Thaha
Should I say goodbye.....?

I woke up from my short sleep when the time was up, Elio who had just slept when entering the morning prayer time was still wrapped in a warm blanket wrapped in a thin blanket that surrounded his tiny body, he said, sleeping at dawn after staying up all night was not my habit, I was about to get out of the room to prepare all Louis's needs and did not choose to join Elio, but Louis instead led me back to lie down and join Elio who had just fallen asleep, he even hugged me tightly so that I would remain in a lying position with them, the gentle sweep of Louis' hand ushered in the drowsiness that had actually been peering at the eye patch, I fell asleep after getting a gentle sweep of Louis' hand that was no less than ten counts

so this is where I am now, only to wake up when the clock has touched the number nine

i'm bad luck!!!!

I was about to jump out of bed when the small movement beside me stopped my steps, Elio woke up with his round eyes winking funny, MashaAllah gleaming

"good morning, baby" I greeted her with a warm smile as she looked confused, her hands outstretched asking me to hold her in my arms

"Mommy" she muttered softly with her little head lying on my shoulder

"let's go to find your Mommy" I tried to stand up from the bed with Elio in my arms, movements that are quite difficult for the movement of morning sports especially for people who do not really like sports like me, O God it seems I have to start learning to start liking sports

I stepped with Elio who was struggling spoiled in my arms, lucky that the room I was in was downstairs, this was very helpful!, so I did not have to spend extra energy to get down the stairs

I stopped my steps when we were close to the dinner table, where they were having breakfast together even though there were some of them whose plates were empty, they stayed there just to chat and talk warmly

I saw how warm the interaction between them was, even Louis could smile as beautifully as it was, in a moment when I could not make him smile so wide, let alone smiling broadly to curl his lips would be very difficult for me to do

"did you wanna see beautiful flowers with me...?, let's me take you there" I took a few steps back before turning and stretching the distance from those who were having a warm conversation, I don't want to be cold water suddenly present among the warmth of the atmosphere that has been created

my feet stopped in the middle of a neatly arranged flower garden, the cool air that greeted the surface of my skin felt refreshing, refreshing, the temple of love flowing with the breeze of the merciful Lord whispered softly to a troubled heart

however, I am grateful because every event seems to signal that my heart remains firm in the face of every pain that I am facing, there will always be happiness that goes hand in hand with every pain that comes near

I held onto Elio who was still lazily curled, my hands gently rubbed his back covered in a thin blanket, an adorable creature that I would miss in my own moments later, she said, I leaned my face to anchor the sweet kiss at the top of her head, my eyes closed trying to record the scent that might not come back in my sense of smell

when remembering my separation with all that is presented at this time very close makes me try hard to dispel the tears that are always ready to slide free from the eyes

not wanting to get too lingering in the atmosphere that always makes me embrace nestapa, I try to divert it with something more useful in my opinion, I intend to move to make milk and breakfast belongs to Elio, Elio, of course when I feel my heart has been fortified very safely from any pain that often infiltrated without being invited

but again I paused my intention when I saw Elio who moved agitated and whining, with natural reflex I re-chawed him and slightly hummed softly, with a natural reflex, I tried to calm him down by reading the Quranic verses that I had memorized with a softer rhythm

the tip of my eye glanced at a housekeeper who happened to be passing by on the side porch, I tried to wave my hand as much as I could with a very limited movement, she said, lucky he can understand my point, but the problem right now is, with what language I have to speak to him, of course Italian is not an option, as a whole, I did not understand and did not know how to say it, I kept turning my brain while waiting for him to approach

"yes Mrs. may I help you.....?" he said very politely, subconsciously I breathed a sigh of relief as he spoke in English

"can you help me to make some milk for Elio......?" I looked at him with eyes that were emitting plea

"sure" she nodded with a radiated smile adorning her wide arched cheeks

"thank you" very easily her smile rubbed on me so without me noticing my lips also carved a beautiful arch

he went back into the house leaving me who was still developing my smile, a friendly attitude that I never imagined I would meet in the new country I came to, delivering a warm blanket that covers the recesses of my chest

I remained glued to where I was standing holding Elio, I could imagine how beautiful it would be every second I spent on this island if the conditions and circumstances were not as I faced them, I wish I wasn't an unexpected guest in a happy family relationship

I exhaled my heavy breath, removing every supposition and wishful thinking that would even push me to the pit of pain that was ready to wait for me, and also why spend this short time just to grieve and wail....? it is better that I try to deal with it firmly and surely in accordance with the Islamic law, although the heart wails and groans because it is wrapped in endless pain, the law of Allah I must not ignore, the world just for the rest of his pain will not last forever

I also do not want to exchange the happiness of the afterlife that I have dreamed only for a moment of pleasure because it ignores the law of God, in God I still hold my big dream to "happy life in the Hereafter later" as my final goal

before long I was in my position, I felt someone suddenly hug me from behind, I had almost brusquely brushed it off just before a familiar greeting perched in my ears

"Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarokatuh, Albi" Louis with his greeting that always makes my heart have to work extra came to the bone of my hearing that was originally quiet

"wa'alaikum salam warohmatullah wabarokatuh" I calmly lay my head on the chest of the field that covers my back

I tried to indulge in the very short rest of the time before the longing that carried the longing stretched the distance between us, this is how time taught us to be more mature, he said, become more patient in every event that we will face in the future

"i like it when Zu is spoiled" Louis' words may sound very ordinary and simple, but in my ears it's an unusually loud slap,

don't be for intimate time, time to find out about him who is more profound yet I can't wake up, no wonder if I just don't know Louis already has other responsibilities, no wonder, the surprises that came were all too sudden, I can't fault fate that kindly always gave me amazing surprises that made my life colorful and tasted different flavors, she said, but because I had not prepared well when the surprise came, so this is how it happened, but God has given each grid in great detail

The Qur'an 30 juz has come down completely, the Prophet's hadith as an example and the direct description of the application of the Qur'an is complete and perfect explanation, supported by the details of the exegesis of the mufassir.....? what's less actually, nothing!, only sometimes I'm too lazy to learn it all, or I use my time to be too busy with others, until I forget the most important thing that I have to do, learn Islamic science!, because actually from there we are able to find answers to every problem of life that we face

"Zu also likes to be spoiled, what's more the same husband" I smiled as Louis gently pulled my chin and raised it, making me easily stare at his raised eyebrows next door

Louis looked at me with a stare, I knew he was very confused by my unusual attitude

don't be Louis, I'm so confused by my treatment that it would be ridiculous if I did it in a different situation, too romantic!

"so who wants to take Zu to the city....?" Louis removed his hand from my chin after nodding in a steady motion

she again wrapped her hands around my waist and I could feel her lips touching the khimar that was covering my head and hair perfectly

"so, Zu get ready we go out of this, come on!!" Louis was about to lead me into the house when the housekeeper who had helped me make milk for Elio came and gave me the milk, but Louis' hand took it first

"thank you"he left after me and Louis thanked me

"may I give it here....?" I reached out my hand to ask for the bottle of milk held by Louis

"come here" instead of giving the bottle to me, Louis wrapped his arms around me and led me to a long chair under a shady tree not far from where we were standing

he sat down first before pulling me to sit beside him, I just kept quiet and followed his every direction, even as his hands wrapped around my shoulders and grabbed me from behind,

louis gently extended his hand that was clutching my shoulder to wake Elio up in a beautiful dream island

"hi little Aslan, wake up" with Louis's jail pinched gently the red white cheeks that always made me anxious

"eeemmm" Elio wriggled in his sleep, his lips curled and about to cry but snuffled as his tiny lens captured a picture of our face

"Daddy, Mommy" she gently rubbed her eyelids with a soft sweep of a very cute puffed up hand in my eyes

"assalamualaikum" I quietly whispered greetings to his ears and recited the do'a wake up, just like I did when he woke up before we ended up in this park

"Hungary....?" Louis asks with a jail to Elio who is still half-conscious, even he deliberately moves the bottle that is in his grasp to try Elio

I held Louis' hand as I was about to feed the bottle to Elio's wide-open lips

"he hasn't washed his face and gargled" as if remembering something Louis took his sophisticated flat object and asked no one there to bring a small cloth with warm water and a glass of mineral water

Berta came with the things that were ordered by Louis earlier even in his hands was a bowl of fruit porridge and bread that had been cut into small pieces

they put it on the table next to us before returning to the main house

I tried to be patient to help Elio with his morning activities that were always accompanied by rejection and whining, even though it did not require considerable energy and a long time, he said, because Elio was a child who was not too difficult to do the morning routine, he whined when he felt the water was still too cold on his skin, even though the water was actually quite warm in my hands

after eating his spoiled breakfast Elio returned to laze in my arms, Louis faithfully helped my every activity to do the Elio morning routine, although often interspersed with the mischievousness of Louis that turned out to be quite jaily on Elio, even he deliberately splashed water on Elio's face, Khimar and my headscarf must also be a victim of Louis's misfortune because Elio tried to avoid Louis' water attack and hid his face in my chest, I smiled at how sweet this morning was

but I had to stop our activities, as my tail caught two beautiful women smiling warmly at the sight of our interaction

I smiled awkwardly at Mommy and Elisha who were currently looking at us from behind the open window, immediately you carried Elio in my arms and left Louis who was either looking at me with a confused look or his heart, I don't know

I slowly gave Elio to Elisha, at first Elio refused and instead tightened his grip on my neck, I was actually not strong enough to ruin Elio's morning with a cry that always squeezed my heart so hard

I even had to kiss her many times and say if she and I had to take a shower to keep it from smelling

I say goodbye to Mommy and Elisha, to go to the room, not to forget I also say goodbye to Mommy if I am going to the city today, I even got carried away by holding Mommy close enough to say thank you for letting me, even though the hug was a goodbye hug from me, seeing their tenderness and warmth made me think, should I say goodbye to them.....?