Sharing Love: Is My Husband Yours?
Manful

It has not been a month since Darwin married me. However, the days of our meeting just passed. Me and Mas Darwin are like strangers with no strings attached. In the meantime, I'm getting more organized and meddling in my affairs.

She urged me to get pregnant soon, conceive her granddaughter. "There's nothing I can be proud of you as my son-in-law" she said. "I just wish you could give birth to a grandchild soon for me." The words kept ringing in my ears.

How can I tell him that his son has never touched me. We never even slept in one bed. Every night when staying at home he prefers to spend his time in front of the laptop, in front of the phone, in front of the television, or he always sleeps early. He doesn't seem interested in me at all. He always avoids me. Although not seen directly, but I know he deliberately busy himself to stay away from me.

In fact, recently a question popped up in my brain. 'Is Darwin normal? Maybe she was single because she didn't like women?'

'Is he a same-sex person?' How can I express this grief of my heart to my in-laws who will definitely stand up for her son.

But this afternoon I asked Mom. "Mom, did Darwin ever like women? Did Darwin ever have a girlfriend?"

"Why are you asking like that?" said mother with sour face.

I hesitated to answer, but then I slowly said, "I don't think Mas Darwin is interested in me at all, Mom."

"Damahhh!" Mother snorted her breath while grinning with a trivial look towards me. He looked at me from head to toe. "Obviously he's not interested in you. Just wonder why he could choose to marry a woman like you?"

'Astaghfirullah.' I was stabbed so deeply hearing mother's words.

The answer from my mother did not answer my confusion at all. However, his words and eyes hurt me so much. 'Sihina and is that as bad as I am in his view?'

I couldn't hold back my tears and rushed into the room. I looked at myself in front of the mirror. 'What's wrong with me? Why is mom looking at me so low from the tip of my foot to the end of my head?'

'Am I so ugly? Am I kucel? Am I tacky or a village? Am I not fashionable?' I can't answer my own questions. I could only cry because I felt so humbled.

I don't know what's wrong with me. Then suddenly my phone rang. I wiped away all my tears, leaving him none. I don't want anyone else to know what household problems I'm dealing with.

"Assalamualaikum, Nelly.." I said as I answered the phone.

"Wa alaikum salam, how are you Rania?" tanyakanya.

"Okay" I replied briefly.

"I called because I wanted to invite you. I want a proposal in three weeks. You have to come" he said.

"Oh, huh? Congratulations to Nelly. May all his business be carried out towards marriage" I said in a voice somewhat different from usual.

"Aren't you crying?" ask Nelly later. I'm speechless.

"Why?" ask Nelly again. "What's wrong? You can tell."

I don't know why this heart was tempted just to tell Nelly. Household issues that I shouldn't have told anyone about, have been exposed. I can't hold him back anymore. I've been very depressed. I need a place to pour out my heart.

The next day is Mas Darwin's schedule to return home. I cooked quite a lot of food, hoping to please her. Then suddenly my mother came to me.

"You asked yesterday if Darwin ever had a girlfriend?" my mother made me spontaneously look.

"There was once a woman Darwin loved dearly. He once brought that woman here to introduce her to me. She's so beautiful and graceful, unlike you. Darwin wants to marry her." I don't know why Mom suddenly told me this.

"Then?" my many. I'm waiting for the continuation of mother's words.

"I don't approve of them" the mother replied casually.

"It looks like she's a stylish woman. His hands are very smooth. He rarely does homework. I don't like. She can't be a good wife to Darwin." She said without the slightest burden.

"Just because of that?" I'm not sure what Mom said. To me, my answer is like making things up. Just for such childish reasons, he flatly rejected the woman. 'What is true my mother said?' my thinking.

"Then, why did Mom approve of Mas Darwin marrying me?"

"Yes, because I want to have many grandchildren from Darwin soon." Mother's words made my eyes growl.

"Because, you're young, still a dozen years old. If Darwin married an adult girl his age, it could be difficult for Darwin to have children. Women who are overripe are usually not very fertile and are at high risk if pregnant." Mother continued to babble without noticing the fierceness expression on my face.

'Did Darwin ever love a woman?' my thinking. 'Or, it's just a mother's alibi to cover up Mas Darwin's shortcomings?'

'Is Darwin a normal guy?' I kept asking in my heart.

Until now when Mas Darwin was in front of me, the question still reverberates in my mind. I looked at Mas Darwin, watching his movements. He was quite busy watching television in the family room.

I wanted to ask Mas Darwin directly, but he would be offended later. Finally, I went into the room. I decided not to ask Mas Darwin directly.

Mom came over and sat down next to Darwin. "You just keep watching the ball" she said.

"You're rarely home, rarely with your wife. When he came home from work, he watched the ball until midnight. If you keep this up, when's mom gonna have a granddaughter of yours?" groused Mother.

Darwin smiled at me. "Why did you say that?"

"You've been married for over a month. I noticed that you and your wife are not friendly. Humblings," mother chirped. "Mother didn't protest that you were married to Rania. Because, Rania is your chosen wife. I thought you'd be happy with your own choice rather than your mother's. Turns out, you and Rania are like strangers."

"So, what should Darwin do?" ask Darwin. "Mom asked Darwin to marry, Darwin is now married."

"But you're not happy" Mother said. "Are you supposed to marry Rania?"

Darwin rubbed his head. Can't answer anything.

"Mom wants you to really get married, have children, live life like everyone else" she said.

"I'm married, Mom. My marriage to Rania has just happened" said Mas Darwin.

"You have to have children soon" said Mother.

Darwin was silent for a long time and then he said, "Yes, Mom. Darwin will give a grandson to Mom."

"How do you want to get a grandson, Darwin.. If you come home every time you watch the ball?" sambar Mom quickly. Then, mom took the television remote. Without Darwin's permission, he turned off the television.

"Get in your room!" said mother.

I, who had been secretly listening to Mas Darwin and his mother, heard the footsteps of Mas Darwin approaching. "Relsek!" He opened the room door.

I looked at him, but he just ignored me. He chose to sit down at his desk chair and started to open the laptop.

'Astaghfirullah, ' I sigh in my heart. It seemed right to me that Darwin was trying to avoid me. He tried to keep himself busy so that this night passed without any closeness between the two of us.

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