When You Think Wrong
Letting Go With Hearts

I immediately went into the room and locked myself in there

*Naya, lock the door to my room, don't let your father into your room

Yes buk*

Then I covered my face in a frenzy while sobbing

The clothes attached to my body are still official clothes, I have not changed. And outside it was already dark, with surely the sound of Adzan reverberating

With a rough wipe of my wet face, I got up and went into the bathroom

I was in there long enough and had come out with a fresher body, and I carried out my duty and my prayer was one

"HasbunAllahu Wa Ni'mal Wakiil"

I leave all my business to the Master of the Universe, let Him work, for I can no longer

After that I went down and found Adi still sitting in his place earlier. I didn't care, I went into the kitchen and warmed up the vegetables

Finished with that I immediately served him and came back out of the kitchen, walking towards my son's second room

"Evening is ready baby" I said as I knocked on their bedroom door

Soon my two children came out of their rooms and we walked past Adi without making a sound

When my two children started eating, I went back to the front room, calling Adi

"The food is ready, eat with the children"

Adi turned to me, his gaze seemed to be in disbelief and I went back and did not want to keep looking at his eyes

When I sat down, Adi appeared and sat down. My two children were still silent and kept eating, and I immediately gave him the plate

I looked back at Adi stunned when I gave her the plate. Taking a deep breath, I took back the plate he was still holding

Then I started filling the plate with rice and side dishes, only then did I give it to Adi

After that, I sat back down and started eating in silence

Naya refused the plate because it was finished, quickly drank the water in the glass in front of her and turned to Arik

"Nobody first?"

Arik shook his head, and followed up pushing his plate which still contained rice

"Not finished buk"

I nodded with a smile. The two then stood up from their seats and left the dining table

Me and Adi are still eating, and I am silent again

Adi kept staring at me, and I pretended not to see him

"Open, drink..."

I silently took the glass and filled it with water and placed it in front of Adi

I ate again and did not look at Adi

"Maybe this is the last night we had dinner together" he said

I was still silent and as if I had not heard his words and was speeding up my meal so that I could leave before him

After the contents of my plate ran out I immediately drank the water in the glass to the toilet and immediately brought my former plate and my two children to the sink

Adi just looked at me expressionlessly and I immediately left her alone

I went straight into Naya's room joking with Arik. Seeing me enter the two immediately scrambled to sit on my lap

Be us kidding and I laugh occasionally at the babbling of my two children

And Adi who sat back in the living room just looked towards Naya's room where he heard the crisp laughter of Dinda and her two children

Adi could only take a deep breath and lay her head on the back of the chair

Hpnya who rang the sign of the incoming call from Yesa did not digubrisnya, even the incoming message from his second wife was not opened at all

Cigarette smoke filled the room from the cigarette that was ignited by Adi. He'll smoke a lot when he's stressed, and he still does

And I just shook my head when I saw it.

"Oh, we need to talk"

I who was walking behind the chair immediately turned to him

"About our relationship"

I smiled bitterly while shaking my head

"There's nothing we need to talk about anymore mas, we just wait for our divorce trial, after that we're both free to walk each other"

"Please buk...."

I took a deep breath looking at her face and then with a peck I sat down

"I'm sorry I'm buk..."

I flinch at Adi's apology, I hear her voice tremble as she utters that sentence

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry buk..."

I still didn't look at him, I looked the other way. I'm afraid I'm sorry to hear his regret

"I didn't expect it to be like this, honestly I'm khilaf buk"

"The Khilaf is not possible by marrying behind my back, it is impossible to plan to deceive me, it is impossible to drain our finances, it is impossible to make a house and buy a car for your savings"

"It's all you've planned, I'm the stupid one not realizing it"

I saw Adi rubbing his face rough

"There is nothing we can fix in our relationship, everything has run aground"

"I'm also increasingly aware that our relationship is a toxic relationship, not a healthy one"

"Just like you said, our relationship is not healthy, our relationship only hurts each of us"

"So it's better that we end this relationship, so that we can live quietly with the new family mas, and I'm calm with our children"

Adi's tears flowed at my words, but I just smiled bitterly at her crying

"I've learned to accept God's fate by deciding on the soul of both of us, I sincerely accept it, I'm sure this all has a silver lining for both of us"

"I'm sorry I'm buk..."

Back I smiled bitterly

"Pardon is easy, it is hard to forget, I have forgiven you, forgiven everything wrong and your khilaf who has cheated on me, did kdrt to me, but the hard thing is to forget everything you did to me"

I took a deep breath

"I'm sorry buk...."

"There is nothing to be sorry about, everything has happened, broken glass can not be put together again, as well as our relationship"

"I also apologize if during my time as your wife I was wrong, I did not appreciate you, often defiant, never please your heart, I apologize"

I saw Adi crying more and more with as much as possible, I couldn't help but cry to see him too

"I'm fine, I'm aware of my flaws, if I'm perfect there's no way you're turning away from me"

Adi shook his head and moved to sit next to me. She quickly hugged me and cried deeply

I also cried so much. Honestly I feel sad in my heart, however much more twelve years we have been together, we have always been together in joy, started from nothing, built together and succeeded together, until finally it was broken together

"God, there's nothing we need to cry about, everything is best for all of us"

Refuse me to push his chest that still tightly clutched me

"Please buk, let me hug you one last time"

I took a deep breath and shook with tears that continued to flow

"Keep me, everything will be fine" I said sadly

"But I can't separate from you..."

I smiled bitterly again by rubbing his arm that was holding me from the side

"Could, could. How many months have you been at your young wife's house? pretty lame?"

Adi shook his head strongly and was still crying

"Had it been, if indeed our soul mate still existed, in any way God would have brought us back together, but if indeed our soul mate had been exhausted, then, In Syaa Alloh this is the best for us"

After that I pushed back strongly Adi chest then I stood up and immediately went up to my room and did not look back