When You Think Wrong
Back to My Parents' Home

Tomi retreated, and could only see the cry of his wife's sorrow in the pain that was also felt in his chest. My companions who were standing around me took deep breaths, looking at me with sad and grim faces

“We're home, huh? We have been here long enough, you are not too healthy Din..”.

I didn't respond to Mila's words, I just kept crying in my son's arms. Then alternately my friends persuaded me so that I again had to cry in silence when I saw the mound of my fetal land that I had to leave

“If your condition is healthy, you can come here again. The most important thing is your condition Din, yes?” mila's back persuaded me

I'm nodding. Then I stood up with the help of Naya and Rohaya. Taking a deep breath, I looked back down at the red earth mound near my feet

“I'm not home son, but I assure you, that my mother will often come here” lirihku choked because my tears have fallen again

Then I crouched down again, and touched a small headstone, just as a marker if there was a tomb even though only a five-month-old fetus. I kissed the headstone with tears, and my shoulders shook again as I kissed the headstone

“Ya Alloh is sick like this...?” I pushed my chest

Tomi again rubbed her face rough when she saw me crying when she hugged her daughter's headstone. But I don't care about her tears, what's in my chest right now is the anger and disappointment in her that I feel is so high up in the Himalayas

“Ayo.....” invite Mila to touch my shoulder which forces me to get back up and stand by taking a deep breath

I turned back to him after we walked a few steps. My friends stopped when I stopped. And they looked at me like I did

“We know you're a great woman Din. You can definitely pass this” touch Princess on my shoulder

I didn't answer, I took a deep breath and threw it down violently, then I resumed my steps. While in front of the car line, Tomi approached me

“Smobile is with me huh?”

I'm shaking. My puffy eyes only looked blankly as he said so.

“We go home we” he said gently while touching my hand

“Which house? the house your mother said was your home? A house I don't have rights to?”

My friends gulped their saliva, and then they swallowed each other

“I remember everything now Tom. That night your mother told me that the house was not our home because it was bought with your money. So which house do you say is our home?”

Tomi was silent, confused as to what to answer for my words. And I looked back blankly at him with a bitter smile

“Mil, take me to my mother's house. I want to be hugged my mother” answered me while back sobbing

Mila nodded, and guided me to her car. Then I entered with my three children, while my other friends got into Lisa and Princess's car. Mila drove the car slowly towards my mother's house. Along the way I again sobbed in memory of the fetal tomb that I had just visited

“Dong Din already. This is the message of your destiny. You must be steadfast, strong”

I just threw my face away, looked out the window at Mila's words. Slow but sure, Mila's car finally got into the hallway of my mother's house. My parents greeted me when they saw me get out of the car

As soon as I saw my mother, I immediately ran and went straight into her deck. And cry straight away

My father rubbed my head, and I saw his face wet too. Then I took turns hugging him, and he led me to walk into the house, and when I got home again my tears broke

My mother who hugged me finally came back crying to see me who did not stop crying

“I'm sorry if I ever hurt your mother. I believe the test that befell me is because of the many sins that I have committed as ibuk” lirihku

“Dad sorryin also yes well. I'm sure I let Dad down. That's why God rebuked me by taking a child from my womb” my isak

My father shook his head. Then he rubbed my head again with a love that made me take off my hook on my mother and then hold my father

“Two times I was in a coma, and twice I was given the chance to live with God. I believe this is all because of the prayers of father and mother. If it wasn't for the strength of your prayers, I'm sure I'd be dead”

My mother shakes hearing my words

“Don't say so son, seeing you unconscious for a very long time, mother's life seems to have been at the end of the throat”

I was back crying to hear my mother's answer. My friends who enter the house, watching our day by shrinking the corner of their eyes as well

“But rest yes, the room has Naya neatkan” said Naya who made me lift my head

“Naya is right Din, you have to rest” Og Mila who forced a smile on my direction

I then turned to Tomi who was sitting not far from us, then turned to look at my parents back

“I can stay in this house right buk?”

Both of my parents nodded quickly without asking for approval from Tomi first

“Let Dinda here first Tom, until she is completely healthy then you can take her home” said my father

“I won't be back in that house again. It's not my home, if I go home, I'll go home to my own. I still have a home”

Without needing to negotiate again, I immediately stood followed by my six best friends who entered my room. Mila immediately raised the pillow when I got to the room, and immediately asked me to lie down

Immediately the release of medical devices in the box he had been carrying since. Then he checked my blood pressure

“Still dizzy?” tannya

I shook my head

“Your blood pressure is very weak Din. Don't mind much. Get enough rest, he said when he saw the results of my blood pressure

Just as Mila removed the tensimeter from my hand, Rohaya immediately extended her hand

“Why do you?” ask Mila

“Ya check blood pressure is Mil. You carry the tools, right?” the answer that makes me smile

“Lu high blood. So you do not get angry mulu, quickly metong lu later” said Mila who directly head teyeng by Rohaya

“His power you are also high blood Mil. The proof is that you are angry mulu” replied Rohaya

Mila sneered at Rohaya's reply, then immediately released tensi meter from Rohaya's hand and pulled the hand of Lisa who happened to be standing near Rohaya

“Loh why pull my hand?” ask Lisa in shock

“Ah do not need to bring. All your blood I checked, let's know you're low blood or high”

The others were only able to gawk and nod in agreement with Mila's words. Dare not argue, because what Mila said is true

“You are calm huh?, don't mind much more. You must always remember, you are not alone. There are us who will always be faithful to accompany you wherever you want” said Rohaya who answered a quick nod from others

I took a heavy breath hearing his words

“It's heavy for me Spirit. I had to lose the child I was supposed to give birth to soon. You know the Spirit myself, I still felt the movement of kicking him at night when we checked. And the doctor told me himself that my son was okay. Then why suddenly my son is not there?”

Rohaya smiled, then rubbed my arms many times

“We do not know what destiny God has designed for the future Din. But rest assured that God gave you this trial, because God knows you can get through it. God knows you are a strong woman, so you are given trials. And we're all very confident, that you'll be able to get through this. We are sure you passed the exam this time”

My tears flowed again to Rohaya's advice. Then Rohaya pulled my head, and stuck it on his shoulder

“You are God's chosen woman who gave her this great trial. Rest assured Din, that there are many women out there with trials like you. There is even a test that is much harder than you. We were all tested. But with different exams”

“I for example, I tested God with mediocre economic conditions. The princess is tested by handling a severe case, which we do not know what is mentally strong when it comes to arguing with other lawyers. Lisa's test was also heavy, she was faced with a huge pile of money before her. If he is not strong in faith, can be tempted him with so much money, right Lis?”

Lisa immediately glared her eyes dislike when Rohaya said her name, while her other friend who initially looked serious listening to Rohaya's words immediately restrained their smile when she saw Lisa glaring

“I also in Din test. We all have exams, but our exams are different” sidelines Vita

“Betul Din's. Our tests are different. I was tested with patients, with patient families, with my three children, not to mention my husband” Mila complained

“But your husband is good Mil. Brother Julistiar is very good with you, different from Tomi..”.

“Iya anyway..” Mila replied with a stiff smile

“If the behavior is not good, can die by Mila” chirps the Princess who is able to make others chuckle

Rohaya clicked to see the others chuckling, so that made everything instantly speechless and refocused staring at me

“You are really yes....” furious Rohaya.

“The essence of gini Din. Every human being is tested with a different test. It depends on each individual how he faces the test. And we hope and we are all sure, that you are able to pass this test”

I nodded and smiled bitterly at Rohaya's advice. Then I spread out my hands that made all my friends enter my arms. And we got close to each other with full force

While outside, there was the sound of a child being able to make me lift my head

“That's Yusuf..” I said straight out of the bed and walked quickly to the door

My whole best friend followed me out. And it turns out true my guess, in front of Joseph was with Mr. Burlian and his wife and two daughters

“Yusuf....” my words held back tears.

I walked quickly towards his wife, Mr. Burlian, with Joseph in his trunk. Without excuse I immediately took Joseph's body which kept moving when I saw him

My tears immediately spilled when I managed to get Joseph and now hold him

“This is my son. This is ibuk....” I said as I unceasingly kissed his face with my tears that kept flowing