Thaha
Kram

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I never cared about how many planes or assets Daddy or Louis had , but when I got on the plane that was going to take us to the venue I was pretty sure it was a different plane than the one that took me when Louis kidnapped me back then

Louis clasped my waist towards the two television-facing couches, Elio who was forcing to sit there, it seemed like he wanted to watch his beloved cartoon

after sitting Elio beside me Louis went to Daddy and the others, they sat on the long sofa facing each other

although the heart really wants to join them but I can't do it, how else is Elio currently focused on watching while his hand tightly grasps my hand

maybe he doesn't want to live alone

I could hear Louis arguing with Daddy, I could still hear him clearly even though I could not fully understand

Louis speaks two languages, English and Italian, of course I don't understand their conversation when using Italian

at first I was not too interested in their conversation, most of my focus was still on the cartoon Elio watched, trying to understand what interesting film it was....?

but when my ears caught their conversation involving my name, added Louis who pleaded with a soft voice

my ears are like catching a radar alert, inevitably I widen my earlobes to steal the listen

this is not eavesdropping, blame those who do not speak in a soft voice, and do not forget the fact that the ears do not have a lid

my curiosity of course was disturbed

I slowly turned to face them, trying to find out and steal the conversation with full focus, despite the harsh reality of having to attack me, too bad I could not catch their whole conversation

I think I should take Italian more seriously

"no, Dad, please not now" (no Dad, I beg you not now)

"but everyone will find out, that Zu is your wife, soner or later" (but everyone will still know, if Zu is your wife, sooner or later)

"i know, but please give me some space to think about it, to get better solution, for Zu and Elio, not this night,. dad please" (Louis knows, for Zu and Elio, but please give Louis the space to think about it, to get a better solution, for Zu and Elio, not for tonight, I beg Dad).

'for me and Elio....? what am I....?'

I wonder in my heart, what exactly are they arguing about....?

hhhuuufffft

I heard Daddy's heavy breathing slowly and Louis's face looked calm again, although previously still seemed calm, but could not be denied if his leg face stiffened a few moments ago

even Mommy who sits next to Daddy gives a soft sweep on Daddy's shoulder, it is clearly visible if at this time Mommy is trying to calm Daddy

"ok, but this is the last time, You hid the fact about Zu as your wife as well as elio, everyone needs to know that Elio is Luca's son" (well, everyone needs to know that Elio is Luca's son, but this is the last time, you hide the fact about Zu as your wife and also Elio, everyone needs to know that Elio is the son of Luca)

'why.....?'

'why doesn't Louis want anyone else to know that I'm his wife....?'

a bitter reality that I tried to bury after previously haunting me when I had to think of a bad possibility if Elio was the son of Louis and Elisha, that bitter reality hit me again, the fact is that our marriage is not yet legally registered in the Italian government

the bitterness that came when I thought about the possibility that Louis would accidentally not register our marriage here made me uncomfortable

I am not afraid, only a dislike of the fact that I will be left with ease, an unease that grips my heart firmly, which from when I start to attack and disturb my calm

it's not that I don't believe in Louis, no, I just don't like the possibility, really don't like it!

until the dislike is getting stronger even I can feel the uncomfortable feeling it also gripped my stomach

oh God, it seems my condition is getting worse

am I also airsick now....?

Astagfirullah

my body went limp all of a sudden, I even felt almost my entire body tremble violently as it tried to endure the pain that hit my stomach

I tried to find a grip, until I unconsciously grabbed Elio's thigh

"Mommy, are you ok...?" (Mommy, is Mommy okay...?)

Elio shifted his focus from the cartoon he was watching and faced me, his tiny hand trying to reach my face, but the movement was held back because my hand was holding his thigh

"it's ok Mommy, don't be afraid, I'm with you" (it's okay Mommy, don't be afraid, there's Elio here with Mommy)

as if forgetting the grip of my hand on his thigh Elio instead tried to calm me who more and more let out cold sweat

I tried to close my eyes, and concentrated on neutralizing the pain that was heartlessly attacking my stomach which was initially fine

"Daddy!!, Daddy!!, Daddy..."

elio's panicked voice filled my eardrum to the point of making his voice scatter and I couldn't catch it well, all I heard was a long humming that pierced my hearing bones to the point of making me dizzy

"Mommy... Mommy"

elio's tiny hands shook my arms that were still clutching his thighs, I couldn't feel my hands, my hands went numb, I even tried my hardest so I wouldn't hurt Elio's tiny thighs

may my hands not be too strong to grasp her tiny thighs

"ay Allah Zu, hi.... Albi....?"

I did not hear Louis's approaching steps, either since when he was near me, I could faintly recognize Louis's soft voice trying to call me, his faint voice sounded hazy in my ears, I tried to open my eyes, but I had to go back to undo it when the pain came back

I just hope Louis wants to get my hands off Elio's thighs, I don't want to hurt those innocent thighs any longer

"Zu open your eyes, baby,....Zu is dizzy again...?...Zu?"

I felt my hands held gently and carefully, and a soothing sweep I could feel like a swarm of ants enveloping my hands, my hands still

numbly

"per..per..my stomach, sak.kit, God"

I tried to tell her as much as I could, but unfortunately what was heard was even my stammering voice

I heard a lot of sounds swarming around me, Mommy, Elisa even Daddy, but unfortunately I couldn't hear them clearly, my ears were ringing

I was a little surprised when my stomach was in pain felt a soft sweep from Louis' big hand and Elio's tiny hand

the two constantly gave a gentle sweep over my belly that was covered in a veil

comfy

very comfortable

until I could feel the intensity of the pain gradually starting to decline

their gentle strokes on my stomach made the cramping that was originally strong by slowly relaxing, so that I could slowly feel my sense of hearing again, too, even I could slowly feel both of my hands in Louis' left hand

hhhuuuffffftt hhhuuuffffftt hhhuuuffffftt

I tried to normalize my breath that was once choked, now I can slowly neutralize it and I can regain control of my body that was not controlled

o Allah, this body does not belong to me, I only borrow it when God lovingly grants me the right to borrow it

the great God who created this body so perfectly

just got a stomachache, I feel like I can't do anything

o Allah, all these favors are yours, and you are all-powerful to give them to whomever you will, and you have the right to deprive them of whatever you wish

'o Allah make Zu among those who are grateful, Aamiin'

...~TBC~...

..."And to Allah belongs whatever is in the heavens and what is on the earth, and to Allah only all affairs are returned"...

...QS. Ali 'Imran Verse 109...