Sharing Love: Is My Husband Yours?
Heart Shape

On the weekend, Darwin went home. He came home late today because the road was jammed. He brought me a young coconut, but I brushed it off.

"You still angry?" ask Darwin and I just shut up.

"Don't be selfish, Rania! Think of the happiness and safety of our child! I will not hasten our divorce" said Mas Darwin.

"You're selfish, Mas," I said. "Holding me here just to show that you're a responsible man, not abandoning your son?" my many.

"In the meantime, I have to watch your romance drama with Alya. You think I'm not sane, Mas? I have feelings and can be hurt. Knowing a husband is double it is already very painful for a wife. Moreover, it must be lived like this."

Darwin was silent. He's staring. Meanwhile, I also stared at him sharply.

"Forget me and your son! Go with Alya" I said later.

Darwin was shocked. He went into the room and changed his clothes. However, while staring at her face in the mirror suddenly her gaze was fixed on a piece of paper on the dressing table.

I've been studying for a few days how to make divorce papers online. I wrote down the points I thought were important on that paper. 'Rania is not kidding. He really wanted to sue for divorce, ' Mas Darwin thought.

One of the requirements to make a divorce suit letter that I wrote there is the Resident Identity Card (KTP) and Family Card (KK). Suddenly Darwin remembered my wallet he had taken.

'I won't hand over the ID to him, ' Mas Darwin thought.

Then, I went into the room and saw him holding the paper. He looked at me and asked, "Why Rania?"

"Why do you want to get divorced with me?"

I looked at Mas Darwin in wonder. Then, I said, "It's very clear, Mom. You chose Alya as your wife. You still want to keep me? For what, Mom? Let's just end this marriage."

"You never loved me. I deserve my happiness" I continued.

Darwin came up to me and suddenly said, "What if I love you, Rania?"

"It's not love, Mom. It's just selfishness so you don't feel guilty for having to take responsibility as the father of this child" I said.

Darwin immediately grabbed both of my arms. I shook off his hand, but he immediately grabbed me tightly. He said, "Don't leave me, Rania!"

I pushed her body firmly but could not take her embrace away from me. He immediately grabbed my chin and raised my face to face him. Then, that kiss just slid on my lips.

I tried to rebel and let go of my lips. Darwin whispered, "You are my wife, Rania. Still my wife."

Then, he dropped my body on the bed. I tried to get up, but Mas Darwin immediately got me stuck in his arms on the bed. I'm not strong enough against his power. The outpouring of his manly aura made me only able to cry.

I don't want to be touched by him anymore. But this time I can't refuse it. Darwin was too strong to hold me back, I couldn't dwell. So, it was a husband and wife relationship.

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I cried on the bed and noticed my clothes strewn on the floor. Darwin slept next to me with the same blanket I use today. I wept for my condition and my stupidity that could not escape the actions of Mas Darwin.

He casually vented his lust at me. I no longer want to be touched by him, let alone serve him in bed like this. Her whisper in my ear was heard many times in my brain, 'You are my wife, Rania. Still my wife.'

"I hate you, Mas" I muttered as I stared at the slumbering face of Mas Darwin.

The next day I got a cold from crying too much last night. Without asking Mas Darwin to take the initiative to make me ginger water to relieve my cold a little. I didn't drink it and immediately threw it near the dishwasher faucet.

Then, all of a sudden, "Rania!" Mom's impact shocked both of us.

"The wife is ungrateful" said the mother. It turned out that since then, my mother had been secretly watching our behavior.

I rushed into the room because I didn't want to hear my mother's chatter. Then, she approached Darwin.

"This is the result if you are wishing for a wife" said the mother. "She wants a divorce from you." Darwin was surprised that my mother knew of our divorce plans.

"You have to defend, Rania. Your son needs his father" said the mother. "I don't think you'd be willing if your son would call someone else his father and not know you."

"You can't get divorced with, Rania," whispered the mother.

"But, he wants to sue me for divorce, ma'am," said Mas Darwin.

I did not respond to the words of Darwin. She said, "Part Alya and live happily with Rania!"

Darwin shook his head. "I can't, Mom. Alya is also pregnant with my son."

"That's your stupidity" said the mother. "Leave, Alya! Forget her!"

"Mother will be very happy if you leave Alya and choose to live happily with Rania" she said. "Can you give that happiness to your old mother Darwin?"

Darwin rubbed his depressed face. He closed his lips and could not answer his question.

The next day at Mas Darwin's office, he unlocks his desk drawer. Inside was my wallet, which had been untouched for a long time. Darwin opened the wallet to check if my ID was in it.

Slowly Darwin opened my wallet. He found several pieces of money tens of thousands and thousands in them. One ATM card, KTP, and what made his attention seized was a photo in the wallet.

There was a picture of me with Mas Darwin there, a picture of us getting married that I cut out a square shape to fit in my wallet. Behind her was the date of our wedding and two heart symbols. One more photo is a picture of my parents when they were alive. And, the last photo that really caught the attention of Mas Darwin was a photo of himself. The photo was heart-shaped and I wrote 'I love you' behind it.

Darwin smiled as he shook his head. "Rania.." he muttered.

'He was so innocent, ' thought Mas Darwin. 'I was so evil that I hurt her with this marriage.'

Suddenly Mas Darwin imagined the moment when we first met and knew each other. Mas Darwin also recalled the moment when I put a suit and tie on him.

'You really changed, ' he thought. 'I miss the old Rania.'

'Should I really divorce her?' Darwin was so upset.

'Alya is a stylish and perfectionist woman. For years he's been driving me crazy. Meanwhile, Rania was just a plain simple girl. Somehow the last few months with him there is a surge that rises in this body, like a teenager who is new to love. There is a strong feeling in my heart to get her love. There was a vibration I never felt again to Alya.'

'Could it be that feeling arises only because of Rania the new woman in my life. In the meantime, I might start to feel saturated with Alya. Could that be the cause? Or, maybe I'm really in love with Rania?'

'I cannot betray Alya. He has always accompanied me all this time. He has suffered a lot. But I can't have both. I have to choose.'

'It's too heavy.' Darwin was stressed thinking about his feelings. He was dizzy and very depressed.

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