THE FORMER SHADOW
1. Talak Divorce

"Dropping talaq one raj'i Applicant Arshaka Alfarizi to Respondent Badrina Aini ...."

Arshaka Alfarizi and Badrina Aini have been legally divorced in the religious court. Badrina did not focus on sentence after sentence thrown by the chairman of the judges.

His fingers occasionally clutched. Badrina wiped her palms wet with sweat. Unfortunately, the pants do not absorb at all.

A widow and a widower, that is their present status. The relationship between husband and wife has been buried along with the emotional turmoil of Arshaka and Badrina which incarnated into a strong determination to separate.

Finally, there will be no more fights just because Arshaka came home late from the office due to stuck in traffic. Now they will live each other's lives.

Unlike Arshaka who focused on hearing the judge's verdict, Badrina's gaze looked blank and deep as if through the walls of the religious court room.

After the trial was over, Arshaka approached Badrina, reaching out to shake his ex-wife as a sign of separation.

Badrina observed Arshaka smiling at her, she lowered her gaze until she saw Arshaka's hand had stuck out.

Badrina slammed into the past. The hand used to hold her, clutching her fingers tightly as she was in pain giving birth to Cantara Benazir, the beautiful 5-year-old daughter they loved so much. The same hands support the well-being of their families.

Now it's over. Badrina's bead was glazed, almost shedding her tears.

No. gabe. Can't do. Must strong. Badrina breathes sedition upon herself, it accelerates debilitating fragility.

Mama Cantara turned her back, she came out of the courtroom without receiving Arshaka's hand hanging in the air.

Badrina ignored the pity people looked at her. He will continue the journey of life without a life partner. It was just him and his daughter.

Ahead of the talaq pledge trial, Badrina has been preparing as a single mom candidate who will nurture to make a living. Especially after getting a liaison or a summons from the court committee, Badrina strengthened herself even more.

However, for some reason knocking the judge's hammer so heavily sounded to him? Her shoulders even slipped when she realized that she was now living as a widow.

What makes Arshaka and Badrina divorced?

Badrina is a well-organized and neat female figure, all activities can be arranged with a careful schedule and planning.

On her journey, Badrina was distraught in the service of her son and husband. He desires that everything done is organized and family members apply discipline.

They have a home assistant (ART) to help with her duties as a housewife in addition to running a growing online business. However, Badrina felt overwhelmed, there was still less.

His employees knew Badrina as a perfectionist. It is hard to accept unnecessary mistakes. On the other hand, Badrina is a person who enjoys helping others, her social spirit is high. It is very easy to be moved to provide assistance if there are employees who are sick, married, gave birth, or died.

The hectic pace makes Badrina look more like a boss than a wife and or mother. She faced her husband with the words ketus, that's their daily menu. This attitude was strengthened after being blessed with a daughter, Badrina and Arshaka even often had a little trouble.

In her son, Badrina occasionally snapped, such as when Cantara asked for something by whining or crying. However, immediately he apologized that day or when his son slept he would make an apology and affirmation.

Badrina is not evil, she loves her family. That is how to love what he knows; to live a regular life so that there is balance. This hour, the next one must be. However, strict discipline makes the husband uncomfortable every time he comes home.

Until one time Arshaka did not come home because of fatigue working as a corporate manager of a well-known company, coupled with the treatment of his wife who grumbled unbecoming without knowing the time even in front of their children.

Arshaka comforts herself by spending the night in a club, drunk and taken by a woman to a hotel. They didn't do anything. Arshaka was drunk and fell asleep.

The club woman left him. He will not look for problems with false stories for personal gain, he is still willing to make an income without deceiving others.

The woman's sticky perfume on Arshaka's clothes while returning home, arouses Badrina's suspicions and accuses her of having an affair. They fought again and again.

Arshaka tries to explain that he did nothing with the woman. If necessary to present it to explain directly to Badrina or ask the hotel receptionist.

Badrina, who had been overcome by anger, reflexively slapped her husband. That is*******conflict in their marriage.

Arshaka could not stand his wife anymore, he used the excuse: 'Between husband and wife constantly had disagreements and quarrels and there is no hope to live in harmony again in the household.'

Is the heart still attached? Or egoism reigns over the heart? This is where they decided to end the marriage.

****

That morning, Badrina woke up longer than usual. The divorce that was broken up a few weeks ago made Badrina seem to want to enjoy time for herself.

He went on vacation by himself. Withdrawing from problems and busyness. She even left her son with her husband's family when he went on vacation.

They don't worry about child custody. Cantara will stay with Badrina because the child still needs the full affection of the mother.

Badrina felt that she had not enjoyed her own time for a long time, always busy with activities every day.

Going on vacation after a divorce is not a form of selfishness. He just needs to start drawing meaning from the failure of his marriage. He needs to learn to love himself more.

Start where!?

Badrina was confused to answer.

Said happy he was happy, said not happy he was not happy.

Beach.

After breakfast, Badrina walked along the beach. Seeing the sea water briefly rising for a while receding, he smiled. The condition looks like he is up and down in managing his emotions.

However, the difference is that the sea water is able to spoil Badrina's bare feet, while the tidal emotions instead separate her and her husband. Miris is his life.

Eight years of marriage, blessed with a beautiful daughter in the third year became a happiness for Badrina and her ex-husband at that time.

They believe they will be happy all the days until death separates them. However, the test of life is not able to bear the two human children. Marriage is instead seen as a burden, while the trend of their minds is all entitled to happiness.

The phone in his small bag pocket rang. There was a call from his aunt, Poppy Alysa, the sister of his father who had long gone to face the Khalik.

"How long is the holiday? So selfish! Your son's sick. Your ex-husband called to look for you." That's how Poppy spoke to her niece, ketus. However, for Badrina, Poppy has been credited with nurturing him from the age of six months until he gave up his bachelorhood.

"Canta's sick, Auntie?" Badrina was worried to hear her daughter was sick.

"High fever. Since last night treated. Your phone just activated? It's hard to contact." This morning after the breakfast of Badrina's new phone was activated, she thought everything was fine. He just wants to relax on vacation.

He was wrong and felt guilty. What kind of mother am I!? inner Badrina. Not to mention the fatigue even increased. Tired of being Badrina.

"Yes Aunt, I'm sorry."

"From childhood you are troublesome! Being an adult does not take care of husband and children well, even divorced! What kind of perfection do you want?"

Badrina was abused by her aunt, not empathy for her divorce case. Badrina was silent. The aunt is of course upset considering their divorce motive was caused by Badrina's attitude. However, isn't that what Badrina received from her tantric childhood?

Badrina dismissed her thoughts. Aunt Poppy is a good person, if there were no one, I would definitely not be living as I am now. That's how Badrina always doctrines herself.

"I'll be right back by the nearest flight hour, Auntie. Please send me the address of the hospital where Cantara was treated yes, Auntie," Badrina said politely.