to Kayuagung. I want a divorce" I said in reply to Mas Darwin's words.

"even if you ask for a divorce, I won't divorce you, Rania." Mas Darwin's words sounded so round and I was lazy to argue with him. He was so stubborn and selfish.

I stayed all the way, harboring all my frustration. Then, Mas Darwin drove his car to a gas station. "We stopped by for a while to pray here" said Mas Darwin.

I came down too. I did not forget to bring my wallet because later after urinating will fill the cleanliness dues box in front of the toilet.

Darwin walked to the men's room and I went to the women's room. While in the toilet I heard two women chattering, "What time will it be about to reach Palembang?"

The other woman replied, "Don't know yet. Depends on the driver. Sometimes it gets stuck. If the driver is smart to take the gap, quickly arrive. If not, lamaaaa."

I listened to that conversation. The two women then came out of the toilet and I rushed to follow her. They boarded a minibus parked not far from the toilet. I immediately asked the minibus driver, "Travel to Palembang huh?"

The driver nodded and I asked again, "Can you still add one passenger? I'm going to Palembang."

"Could be" the driver answered kindly. "All right! I'm leaving already."

I'll be up soon too. Without much thought, I decided to go to Palembang. Then, the travel car began to retreat from the parking lot and drove away from the gas station.