THE FORMER SHADOW
47. Peace

Three months have passed since Badrina was discharged from the hospital. During that time, Badrina began to practice a way of living with self-respect. Badrina did not want to be easy to enter the hospital due to lack of self-care.

The books given by Danish brought Badrina to the desire to deepen the value of goodness in her own soul.

Badrina always felt inferior and unloved. It leads to an inability to know how to love properly. Badrina longed to live with peace of mind, but did not know how.

The woman does not expect excessive, she slowly practices doing daily activities with the power she has no longer about achieving targets or expectations.

Moreover, the practice of life he did was still a matter of months, while he was in the confines of feeling inferiority for decades.

Badrina was determined to be friendly and compassionate to herself.

Doing meditation became the new favorite of Badrina. Every day he took a few minutes to dive inside. Sometimes his mind bounces everywhere, which is where Badrina trains to be able to refocus.

Before being hospitalized, Badrina did not pay much attention to her health, especially when she was sad. Badrina can unknowingly hurt herself by reducing eating, drinking, and sleeping which has an impact on her declining health quality.

Badrina said that he had been wrong in thinking and dealing with life problems. Over time, Badrina learned to pay attention to health so that her mental and emotional are not easily prettiest when physically exhausted.

Badrina's relationship with Cantara grew warmer. They spend time together on many occasions.

There is no need to do activities that cost a lot of money, but rather lead to quality time together. Badrina has more time to invite Cantara to play, walk, and chat.

So too was Badrina's relationship with Arshaka.

After Badrina came home from the hospital at that time, Arshaka ventured to express his feelings.

"Rina, maybe this is too soon I say. But my heart urges me to tell you" Arshaka said three months ago as they spoke at Badrina's house, "me. And.. anxious when you enter the hospital, imagine in mind how if you really lost you," continued Arshaka with a serious look as if locking Badrina's gaze.

Mama Cantara who was then covered in a relaxed atmosphere chatting with Arshaka suddenly stiffened.

Badrina shook her head at Arshaka's sudden statement.

"I want to fix everything from the beginning with you" continued Arshaka because he saw Badrina who was just silent. Arshaka gulped, "i want to be my wife again and I will be your husband" Arshaka said seriously.

Arshaka's heart was pounding, spreading blood rustles causing his fingers to get wet from sweat. Plus Badrina's sharp gaze made Arshaka wrong.

Arshaka rubbed his nape, pulled the sheet of tissue from the box and threw it into the trash that seemed to be full of his garbage.

Arshaka took a deep breath, seeing Badrina's smile fade as sentence after sentence flung from her mouth.

Eight years ago, when Arshaka proposed to Badrina, it wasn't this stretch. Why is it awkward now? Is falling in love capable of creating tension in a person? There are many questions in Arshaka's mind.

"You... want to come back because of Cantara?" tanya Badrina shined Arshaka's eyeball. Caught in Arshaka's hearing the sentence contained charges.

"Of course not" said Arshaka smiling while improving the attitude of the body. Arshaka was happy that Badrina chimed in.

"I'm back, because. I. love you," said Arshaka nervously as a teenager expressing love to a potential girlfriend, "yes, I love you, Rina," Arshaka repeated.

"I don't like you being approached by Hafez. So, all my accusations that hurt you a while ago.that's because...." Arshaka is difficult to say, needs more courage.

"I'm jealous." Finally the word affection and possessiveness revealed by Arshaka himself. A sentence Badrina had not heard for as long as they had been married.

The man blinked to see Badrina's eyeballs widening.

Screeching reddish color on Badrina's cheeks. He closed his eyes as if detecting whether he was currently dreaming or a real event. The woman involuntarily touched her warming cheek.

Badrina gave a long breath. A sense of joy and disbelief raged within him. Of course he still does not believe, considering the time of being a husband this remark was never thrown.

They used to live under one roof, appreciating each other's activities, but there was no romantic communication like today.

"Are you sick?" tanya Badrina neutralized the awkward conditions created.

Arshaka.

He looked to the right and left trying to calm down. The man was thinking of answering Badrina.

"Yes" answered Arshaka, "I've been sick since we got divorced, ever since you separated from me. It hurts here" said Arshaka pointing to his chest. Serious raut is shown by Arshaka.

There was warmth on Badrina's face. This time he chuckled at Arshaka's reply. Badrina frowned her fingers, herself overwhelmed with nervousness.

"I didn't know you had the skills to fight," Badrina quipped to normalize the atmosphere. Long living in a quarrel with Arshaka makes Badrina feel strange with the attitude of the father of her daughter.

"This is not a hymn or a made-up sweet word, Rina," he said. Arshaka shifted her seat to the sofa next to Badrina. "I'm serious" he concluded, raising his hand to touch Badrina's fingers.

"Don't come near" said Badrina, sliding away from Arshaka. "I haven't answered anything. There can be no touch. Otherwise, I'll be angry," Badrina bursts. The woman was difficult to be sweet to her ex-husband, so the original attitude.

Arshaka held back. He smiled at Badrina not offended. The man became more understanding of Badrina with the type of temperament that was easy to heat.

Over time, the relationship between the two shows progress in a better direction. Plus the life practices that Badrina is currently promoting, have a positive impact on how she responds to one event.

Badrina, who was sitting in the garden next to her after a yoga activity, smiled to remember the incident where Arshaka asked her to return as a wife.

Badrina has given an answer to Arshaka. Tonight Badrina plans to go to Aunt Poppy's house to cancel all plans to approach her with Hafez.

To him Hafez was just a friend. She has no interest as an adult woman in the man. In Badrina's mind, Arshak was his future candidate.

Badrina hurried to tidy up her seat, returning home to get ready to visit Poppy later that night.