Sharing Love: Is My Husband Yours?
Obsolete Wallet

"My wallet.." I murmured slowly.

I glanced at the street around the house. Mas Darwin's car really doesn't exist. He just disappeared, without having a chance to say anything. Darwin was on his way back to Indralaya. I rushed in and went back to my room.

'Mas Darwin returned my wallet, ' I thought. I'm quite happy. Unasked, Darwin finally returned my wallet. I hugged my wallet because I was happy.

I stared at my wallet which looked worn out. Inside is my ID. I need it to take care of the divorce suit. I opened my wallet to make sure my ID was there.

"What's this?" I murmured when I found a piece of paper folded inside.

Iopenit. It turned out to be a letter. Apparently, Mas Darwin had gotten into his car and picked up a piece of paper. He wrote the letter in his car and put it in my wallet.

Rania, I'm sorry. I can't give you the happiness a wife deserves. I'm sorry if I hurt you. You deserve to be happy.

I'm giving you back this wallet. In it there is a ID card that you currently need to take care of the divorce. In your savings there is money. At the beginning of each month I put money I didn't give you into your account. You can use your ATM card to check it.

Stop accepting peyek orders! Your health and that of our children are much more important. You can use the money in your savings to take care of the divorce.

After the divorce later do not need to work, just focus on taking care of our children! I will bear the cost of your life and our children every month.

Be happy from today, Rania! I don't want to see you cry anymore. I wish I could raise our son together. But, it might be better for you if we're not together.

Thank you for being present in my life. Thank you for giving me memories and happiness. I'm sorry I always hurt you.

One thing you should know .. I let you go not because I want to end your relationship. I have to let you go because I don't want you to keep getting hurt. I had to let you go because I love you.

I was silent after reading the letter. My lips stiffened for a moment. I should have smiled after reading it. Isn't this what I wanted. divorced from Mas Darwin?

Isn't this what I fought for all this time..get out of this house and break up with Mas Darwin immediately? But, why did my tongue become twisted and my lips stiff instantly. I can't smile then, "Tess!"

One teardrop dripped down my cheek followed by another. Tears immediately shower my face. I was confused, why am I crying?

I can't help my sadness. In an instant my heart ached and my feelings were even hurt reading the letter.

I remember the first time I met Mas Darwin. Time seemed to stop at that moment, I was so fascinated with it. I remembered the time he came and defended me from the harsh treatment of the owner of the food stall where I worked. I remember when he hugged me. I remember many moments with him.

'Why do I feel so weak?' my thinking. 'I shouldn't cry like this.'

'Mas Darwin was the man who tricked me and got caught up in this marriage, ' I press in my heart. 'Why should I cry?'

I hate myself right now. I should be strong, can't be soft like this. Darwin already has a wife, I must realize that. And, she prefers Alya as her wife over me. Why should I cry?

However, the tears on both of my cheeks still broke violently. I even remembered my own words in Bali. 'I want to age with you.' That sentence was ringing in my ear. At that time I was determined to defend Mas Darwin no matter what.

'Whoever that woman is, I will try to have my husband fully. I'm determined to keep my husband no matter what. I love him even though he doesn't love me.' I remembered everything.

I really didn't expect it would end up like this. My farewell to Darwin is in sight. I should be happy. This is what I've been looking for all this time. However, I even felt my heart ache and a feeling of sadness was inevitable. I tried to hold back my crying which became even more so.

Meanwhile, Mas Darwin drove his car fast, leaving his home in Kayuagung with mixed feelings. There was sadness in his heart, but he would not show it. He just continues to drive his car quickly so that he can get to Indralaya soon.

'I'll get out of here soon, ' my inner self. But, before that happens, I have to pay off the debt to make peyek on my customers. I have to be professional.

I started making it too. However, for some reason today everything is going as if it is not smooth. The peyek I fried blackened from the charred. The hot oil splash from the frying pan hit my hand. So, I spontaneously tried to dodge and my hand accidentally nudged the peyek dough to spill on the floor.

I looked at the dough and sighed. Then I had to make a new dough. At that time, I already felt that I did not want to continue this work. However, the order that was waiting to be fulfilled made me have to continue until it was finished.

To be honest I'm really not in the mood to do all this. My feelings are chaotic, I have not been able to move on from yesterday's incident. My brain keeps thinking about it.

Then, suddenly a faint pulsation appeared in my stomach. I keep frying the peyek, trying to finish it as fast as possible. 'After that, I can rest.!' my thinking.

However, the longer the pulsation felt the clearer. I started to think there was something weird going on with my body, but I didn't know what it was. I still continue my work.

The longer the pulsation becomes the pain. I had to stop my hand making peyek. I felt my stomach feel like a balloon. Every few minutes the throbbing is painful and painful.

I rushed to the room and sat leaning on my bed. I tried to calm myself down even though my mind was raging. 'There's something wrong with my stomach, ' I thought.

Every beat that came I felt so sick I wanted to cry. Then, the throbbing disappeared for a moment, giving me pause to feel calmer temporarily. But, the throbbing was always coming again and again.

I can't keep going like this. I need someone's help. But I couldn't walk out of the room and nobody came to me in the room. Meanwhile, I felt the pain getting worse.

Then, faintly I heard mother's voice blabbering in the kitchen. "This "Rania, the cook was left out, not cleaned up again. There's a maid on the face."

I spontaneously called, "Mom...." I called from the room, "Mom...."

Before long, my mother was in my doorway. "Rania.. You don't become a habit...." Mother's words stopped for a moment when she realized I grimaced holding my stomach.

"Why you?" ask mom and get closer to me.

"It hurts, Mom," I said. "My stomach hurts, the longer it hurts."

Mom fell silent. His eyes immediately retraced my feet and said, "You're not bleeding."

"What kind of pain?"

"sickness, Mom. It's gone, it's gonna hurt a little bit more" I said.

"Well, you mean contractions." Mother's words surprised me. I never knew this kind of pain was called a contraction.

"You're not nine months pregnant yet, are you?" ask mother.

I'm nodding. "New seven and a half months."

"The pain is getting faster or not?" ask mother.

"Hmmmh uh." I'm nodding.

"You are about to give birth." Mom looked panicked and I really didn't expect to give birth this fast.