When You Think Wrong
Life and Death

I smiled at Mila and I grabbed her, I saw Mila's face wet but she was not affected by my arms. And I already told him. Mila just sobbed and it was so obvious I heard

“You are crying Mil. You don't want me to nitipin my son to you?” I nodded with a soft voice

Mila still did not answer so I rubbed her back.

“I will never forget our friendship Mil, you are always there for me, and you are always at the vanguard to defend me. But this time, I won't ask for a plea from you, but I'm asking for far more weight than you've ever done. Take care and look at my three children, I'm sure I didn't mislead them with you”

Mila was still sobbing in silence. And for the rest of my life, only this time I saw her cry. A tough friend who never felt afraid of anything, who was always ready to face danger, who was always our defender the five of us turned out to be crying too. And that's very funny in my opinion

I hugged Mila, trying to calm her down

“Mil, don't cry dong. I'm sad that you cry. Is my duty so heavy for you that you cry when I ask for help?” reload me

I did not get Mila's answer. Even now Mila is sitting on the floor with a chaotic face and tears that do not stop flowing

“Mil, I'm going yes…. I'm picking up the kids. I love you Mil...” lirihku back while crouching hold it

Then I stood up, and did not look at Mila who was still sobbing.

Mila who entered the operating room could only flinch with a wet face watching how Arik and Naya were so shaken hugging their mother's body. Joseph, who was in the doctor's arms, was given to the nurse and one of the doctors asked Naya and Arik to release their arms to their mother, because the two doctors will again try to save the life of their mother who is already on the edge of the horn

“Take away his son doctor, hand it over to us. We will try our best” said OpGin's doctor towards Mila who stood at the end of Dinda's leg

Mila shook her head, she just extended her hand towards Naya and Arik so that the two children burst into her arms

“Busy will congratulations on aunty?” naya's question was unclear

Mila quietly did not answer Naya's question, she just continued to look at Dinda's face and computer screen in turn. And his heart was racing as the computer screen that displayed Dinda's heart rate dropped

The nurse holding Joseph tried to calm the child. But Joseph's cries grew louder and uncontrollable. The nurse who was holding him was confused.

“You endure Din....” inner Mila frustrated when he saw if Dinda's heart rate dropped dramatically.

Until finally the computer screen really turns into a straight line and reads long tiettt. Naya and Arik, who were in Mila's arms, turned to the operating table when they heard the sound, and the two immediately let go of their arms at Mila and rushed to the operating table and shouted hysterically

“Ibuuukkkk Shouted the two while clutching their mother's body

Mila immediately sat limp on the floor, her tears growing unstoppable. Her cry that was originally just a slow sobbing had turned into a soft cry laden with sadness. Joseph was crying loudly. Two doctors tried again by taking a pacemaker, and asked Arik and Naya to get out of their mother's chest

Naya and Arik let go of their arms to her mother, and retreated. The two could only cry while holding hands watching the doctor put a pacemaker on their mother's chest. Their mother's body was lifted upwards when a pacemaker was placed into her chest, and it lasted up to several times

Mila, who had stood up, immediately took Joseph and held him in his arms. Kiss the face of the toddler with tears. While the doctor who was trying to save Dinda now just shook his head and his hand down limply with a pacemaker that was still in his hand

“Forcuse us, we have tried” ogled one of the doctors

“Ibuuuukkkkk Back Naya and Arik scream hysterically and hit their mother's chest again. The two cried out in tears as they continued to call their mother

“Ibuk....., don't leave us buk....” shouted Naya.

Arik who was still a child also cried roaring by continuing to shake his mother's shoulders, asking her mother to wake up immediately

And Mila, who knew that her friend would be gone forever, could only sit weakly on the floor with Joseph still in her arms

“Dinda......, why did you leave so soon Din?. Your children still need you...” softly with a poignant voice.

Her crying was more unstoppable, with Joseph holding in her chest, Mila to the point of crying bitterly. The nurse standing nearby tried to take Joseph out of her arms, but Mila refused by keeping Joseph in her chest. No matter at that time, Joseph was crying very hard

“Thank you already left son, your mother has left.....” lirih Mila pilu while clutching tightly Joseph.

“How's doctor? Did we tell his family who was outside?” ask OpGin's doctor to the senior doctor who helped him deal with Dinda

“Sabar yes son, forgive doctor, because the doctor can not save your mother” shriek

Naya who was still on her mother's chest continued to cry bitterly by unceasingly calling her mother's name

“Naya same sisters stay the same who is buk if mom left?. Mom can't go. We still need ibuk....” lament Naya.

Mila's tears flowed more and more when she heard Naya's wailing, the corner of her heart that was torn more and more hurt. While OpGin's doctors could only take a deep breath looking at the entire operating room, they were all crying. Then he approached Mila and rubbed Mila's back

“Everything is destined doctor, we have tried our best. But God says something else, what can we do?. The stoic doctor yes. I know this is very painful for doctors, but I am sure the doctor strongly accepts this ordeal”

Mila shook her head, then she could only resign when her fellow doctor pulled her head. In the chest of her fellow doctor, back crying Mila broke. And he again gave up Joseph to be taken by the nurse who again tried to calm the crying toddler who still did not stop

“He's my best friend doctor. My best friend. I was willing to do anything for my best friend, but I failed to save his life. I failed doctor...” isak Mila.

The opGin doctor nodded his head by continuously rubbing Mila's shaking back.

“What should I say with his two children doctor. They were hoping that I would be able to save their mother. But I have broken the hopes of the two children, I am a bad doctor, I am evil...”.

OpGin doctors did not respond to Mila's regret, he continued to rub the doctor's back, while Arik, who was in the senior doctor's arms, turned to his mother whose eyes had been closed since, and again his cry broke so that he re-embraced the waist of the doctor who still continued to hold him

“Adek here...” isak Naya towards Arik.

Arik let go of his arms and returned the two lowered their heads to hold their mother's body. Back the two cried bitterly and Mila who turned to the operating table, saw Dinda's two children embracing powerless to withstand the sadness and pain that hit their hearts

Mila got up and immediately pulled Dinda's two children into her arms. The third now hugged in their bitter cries

“Pardon aunty, forgive aunty yes son because aunty failed to save your mother”

Naya and Arik did not reply, both still sobbing. And the nurse who had calmed Joseph down since then had now been helped by the opGin doctor to calm Joseph down to keep the child quiet

I walked on a dark road I never walked. And I feel alien to this path, there is a sense of horror when I walk this path alone. I stopped my steps, turned my body around and looked around me, but I found nothing but darkness

“Ya Alloh, where am I?” lirihku shuddered in horror

Then I continued my steps again, even with a feeling of fear that hit my chest. And back I had to stop my steps when I heard the sound of crying. I glanced to the right and to the left, guessing where the source of the crying sound was

But back I found nothing but darkness. But the sound of crying grew clearer and clearer in my ears. Even her crying was so loud

“Yusuf....?” My words choked when I was silent for a long time and tried to guess the sound of the cry

“Iya it's Yusuf's voice. I'm pretty sure it was Joseph. Yes Alloh where is my son?” I muttered again and accelerated my pace

Yusuf's cry sounded so loud and it made me worry about him even more. I shouted to her name, hoping that if she heard my voice and would stop crying. But it seemed that Joseph did not hear my call, the proof that he was crying more and more

“Ya Alloh, where am I. Why haven't I reached my son since. Though the sound of her crying was very close in my ears” my mumbling panicked

I accelerated and kept going until I fell many times. But I didn't care how the fallen me woke up just to get to my son. I was forced to stop when I saw a bright light suddenly appear in front of me

I used both hands to cover my eyes that were glare due to the bright light, and tried to calm down and not be afraid even though my legs actually shook so much my fear

“Who are you?” ask the light in front of me

“Why are you blocking my steps?. I want to go to my son's place. My son needs me” back I said in a trembling voice

The light was still silent so back I asked about its existence

“Who are you?” ask me again

“Angel...”.