Mathelina
Chapter 11's

I Need You

The goddess hugged Matthew at home. It's true said Monica, her son knows exactly what to do to deal with his problems.

The goddess took Matthew by the arm, led him to the dining room to continue the delayed lunch.

With a soft sigh, Matthew let go of his mother's circle of hands and rejected it. He reasoned that he was tired right now, wanting to rest in his room.

Matthew threw his body in the bed. The white-colored ceiling of the room slowly gave rise to the shadow of someone who was about to part with it. His hands flailed, as if stroking that person's face.

However, he realized, when the illusion disappeared. Elina, not believing that the girl said good-bye while smiling. Does he not know that he does not want to hear it? In fact, he wanted Elina to prevent him from leaving.

“If he asks, I will obey him,” mumbled grudgingly.

Elina, who had just arrived home, locked herself in a room. He stood at the edge of the window, staring at the raindrops that fell a few minutes ago. Dew blurs the view of a crowded street by children who are having fun in the rain.

A few moments later, he dissolved in a daydream. A glance at memory, unconsciously warms the heart. This hand, it was grasped by the man, and it was the last moment that would not be repeated again.

His head was currently filled with the shadow of the man. He sat down, and saw the dew on the window. He raised his index finger, drawing something on the dew. “Mister M” that's what he wrote.

He pensively again while scooping. “This is finally. From now on, I have to rearrange all plans. I hope, after mom recovers, there are no more bad events.”

-;-;-;-

Nothing has changed in London, even though a month has passed. Matthew who looks now calmer, and active as usual.

Since leaving Jakarta, Matthew has drowned himself in his work. There is no time for fun, although his three best friends invite him to spend the night with just a sip of champagne.

“You want lunch outside, Sir?” ask Gery, his secretary, after Matthew signs a file.

“Buy me—”

Matthew remained silent. What he wants at this time is a portion of rujak that the sauce is rather spicy. But this is London, where is there such food?

“So, you want me to buy what?” gery asked, breaking Matthew's daydream.

“Go. I will eat later,” replied Matthew, then moved from his chair.

Gery exits the room as Matthew goes to the large window behind him. He leaned there, staring at one of the buildings, until finally his imagination soared to nowhere.

Eyes closed. Still fresh in his memory, when the tiny body he hugged from behind; so warm and voluptuous. That rose pink lips, it sips, so sweet as honey. Every touch, how he had the woman completely, was firmly imprinted in his mind.

Elina, that name is mentioned almost every day and in her dreams. The woman had locked her mind with her shadow.

How's the girl doing? Is she okay? Is he happy there? Does Elina remember the first man to have her body? It's just going to be a question that will never be answered.

“You're not a robot, Matt.”

The cry of someone returning his spirit to his body. Spontaneously opened his eyes, without turning his head, he greeted the man, “Take care of your words. Was my fist less hard back then?”

Fritz shuddered. No. gabe. It was enough that he received a blow from Matthew, once the three men reached London.

“You're this, I'm just kidding. Don't take it seriously,” he reasoned, with a bit of a quiver in horror given the events of the day. “Sevelas of warm americano, I think it is suitable for today's weather? Across your office is cafe—you're lazy out, right?—we buy there. How?”

Is throwing a cold gaze enough to drive away the bad guy? Maybe not. Just made him shudder and pause for a moment.

“Matt,” call Fritz, after less than 5 minutes silence. “I see, are you happy to daydream? What the hell are you thinking? A job? A lady? Oh, Lisa or Elina?”

Matthew turned his head quickly, his gaze this time was extremely sharp. Fritz did not dare tease her anymore, and completely locked his mouth tightly.

“OK, I'm leaving, yes, Matthew.”

Fritz hurriedly said goodbye and frowned from Matthew's room. Really scary guy! Why can't he stop the bucket's mouth?

On the way, Fritz muttered to himself. What he said was not wrong at all. Elina changed Matthew's life completely. Kevin and Franz said, as they were at the airport, going back to London, Matthew turned towards the entrance. His feet did not seem to want to step away from Jakarta. The best mistake is there.

Fritz expressed an idea to Kevin and Franz: are we going to Jakarta again?

“No, we should not interfere,” refuse Kevin.

“True, it's enough we make trouble with Matthew,” timpal Franz.

What to go to Jakarta for? Matthew was hesitant when assigned to a company in Jakarta. Even if there was his mother, brother, and nephew, if it would only make him remember his bitter past, he would not be happy.

Matthew put the letter moved the task on the table. “Tell the President, I'm not ready.”

“But, Sir ..”

“Come out!” Matthew shook his hands, silencing Gary.

The secretary left the room shortly afterwards. Matthew leaned against the back of the chair while sighing. The letter Gary had brought attracted attention. He glanced at it a little while thinking.

To Jakarta? Should he go there?

-;-;-;-

Song “good morning” from Ran, streaming from the radio in the middle room. In the room, Elina had dressed up, stuffing some books into her bag.

He looked at the form that was filled. Today, he will hand it over. After everything had been prepared, Elina walked out of the room.

It feels so happy. The smile that had once faded away had re-expressed on his lips. The mother who was his greatest happiness had been operated on and was declared cured. Now, I started a new business that is selling rice uduk.

“Kak, not so leaving?” Frasya patted Elina on the shoulder, blurring her daydream.

Elina saw the girl approaching the mother while carrying a box for food. “Resek really you, Dek!” he pretended to be angry.

Frasya smiled, then gave the box to mother. “How much is this pack, Bu?” tanya Frasya peeked at a large red plastic containing several packs of rice uduk.”

Along with Frasya's question answered, the sound of a motor engine was heard. Raima, he came to deliver Frasya, and he went to the market to buy something.

Frasya immediately got on the bike. Raima who saw Elina was tidy, offered her a ride as well.

Elina smiled. I am so grateful that he is paired with his best friend who is so good to his family. But Elina refused. “Gue by bus.”

“Yakin, lo?”

Elina nodded, then kissed her mother's hand. “Elin go first, yes, Bu.”

Elina hummed at every step, enjoying the chirping of birds, the warmth of the morning sun while carrying the form. I can't wait to get back to college. The normal life that used to be planned, goes back according to its rotation.

He stopped at a stop, and rushed on a newly arrived kopaja bus. He chose to sit by the window, in order to enjoy the air that has not been too polluted by pollution.

The bus stopped at a stop near the campus. Nervous, after months of college leave, and now standing in front of the campus gate. Still remembered the scorn of those people; but he was not afraid, he would finish his studies which were only one semester away.

Elina took a breath. Alright Elina, you need to be ready! He murmured inwardly, steadying his decision. Then, he walked to the campus area. He looked to the right and left until he headed to a corridor. Nothing has changed. The students here seemed to have forgotten his figure.

Elina squinted, reading the small board hanging above a room. Ah, soon the destination is almost there! He smiled, then accelerated his pace. The change of course clock form never separated from his hands, as if it should not be scuffed or torn, because the paper must reach the hands of the lecturer.

A step away, he was near the door. However, his steps came to a halt when there was an uncomfortable feeling in his throat.

“Huek!” Elina spontaneously closed her mouth.

What the hell's going on? It seems like this morning it was fine. Why is it suddenly so nauseous? Oh no, the nausea is unbearable. This form he forgot for a moment, he rushed to run to the bathroom and took out his entire entrails in the sink.

Suddenly his body was squeezed and his head was dizzy. He leaned near the sink to recuperate, before exiting the bathroom.

This was strange, his body condition suddenly weakened. Is it because he is too tired? Then, he washed his face with water in the sink, accidentally staring at the reflection of his reflection in the mirror.

He realized that this was not because of the condition of his body that was not fit. He does not want to suspect or agree, but if seen from the symptoms, it may be signs of pregnancy.

Elina closed her mouth and glared anxiously. In a hurry he refused. Nah! Don't conclude too quickly. What is feared is uncertain if not examined first.

The tears that flowed down her cheeks. The plan is changed, the form in his hand will not be submitted now. He rushed out of the campus, stopping an angkot who took him to a nearby clinic.

-;-;-;-

A pretty crowded little clinic. Elina walked into the lobby of the clinic, approaching the registration desk. His steps hesitated; his hands moved uneasily ever since he was in front of the clinic. Anxiety faced reality, it made him want to turn away.

But the final decision was to go inside the clinic and register as a patient. A woman in white, who from the looks of her judges, questioned her on several matters, such as personal data and complaints.

The woman gave her a queue number, and told her to wait before her turn was called.

As if his legs could not be moved, he stepped slowly in the corridor that led to the examination hall. In front of the room, there were several people sitting waiting for their turn. There was a married couple, a mother with her child and a younger sister accompanying her, while next to Elina a large pregnant woman was alone.

The woman smiled and greeted, as Elina sat beside her. “Only? Where's her husband?”

Elina simply smiled in response.

“Still young? Newly married, huh?” The woman asked again, and Elina answered nothing but a smile. How else? He can't lie.

“Mbak alone?” Elina purposely asked, so that the woman would no longer pry about her.

“Iya.” As she replied, Elina felt guilty because the woman looked down miserably. Then, he looked at the happy couple over there with a bitter smile. “When a woman is pregnant with her first child, the husband will do anything for his wife. But maybe I'll never feel that way.”

Of course, every couple is looking forward to the birth of the first child which should be well taken care of. But it will be different in the second pregnancy and beyond, as it happens in a pregnant woman who is delivered by her sister to the clinic.

“Mbak pregnant child to how many?” elina asked and then turned her eyes back.

“Child first.”

Elina nodded. Actually, it's just a question of pleasantries. He is not interested in the lives of others.

But the woman continued while gently stroking her distended stomach. His smile was bitter. “We have been waiting for this child for 5 years. But my husband hasn't had time to carry her, because death took her from my side.”

Elina sympathized to hear it, as well as salute. The woman remained strong despite being pregnant. To his amazement, he kept fighting, never complaining or crying at difficult times in the stories he heard from the woman.

The woman added again while stroking her stomach. “Because I am sure, God has another more beautiful plan by presenting this gift.”

The conversation ended because it was now the woman's turn to be examined by a doctor. Elina smiled and let her. Elina's turn to be called was after two other patients. And he went into the examination room, more or less for almost half an hour of waiting.

“Good morning.” Just entering, a friendly greeting from a doctor greeted him. Surprisingly, the doctor named Andriani was very cheap to smile, very different from the woman at the registration place earlier. Is the doctor accepting the employee?

“So, you want to check if you are pregnant or not?” ask the doctor, who was given a nod by Elina in response. “OK. Have you checked with a test pack?”

“Numbered, Doc.”

The doctor understood. Then, he sent Elina to the bathroom, which was in the corner of this room, with a small container as a place to hold her urine. Elina did her orders according to procedure. The urine is then given to the nurse to be examined using a test pack.

The doctor smiled, when the result of the thing had come out, as if all this was such happy news. But Elina felt that it was a bad sign.

“Congratulations, Miss Elina. In a moment, you will be a mother-to-be,”.

His whole body felt weak. What is feared is happening. He repeatedly muttered like that in his heart. Destroyed is his future. The plan he designed was also a mess. How will his life go next? I don't know, Elina can't think about it.

-;-;-;-

Trained, Elina walked on the pavement with eyes filled with tears. Issued paper forms to be submitted to the campus. This thing is no longer useful. There is no hope to continue her ideals, because God predestined her as a mother.

With a sobbing that grew, it ripped the paper apart, then let the flakes fly in the wind, along with its beautiful plan.

There was no happy ending for him. That instant happiness was only a respite from all suffering, before God again tested it with a more severe trial.

This pregnancy made her body easily weak. His head was dizzy again, and his legs were unable to support his body, until suddenly his body almost fell, if someone did not rush to catch him.

Elina was surprised, someone propped up her body from behind. When he looked, he was stunned to see that figure.

“Are you ok, Elina?” The soft voice of a man, whose shadow he tried to cast out a month ago.

His eyes were hot, unable to stem these tears.

Matthew, I need you.[]