Thaha
Baffled

elisha and I were sitting casually on the grass that grew very lush and neatly arranged, enjoying the breeze of the afternoon and the beautiful scenery of the eyes of the day to the contest, waiting for orange flashes to black dark night, the cool air that brings calmness makes me smile at the sun that is now peering coyly on the western horizon

O God, it is beautiful that God paints every corner of the sky that exudes profound art to every thinking soul, to those who would think of every greatness of God, for those who want to think about every flash of events and events that occur in this nature

I turned to the galloping footsteps of the speeding horse behind me, the originally blurry glint getting brighter and brighter, and, I could see a man in formal attire speeding over the horse until finally the horse's pace slowed as the distance between us shortened, I could clearly see the black riding prince who now seemed to be neutralizing his hunting breath

Louis came down from a dark horse that has a height of approximately 170 cm....? it was just my estimation, the horse's back was almost as tall as Louis's, with Louis's slow steps closing in on us who were still sitting on the grass, I was about to stand when Louis' hand signaled to remain still in place

he sat beside me at a very close distance, even his hands gently stroking the shoots of my head as he often did

"Assalamualaikum" he looked right in my eyes with a look I couldn't understand, I could feel a lot of sense emanating from his eyes that were shining dimly, I could feel, the green glow seemed gloomy but I could also see a blaze of happiness splashing and dancing inside

"wa'alaikum salam warohmatullah" after answering his greeting I tried to turn my face away to avoid his gaze

I glanced at Elisha who looked relaxed as if he was not disturbed by the treatment of louis towards me, either because Elisha was too good to hide his feelings or indeed this was a normal thing for him....? I don't know, but even though Elisha was being indifferent I felt bad for Elisha with the treatment of a different louis, she said, with great awareness I slightly shifted my body to put some distance between me and Louis, even with a sense of unwillingness I tried to get rid of Louis's hand which I still desperately long for from the top of my head

'i must also think of Elisha's feelings, I must not be selfish' I tried to convince in my heart, even though in reality my eyes were almost dewy at the moment

"let's go back home, here the wind is quite strong" Louis said in a soft tone before then opening the suit he was wearing and putting it on my shoulder, even with the ease of Louis' hand outstretched to embrace me in his arms, I timidly glanced at Elisha who was currently smiling widely

my forehead frowned deeply as I saw the expression on Elisha's face that was very far from what I expected, I almost gaped in disbelief as Louis casually said goodbye to Elisha in a flat tone that contrasted sharply with his treatment of me

'this is the term used up sweet sepah in throw....?'

I shudder in horror at the thought of it, I can't even imagine what my fate would be if Louis got tired of me....? just thinking about it has made me want to roar crying what else until the incident....?

"why....?" Louis asked me as he looked at me staring at him with a question mark clearly on my face, his hand outstretched to press my forehead that was frowning deeply, and pressing right on the indentation that is in the middle of the forehead

"Elisa...?" I pointed to Elisha who remained relaxed enjoying the twilight, even he did not feel disturbed by Louis's treatment which was very, very unfair in my opinion

"why Elisa...?" I looked back at Louis who was not sensitive at all to Elisha's situation, seeing that it almost made me cry out for justice for Elisha whom he treated differently

feeling arrogant with Louis' attitude, I with a sullen face let go of his embrace with a slight bang and stepped wide towards the horse that Louis had been riding on, with great difficulty I tried to ride a horse that was far above me until I finally managed to sit comfortably on its back, with a single blow the horse was speeding away leaving Louis shouting my name in panic

this horse shot at a moderate speed, however, its speed that exceeds the speed of the horse in general makes me have to try hard to stabilize my body so as not to bounce, but the speed that exceeds the speed of the horse in general makes me have to try hard to stabilize my body so as not to bounce, I even had to pull the rope tight enough to make him walk around leisurely

o Allah, I almost made my body stray from the top of the horse which was a good height to make my spine injured

I casually breezed into the main house area and gave the horse to one of the men standing guard at the front door, who knows, lucky that he could understand my sign language, the most effective language to use if our interlocutors do not understand the verbal language we use, it is called the language of a thousand people

I circulated my gaze when entering the family room that always amazed me with various advanced features that almost contained in every object in it

"Hi Zu, come here" Mommy who was on the long sofa with Elio waved at me to join them

"hi little Mommy, where's Daddy...?" Elio also greeted me with a big smile even though Louis was the one he asked

I did not get a chance to answer when Elio's again shouted loudly and jumped from the sofa to welcome Louis who came with a little hunting breath, it seems he ran away....? but when my eyes looked at the image of a tall brown horse that almost matched the black horse I had borrowed from Louis without his consent, it made me rectify my final answer, but can I be sure if he rides his horse at full speed, my heart smiles jail thinking about that

"hi, little Aslan" Louis swiftly caught Elio's tiny body as he threw his body at Louis, I smiled in a poignant wrapping hidden in the drawer of my deepest heart

They talked intimately though it was actually Elio's chatter that dominated the conversation, I looked at them with a million tangled thoughts crumpled to no end in my mind, I sat quietly beside Mommy who was looking at the moment

"Zu, when will you also give me little Aslan..?" Mommy asked in a cheerful tone and twinkle expectantly, a hope that I thought would be difficult for me to answer, let alone to realize

I just smiled without being able to answer Mommy's question, how should I answer it....? when my heart decided otherwise

" it's okay, you guys are still young, don't be too buried with my requests, ok, you still have a lot of time, take it easy" I did not respond and just gave a warm smile with a thousand secrets that I tried to lock very tightly, she said, I hugged Mommy and tried to remember her every warmth and tenderness that I would miss so much later

our conversation warmed up as one family member came and joined us, talking warmly for the night to come, I looked at Louis who interacted warmly with each family member, although Louis seemed to limit his interaction with Elisha, in my eyes they even looked like a brother-in-law rather than a husband and wife, like my interaction with Leo is still very rigid

I don't know if there might be a problem between the two of them.....? I don't know

I tried to recognize one by one the characters of each member in the family, how the eleven twelve Daddy character with Louis, the jolly Leo as well as Leora, was, the drama-filled twins, the meek Mommy, the easy going Elisha and the cheerful Elio, he loves being the center of attention, I'm sure I'll miss these moments later

a warm conversation that erodes time until it does not feel magrib has arrived, without meandering from the sound of the Adhan that is always broadcast in every corner, as is the case in Indonesia, here every turn of prayer time is quiet and quiet, only a gust of wind is heard trying to whisper in every ear of people who faithfully make Islam as the way of life, he said, I was just starting to feel the difficulty of living in a foreign country, where every facility for worship we ourselves must provide lucky Louis is very reliable so that I am not too like a dazed chick to lose its mother

after the congregation I saw from Louis the sound of chanting the verses of God flowed to fill every corner of the room, flowing the calm that made the arid soul splatter the spirit, he said, I enjoyed every note that spoiled my hearing bones until the knock on the door made Louis stop the reading, of course, to my dismay at no longer being able to enjoy the beautiful voice of Louis that I longed for, Louis stopped reading his Qur'an to ask who was out there, I couldn't understand their conversation because Louis spoke Italian

it turned out that the sleepy door was one of the housekeepers who relayed a message from Mommy so that we would join in for dinner together

inevitably we still have to move from the room to the dining room after storing prayer equipment and the Qur'an in its original place, Louis' hand outstretched to justify the location of my Khimar that seemed to be bent

the thing that makes me a little uncomfortable in this house is that when I have to keep the hijab and mihna inside, I have to be careful and make sure my clothes stay covered, because in this house there is a Leo who is actually not my mahrom, even though he's Louis' sister, Louis, his position remains as an in-law who is not entitled to see me use clothes in the house such as negligee or baby doll for example, not to mention there are some Daddy employees who are men, for example, who Daddy would call sometimes to see Daddy in his study, if they ran into me when I wasn't wearing a hijab wouldn't be funny!

in the dining room has been gathered all family members except me and Louis who just joined of course

I sat right next to Mommy and Louis, while Elisha was sitting right in front of me, I smiled at him as he stared at me with a jail, I did not understand the meaning of his gaze, I did not understand, my eyes fell upon the little creature beside Elisha who was now whining to get down from her baby chair and his hand was waving at Louis

with a swift Elisha holding his body that is still wriggling until Louis had to go to him and sit beside Elisha with indeed I Elio who is now starting to calm down, even the cute boy was now smiling widely to reveal his neatly arranged teeth

I turned my gaze away from the sight that slightly pinched the tip of my heart, turning on the rows of forks and spoons of various sizes on the table

a waiter came with a delicious-scented piece of meat, and I was looking at the meat in front of me

many questions ran through my mind, but the most domineering one was the question 'do I have to eat it or not.....?'

seeing me still watching my food Leora move and sit beside me replacing the place that Louis had previously occupied

"sister Zu, don't eat....?" with a funny accent Leora tried hard to be able to say the word smoothly

I almost spouted my laughter upon hearing how Leora said those words

"what's this meat....?" I whispered to Leora in a very soft voice

"don't worry, that's Halal, special request from my brother" I don't know how Leora can understand my concerns, maybe they're used to Louis' new lifestyle....? could be

the only problem right now was how I was going to eat it, too many forks in front of me and I was confused about which one to use, which one, I glanced at every member who was eating the dish quietly, even Louis was busy feeding Elio

I exhaled a little harder than I should have, before using one of the forks that I felt comfortable to hold was certainly the largest among the others, I slowly poked at the meat and ate it, ignoring Mommy who was trying so hard to hold back the laughter

Leo had even laughed in a loud voice, don't ask how Leora and Elisha, of course they are the same as Leo, laughing without burden!!

"Zu, you can cut that's meat, with this one" Mommy lifted one of the knives and shook it

"this more practice" I showed my big smile as I bit back at the meat I was holding

"it seems like someone needs an extra class here" Mommy said cheerfully as if someone was waiting for something fun

oh no!

I smell something terrible I'm going to experience