Thaha
hospital romance.....?

"but if Zu asks as yesterday afternoon, remember until God sets the destiny between us I will keep trying as hard as I can to guard and guide Zu in the Lord, god will find us in His eternal paradise"

it is undeniable that my heart is full of blossoming flowers, the happiness that enveloped us seemed to make the memory of the terrible event that I had felt earlier fade away the veil of happiness that Louis sowed on my painful heart

"Zu promises it's the last time, thank you for forgiving Zu"

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Allah Akbar...... Allah Akbar.......

The alarm on Louis's phone rang loudly interrupting the warm conversation between the two of us

"thirty minutes to enter the morning prayer, want to pray jama'ah...?"

Louis asked me after hearing the alarm go off

here the time has entered at two o'clock more than forty-five minutes, while the dawn adhan will reverberate at three o'clock over fifteen or sixteen Italian time

very different from Indonesia of course, here we can only rely on the prayer timer that is on hp so that we can pray on time, I have never heard the adhan here, I have never heard, unlike Indonesia, which will be easy to find and hear the adhan in almost every city

time differences between countries are not a problem, because God has provided many facilities depending on us whether we will take advantage of every facility that God has provided to worship God or we use every facility available to worship God

Islam is a clear religion, there are only two options for humans, ta'at or kah maksiat

like black and white, there is nothing gray, in Islam all there are rules, there are portions and levels of each, is not Islam a complete religion.....?

"want, Zu wants tayammum, but his hands are a little hard to lift high"

finally there are also friends that I can invite to discuss the matter that has been struggling in my mind since without any solution

"i'll move Elio first"

Louis held up Elio who was asleep in my lap

but before Louis picked him up he whispered to Elio

"thank you baby to take care of your Mommy, Daddy proud of you, I love you to the moon in back"

a kiss in Louis pinned it on Elio's head before keeping Elio out of my lap

at first I thought that Elio would refuse as before

in fact, Elio easily resigned and remained soundly asleep even though Louis moved it and placed it on a mini bed that was right next to my mattress, next to where Leo and Leora slept

after that, Louis helped me to tayammum and replaced the Khimar I was wearing with a new Khimar that he took out of a bag neatly stored in a special patient's closet

maybe he was worried if the Khimar I used before had something to spill, or Louis was afraid that my Khimar might have been salivated or snot by Elio while crying earlier....? could be

of course I did not recognize Khimar who he took because it was Khimar who might have just been bought, either by Mommy or Elisha...?

I don't know if I didn't bring any clothes from Indonesia except what was attached to me the night I was brought by Louis, here they've prepared clothes that fit my size very well, I am so grateful and grateful for that

"i'll take ablution first, wait a minute"

Louis went to the bathroom and left me tidy and ready to perform the morning prayers

I was pensive to think of every incident that had passed, all the events that gave me so many life lessons, the wisdom contained in every incident that we go through makes me always admire how God is so extraordinary to educate his servants

leading his servant who believes in the way of fear in the steps of the test of life that stretches in his life

even for those who do not believe, they will fall on every Titian of the stairs he treads and instead choose to turn away from his mercy

it is man who is far away, not God who does not love him

"are you ready...?"

louis' question pulled me from the daydream that had been able to bogus

"as awhile"

"Leo wakes up, morning prayers"

Leo awoke with his eyes still not fully open, sitting briefly on the edge of the bed before heading to the bathroom

we prayed in khusu' with Louis as priest, with the movements that I was able to try to follow each prayer movement perfectly, pain was not the reason for my absence in prayer

because actually with prayer I am able to be patient in the face of the pain that is happening to me, with prayer I can complain of my helplessness to my Lord

the chanting of the verse read by Louis ushered in the tranquility that graced the desolate atmosphere of dawn

unfortunately I can not enjoy the fresh air in the morning which is the sustenance of Allah

the steadfast Do'a bears witness to how weak we are before God, the Lord of the Worlds, God is the only God in which we ask and ask, our place depends and our place pours out all its shackling powerlessness

after we started praying, Leo said goodbye to breakfast for Leora, Louis and of course for Leo himself

as for me, the hospital has prepared a special breakfast in accordance with the daily diet needed by my body

we didn't wake Leora who was still sleeping well, nor did Elio

but that adorable toddler woke up when Louis and I were reading the Qur'an

"Daddy, Mommy"

Elio sat for a while and extended his hand asking to be carried

Louis grabbed him and as he was accustomed to it, Louis recited a wake-up prayer for Elio and strangely the toddler also imitated and followed him

Louis asked her to sit with me on the bed

"Mommy"

elio quickly crawled up and climbed into my lap

"no, no sit here"

Louis tried to lift him up and keep Elio out of my lap, but the toddler quickly grabbed my Khimar

"astagfirullah haladzim, uh"

I was quite surprised by the actions of Elio who gripped the strong Khimar I was wearing, until almost Khimar was released

"no, with Mommy"

Elio persisted, even he tried to pat Louis' big hand with his mini hand

"it's okay, let him be with Zu, can....?"

I gently asked for permission for Louis to let Elio stay on my lap

"he's heavy, Zu's leg hasn't healed yet, just sit here ok....?"

Louis tried to pat the empty place on the bed to attract the attention of Elio who even shook his head strongly

"no"

"it's okay, Elio's not too heavy"

I try to mediate between uncle and nephew who are struggling to maintain their own desires

"yes it is"

Louis breathed heavily as if he had lost a fierce fight

"already, there's no harm in ignoring"

I smiled amusedly at how Elio boldly stuck out his tongue to mock Louis

after that Louis' hand carefully corrected the position of Elio and also Khimar ku who was no longer symmetrical

...~TBC~...