THE FORMER SHADOW
6. Advice

Arshaka returns home to his mother without saying goodbye to his ex-wife. How to say goodbye, after Badrina entered Arshaka heard the sound of the key from inside the room.

At home, Arshaka's mother, Nuraini, asked about her granddaughter's latest news. He had not been able to visit his granddaughter after leaving the hospital. Right now, they are sitting in the living room.

"It's healthy, Ma. But Canta started to rampage when I went home to Mama's house, so I waited for Canta to sleep and come back here" Arshaka explained, he remembered how his daughter's attitude was.

"It's a pity that Mama's granddaughter because of the parents' ego, she becomes confused like this. You're incising wounds in the heart." Nuraini voiced her opinion. His face looked sad when he remembered his grandson's condition.

"Ma...." Arshaka doesn't want to argue. No. Badrina, not her mother, was happy to corner her.

"Your mother never raised her voice about what happened to your household. You and Mama Canta also never ask for views or instructions about the household to Mama. I appreciate it, don't interfere. But now, hearing Mama's granddaughter get hurt, it feels like Mama wants to be angry with both of you," Nuraini grumbled honestly to her only child.

"I'm sorry, Ma. I didn't expect Canta to be this hard to see we weren't together" Arshaka said as she rubbed her face.

"What do you expect from your granddaughter? Want him to applaud your divorce? Or make a party as lively as his birthday party? Ckc ...." Nuraini's anger did not stop even though her son had apologized.

"Marriage that lasts many years naturally finds problems, both the source of the problem from within and without. But before lifting talaq, you need to learn to mature. Will be a blessing from God. When you often train it there is a positive psychological influence, your emotions are more stable. As a husband it is much needed" explained Mama Arshaka to her son.

"Ma.. I invited Badrina to refer back," said Arshaka honestly to his mother. Previously, Arshaka felt wrong without hearing the consideration of his mother he menalak wife, now he is willing to hear the views of Nuraini.

"Lantas, Badrina answered what?" nuraini.

"Refuse me, Ma," said Arshaka. The man lowered his gaze.

The two of them were enveloped in silence for a moment. "You're referring to Canta, aren't you?" guess Nuraini's.

"Well! How did Mama know?" Nuraini's guess is correct.

"Yes! Because Badrina refused. Shaka, you're using Canta as a reason for reference. Isn't there something precious in Badrina as the reason you asked for a referral?" search mama.

Arshaka confusedly replied, Badrina while being a wife carries out her duties well. Only his emotions bother Arshaka.

He just wants to live a quiet life without having to do a lot of bickering with his wife. But in recent years it has been rarely found. It makes her tired.

"I can't stand Ma with Badrina's unstable emotions. Almost every day is like that, especially since Canta was born." Arshaka instead talked about Badrina's shortcomings, not answering what valuable things he met from his wife.

Nuraini felt like he wanted to shake his son's head so that he realized from his mistake asking for a referral to his ex-wife, "Nah! Then why ask to refer to Canta's reasons? While you see your ex-wife has many flaws. Doesn't go into Mama's logic."

"I'm..." Arshaka paused her sentence, stupefied by Badrina's sacrifices for their marriage to last.

"If you have not been able to find a reason to refer from within yourself and Badrina, you should avoid offering a referral. Mama worries that there will be a second divorce because of Badrina's emotions again." Nuraini was heard defending her former son-in-law. He not only wants children to go back and forth noisily for the same reason.

"For women's emotions, Mama's secret love is important to you as a man. You need to dig into the root cause of his negative emotions" he reminded Arshaka.

"For the cause, what do you mean?" Arshaka did not understand Nuraini's intentions.

"What is the most dominant Badrina motion you're not happy about?" nuraini.

"You've already found out the root of the problem, why does Badrina grumble so much and get angry?" Nuraini asked back to her son.

As Arshaka was about to answer, her mother stopped.

"The answer is you keep it in your heart. You need to think clearly. If it can be answered, you dig again, dig again until you see what the roots are. Mama's gonna rest first. Happy training Shaka. Do not repeat the mistake again by asking for a referral without you evaluating the cause of your divorce," Nuraini explained at length to her son. He patted Arshaka's shoulder slowly as a sign of encouragement.

Arshaka who was left pondering in his heart while astonished at himself turned out that he did not know much about the emotions and feelings of his wife. So, what kind of relationship is he living with his ex-wife all this time? Whether Badrina is happy to be his wife, has he ever been hurt, or feeling disappointed and other feelings that come to the heart of the ex-wife.

Finding that reality, Arshaka is eager to have time to talk with Badrina. However, given the attitude of the ex-wife who avoided him Arshaka needs to slowly approach him back.

About love, does Arshaka still have it? Arshaka also hesitated, it takes time to convince himself.

Arshaka's rest tonight seems calmer than it was a few days ago. At least he began to be able to parse a little that he had a share in this divorce, not just Badrina's fault.

Arshaka was raised by a single parent. His mother and father had separated not because of divorce but because of the fate of his father who went home first to the Khalik. As his only child, Arshaka was educated with good discipline by his mother.

Arshaka is a typical person who rarely shows negative emotions, usually he harbors so that he has difficulty accepting people with negative emotions.

It carried on until he chose a wife. The perfectionist Badrina is considered the most suitable choice, allegedly able to balance the emotional side of Arshaka.

At first their household was cool, unfortunately on the way Badrina was driven by his own feelings that arise when experiencing pressure.

Unknowingly, his net closed slowly. There is still hope of tomorrow to step in to recognize his wife again, even though the divorce of Arshaka and Badrina has been broadcast.

In the morning at the Badrina residence, Cantara had woken up to go to her mother's room by hugging her beloved little doll given by her father a year ago. He asked about Arshaka's whereabouts.

Badrina said she had gone to work, the boy looked sad. It was unusual for her father to just leave without greeting and kissing her.

Badrina let out a heavy sigh, "Canta, you should get used to it if papa in the morning is not home." Badrina began to try to assert her attitude.

"Why Ma? Is Canta naughty until the morning Papa won't see you?" The bitter question reached Badrina's ears, Cantara blamed herself.

"No, Son. Papa's getting busy. So, get to the office." Either way, Badrina lied to her son about the separation of herself and Arshaka.

"Is Papa's job very important, Ma? Kissing Canta didn't even get a chance?" Canta still scouts his mother with questions. The boy was completely confused by the condition this month.

Seeing Badrina was silent. Cantara's eyes glazed over, he immediately came out of his mother's room with his doll in his left hand.

The little boy went back into the room, got into the bed and spoke to his doll, "Hero, I'm sad again. You stay with me, don't leave me." Cantara hugged her doll.

Outside Badrina's room which followed her son's heartache, she felt so devastated and guilty. Badrina became afraid that Cantara would suffer injuries like she had in childhood.

Although Cantara has both parents, there is no longer togetherness. Badrina closed her eyes, tears streaming down her cheeks.