Sharing Love: Is My Husband Yours?
Flower-studded Toska

The days pass so quickly. I tried to comfort myself by busying my mind to learn how to care for a baby. I got tired of crying. I don't want this child in my womb to be poor because I always cry during pregnancy.

If I am sad, then I will say in my heart, 'What are you crying over Rania? Darwin's not yours, let it go!'

That way my heart will feel calmer. The feeling of having Mas Darwin will disappear, although sometimes suddenly reappear uncontrollably. Moreover, when Mas Darwin came home he always behaved like a dream husband. It makes me selfish sometimes and want to have it forever. But, I have to stay self-conscious and throw away those feelings.

Reducing interaction with Mas Darwin is the best way not to get carried away as his wife. Therefore, if Mas Darwin takes me away I always refuse. If Mas Darwin asks me to talk, I'll just shut up.

Mother is also more silent at this time to Mas Darwin. I think Mas Darwin until now still do not know if the mother actually already knows the secret. I didn't tell Mas Darwin either, that I already knew he was marrying Alya. I don't want to interfere and would rather be quiet.

My pregnancy is now in its fifth month. I could feel a little movement in my stomach and it made me very happy. Mas Darwin asked me to check the contents to find out the sex of his son this Saturday afternoon. But he canceled his promise.

'I can't go home this Saturday Rania, I have to go to Palembang. Is there something you want to take?' I read a message from Darwin.

'No.' I typed the answer message briefly.

It doesn't matter to me if Darwin comes home or not. I was not expecting her to come again. It's better that way so I don't feel heartache.

Meanwhile, Mas Darwin was on his way to Palembang with Alya. Alya's age is two months. She was very excited to prepare for all the needs of her baby.

He took Mas Darwin to the supermarket in Palembang City. Darwin asked, "Why not buy building materials in Indralaya alone?"

"Here the choice of granite and vinyl floor is many, dear. I can't wait to realize the nursery according to my dreams," he said enthusiastically. Since her pregnancy began, Alya has been busy renovating a room in her house to be their nursery.

Because, do not know the sex of the baby. She decided that her baby room was light blue to be more neutral if female or male accessories were added. He was busy choosing a light blue wallpaper and asked repeatedly Mas Darwin's advice.

After that, Alya invited Mas Darwin to launch into a self-service baby equipment that is most complete in the city of Palembang. "I want to buy a baby box, honey," said Alya and there he did not just buy a baby box. He also bought a baby bag, a baby mattress, a baby carrier, a baby pillow, a car seat, a stroller, a baby swing, a bathtub, a mat carpet, and others.

"... Room size 4x6 meters. I want all the floors of the room covered with mattresses to be safe for the baby to play. So, how many mats do you need?" alya asked the waiter.

"Alya," call Mas Darwin a little upset.

"Yes, what's wrong, honey?"

"You buy a lot of stuff. Our car is not enough to transport it" said Mas Darwin trying to remind Alya.

"We can rent a box car, darling," said Alya did not care. "I bought the baby equipment at once so we don't bother going back and forth to Palembang."

Alya also bought a special sleeping pillow for pregnant women so that her body sleeps comfortably. She also bought a pregnancy belt, and more.

After a long shopping spree, Alya's attention was on the pile of diapers and baby clothes. He picked up one of the clothes and said with glee, "The book is so cute, honey. If I had known the gender of our son, I would have bought these clothes."

Hearing that remark suddenly, Mas Darwin remembered Rania. He remembered his promise to invite Rania to control the content. He was very curious about the sex of his son.

'Rania,' murmured Mas Darwin in his heart. 'I didn't even give you anything while you were pregnant, I just gave you suffering.'

After being satisfied shopping for baby equipment, Alya invited Mas Darwin to one of the malls. "To the mall?" ask Darwin. "What do you want to buy?"

"You buy clothes, honey. Buy shoes too" Alya replied. "I should all be models of stilettos, a danger to pregnant people. If I wear shoes I don't care. I used to wear high shoes. I want to find shoes and wedges to make it safer and more comfortable."

"My company yes, dear," pinta Alya. Darwin nodded and Alya smiled.

Arriving at the mall Alya did not immediately look for shoes. But, he looked around at the clothes first until an hour had passed.

"What do you want to buy, honey?" ask Darwin gently.

"I look for clothes that can be worn when pregnant, but do not want a wide like a negligee" replied Alya. "From now we have not met a suitable one. I want my look to be stylish, baby, even if I'm pregnant."

"Your old clothes are all stylish" said Mas Darwin.

Alya looked at Mas Darwin with an astonished yet smiling expression. "You don't realize soon my stomach is going to bulge? How to fit again is the old clothes," he said.

Darwin was stunned to hear Alya's words. He is indeed a man who has no experience taking care of pregnant women. He didn't think of getting there. During Rania's pregnancy she never once bought clothes for Rania. 'Surely Rania's clothes are now all narrow, ' he thought. 'Rania never asked me anything. I paid less attention to him.'

Mas Darwin looked at a long loose-colored toska dress displayed on the statue. The dress was made up of small, soft pastel colored flowers. Simple, yet looks very graceful. 'Rania must be a good fit for this dress, ' Mas Darwin thought.

Darwin wanted to buy it. He had touched it, but then he unbundled his intentions. 'Alya would be sad if I bought Rania a dress, ' Mas Darwin thought. 'I have to keep Alya feeling.' Darwin eventually backed away from the dress.

On the way home Alya was very enthusiastic about discussing the items he bought. "Huhh. after looking there search here finally met also with wedges that can make me fall in love. I'm so happy, honey."

Alya looked at Mas Darwin who was focused on driving and said, "Thank you, honey, you've been with me all day." Then, he gently kissed Mas Darwin's cheek.

Darwin was silent, not flinching. While continuing to drive his mind drifted on Rania. 'After marriage, I never even once bought clothes, shoes, bags, or other items for Rania. Let alone giving her a gift, I never.'