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he left me without saying a word

I was no longer able to stem my tears that I had been holding back from before, my body shook violently and the cry broke out filling the originally quiet room and grew increasingly crowded as Elio's cries also intertwined with my weeping echoing softly

"Mommy"

"Daddy"

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hearing Elio's cry that also echoed made me try hard to calm my body that shook violently, I was afraid that he also felt the uneasiness that I felt, too, are not children the most sensitive creatures....?

my hands painstakingly wiped away the tear melts that flooded my cheeks with rigid and limited movements

with my hands still shaking I tried to calm Elio who also stubbornly did not want to be away from me, even he brushed aside the hands of Elisha and the man who resembled Daddy when he was about to carry him

mommy's hand gently rubbed my back that was still shaking weakly, while Daddy sat on the sofa with a hand that gently massaged the tip of his nose with Leo and Leora

Leo was about to chase Louis but Daddy stopped him

"don't, let him alone"

Leo returned to sit next to Daddy after breathing out loudly

the room calmed down again until night fell towards dawn, leaving a sleepy poll that began to appear on the twins' faces

"go, to sleep" Daddy's resolute voice breaks the silence asking Leo and Leora to rest first

I realized that they gave up their sleep to keep me in this room

gratitude crept into my chest because God gave me such a good family and wanted to keep me in the worst condition of my life, even though the sadness still pinched the corner of my heart

"Mommy doesn't sleep....?"

I asked Mommy who was still sitting by the bed

Alhamdulillaah, Elio had calmed back down after I leaned his head near my heart, I did so that Elio could hear my heartbeat begin to calm down, hope that Elio will also be calm, and Alhamdulillah, that way is quite effective

I'm sure Mommy must be tired from keeping me all night, just like Leora and Leo are now sleeping on the side bed, one large bed with one mattress that can be pulled under it

the mattress is specifically for families who take care of patients

Leora sleeps in the top bed while Leo sleeps in the bottom bed

even in this room there is also a special small bed for a child's bed, maybe Mommy who ordered it for Elio

"it's okay, Mommy's sleeping after this"

Mommy with her warm smile can make me calm even though I am far away from my mother and Rama, they are also my family of course!

"it's okay, Mommy and Daddy also need a break, Elisa and....."

I stopped my words when I remembered if I didn't know his name

"he's Luca Louis' sister, Elisha's husband"

I was quite surprised when I heard that from Mommy, how not, all this time I thought that Elisha was Louis' wife.....?

"he's Elisha's husband.....? Elio's Daddy....?"

I asked Mommy to make sure, my eyes subconsciously glanced at Elisha and Luca to make sure

the wide smile that split Elisha's cheek was enough to give an answer without the need to voice it again

o Allah, what have I done wrong.....?

how could I have concluded without rechecking the truth, Astaghfirullah

but how could Elio call Louis Daddy....?

"yes, he's Elio's Daddy"

mommy's nod strengthened her words

the feeling of happiness that flooded my mind made me subconsciously carve out a smile, without me being able to hold my brain, I immediately devised the best way I could to apologize to Louis in the best way I could with my current condition

and how should I pull my words that must have surprised Louis enough at the restaurant that time

Astaghfirullah, forgive Zu O Allah, only this time I acted rashly as I am today, immediately drawing conclusions even though I have not even found out the truth.....?

excessive jealousy is not a good thing!

"why is Zu smiling....?"

Mommy looked at me questionnaires, maybe Mommy was surprised by the drastic change in my face

just a moment ago I was crying with tears welling up, but now....? I smiled as widely as nothing happened a moment ago

it's an amazing mood change, isn't it.....? let alone Mommy, I alone was quite surprised by my behavior

"it's okay Mom, Mommy and Daddy should rest now, Elisa too, Zu is okay, after all there is Nurse who is always awake if Zu needs something"

I don't want them to be sick too if they have to stay up late to take care of me, they also need enough rest so that tomorrow can return to activities, I know they've been pretty busy with a myriad of jobs waiting to be done

"alright, let Leora and Leo take care of Zu tonight, Mommy will stay at Luca's hotel, which is quite close to this hospital, if it takes anything, Zu asks Leora to call Mommy, ok"

Mommy told me before agreeing to my proposal to rest, her legs were about to move when she came back closer and whispered something that made my smile wider

"Louis was always waiting for Zu outside, he just didn't like to see Zu's sick situation, believing Mommy that Louis loved Zu very much"

Mommy blinked one eye before closing in on Daddy who had already tidied up some stuff on the table

I just looked down trying to hide the red hue that might have been looming over the surface of my flat skin

Elisha came closer to hold the sleeping Elio with his hands wrapped around my chest

my hand helped Elisha to release the twists of Elio's hand that encircled my chest, but unfortunately this adorable toddler always brushed and wriggled his body even he whined as Elisha tried to keep his head away from my chest

"it's okay, let him sleep here with me this nature, pity if he has to cry again"

I said it as polite and gentle as I could, I didn't want Elisha to think of anything that wasn't, like, anything, I also don't want Elisha to feel hurt when I see how the current Elio's attitude is so spoiled on me

"are you sure....? I'm just afraid that he will disturb you, you need some rest"

Elisha looked at me with a sorry look that made me smile, how could a creature as sweet as Elio would disturb me, I would even sleep very well if with him

the situation is not the same, I no longer feel the pinch in my heart when I see Elio or maybe even I will be fine when Elio calls Louis Daddy

elio also called me Mommy!

finally they gave up and decided to leave Elio with me and the twins who were sleeping on the side mattress, of course Louis who was currently also waiting for me behind the door of this room

I glanced at the clock hanging on the wall of the room, although I had expected it but still I felt a little surprised when I found out that the clock was already showing at two in the morning, it is a good time to honor God

but how do I pray....?

of course Elio is not a problem, but how should I stayammum...?

my hands are quite difficult for me to lift, especially if I have to wipe my face perfectly

and the infusion hose hanging on my left hand made things worse!

I tried to think of a way that would make it easier for me to live, but I had to undo my intentions when the door to the room rattled slowly

I spontaneously closed my eyes, I was afraid that if Louis saw me awake he would turn back and leave me again

there was nothing I heard when the door opened, the long, thrilling pause created a silence that made my vital signs detectors echo through the room

I want to open my eyelids and see firsthand, is Louis still in this room or turning back to wait outside the door....?

luk...tuk.....

the sound of slow steps that sounded closer tickled the bones of my hearing that was stealing hear

the sound of a sliding chair can make my heart race faster even though I have tried to control it

I prayed in my heart that Elio would not wake up to the roar of my overzealous heartbeat, and Louis was unaware of the increase in my heart rhythm that the device monitored

a light touch greeted the cold skin of my cheeks, the hand gave a gentle sweep there, sending a sense of comfort that brought a hidden smile to my mind

"Assalamualaikum, Albi"

"sorry for making you cry earlier, I also apologize for making you hurt while being with me"

I recognize this voice, of course!

this is Louis' voice, my halal lover

I could feel his other big hand grabbing my hand that was on Elio's back,

dear God, do not let Louis realize if I am still awake, lest he return to escape and cancel his intention to say something that seems to have been held since Louis

"i didn't mean to leave Zu like that, I was just too angry when I saw that Zu had to lie weak and the worst part was that I couldn't find out who was behind Zu's kidnapping, sorry"

there was a very short pause before Louis started again

"i've tried to catch the man who shot Zu, he's disguised as a cop, but he's dead first"

"how can I let that happen....? though I asked them to find Zu myself, wasn't I stupid enough....?"

little by little I could understand what caused Louis to stare at me with a look like that

he was disappointed, disappointed that he failed to take care of me even though he tried his best

I could understand him, panicking and disappointed to make him upset, he even forgot that there were times when man could not transcend the limits that lay on the realm of destiny that man could do nothing but accept

there is a level where humans can try and with his efforts can get the results as he wishes

but there is also a level where humans can only accept, be patient and rely on God without being able to do anything

my hand moved slowly to hold her hand that held my hand gently

my eyes slowly opened and looked at Louis who was shocked

I even had to tighten my grip as much as I could so that Louis wouldn't run away again

"wa'alaikum hail, Hubby"

"Zu's fine, don't worry"

I showed a smile as sweet as I could, hoping it wasn't formed stiffly

at least I want to make him a little calm with my condition

"sorry"

Louis looked down to put a warm kiss on the palm of my hand he held

"it's ok, Zu also apologized for making everyone worry"

I tried to bring my hand closer with great difficulty to touch her cheek

seeing that, Louis understandingly brought his face closer to put it on my hand

"Zu knows Hubby has tried his best, Thank you so much, but we also have to remember that if God has made the best plan that we are, sometimes we are patient and accepting enough, he said, maybe God is trying to test our homes so we have a stronger bond"

"yes, maybe this is God's way of removing Zu's desire to leave"

he smiled with a jaily look that began to blaze with passion adorning the twinkle of his eyes that had been since I

"when does Zu want to go....?"

I try to avoid it by pretending to forget, lest this be an easy topic for Louis to judge me

"not that yesterday afternoon there was someone crying asking to be let go.....?"

oh God why did I just know that Louis has this kind of personality....?

"ih, Zu didn't say that"

I tried to hide my already flushed face from embarrassment by looking down deeply

"yes no one said, I think I heard it wrong"

Astagfirullah even continued, already dong kan Zu embarrassed!

Louis moved his left hand to hold my faithful hand against his cheek

he again grasped my right hand with his left hand after sitting up straight again, while his hand was stretched out to lift my bent chin

"why haven't you slept yet....?"

I smiled again because Louis very understandingly changed the subject

I tried to move both of my hands with great difficulty, Louis who saw it without saying much helped me put my left hand on Elio's back, I turned my hands to her and placed them on her hands

it was as if I was preparing to receive punishment from him

"how could Zu sleep if someone was angry earlier...? forgive Zu, can you....?"

I sincerely apologize, so that there is no longer a sense that stuck either in my heart or in his heart

I was quite shocked when Louis raised his right hand and prepared to hit mine

he's not gonna hit me, is he.....?

I quickly closed my eyes preparing to receive a strong slap on my open hand

o Allah may the infusion be fine, Zu does not want to be pricked again if the infusion is problematic due to Louis' hand punch

I tried to peek because my hands had not received anything

"aaggrr"

I unintentionally let out a stifled cry as Louis was about to lower his hand to hit mine

I had expected to feel pain and pain in my hands, I had prepared with it even though my heart was a little worried, no, not a little, but very worried

nope

I opened my eyes and looked at her in confusion as a tickling soft clap perched on both palms of my hands

and Louis's actions afterwards were able to put out a big smile on my lips without me being able to hide it anymore

he planted a soft kiss on top of both of my palms which he had previously patted

" in Allah I will always be pleased with every step Zu takes, as long as it does not violate the law of Allah"

he settled me with a warm gaze that was able to bring calmness in my soul that had been restless

I believe that with this I can sleep well, after practicing the Prophet's hadith which teaches the most powerful way to reduce the anger of a husband who is turbulent

"this is my hand over yours, my eyes will not be closed until you are ridha.” (CHR. Ath Thabrani's)

"but if Zu asks as yesterday afternoon, remember until God sets the destiny between us I will keep trying as hard as I can to guard and guide Zu in the Lord, god will find us in His eternal paradise"

it is undeniable that my heart is full of blossoming flowers, the happiness that enveloped us seemed to make the memory of the terrible event that I had felt earlier fade away the veil of happiness that Louis sowed on my painful heart

"Zu promised it the last time, thank you for forgiving Zu"