My coach
Episode 138's

Risda sat at the edge of the window of the room in the narrow room, looking at the sky soaring in the air. The shadow of his past continues to appear in his memory, where his family is fine and now his world seems to be destroyed.

There was nothing else that could make her continue to endure, wanting once the girl ended her life at this moment. Since the family split, the girl looks only live bones and skin, her body is very thin even looks like being sick.

Risda seemed to have no hope for life, even her body was often trembling due to lack of eating. Soon a nearby qiro'ah was heard, and it made him sob.

"I want to go to the sky" said Risda Lirih.

It hurt a lot when he was hungry but there was nothing he could eat, even the money given by his father he used to pay for a private computer tutoring. He was afraid that his money would run out if he sold it, especially his mother did not send him money for school and his needs.

He looked up at the sky and saw a bright moon between the dark skies, seeing it made him feel peaceful and even the beauty of the moon made him smile again.

From that moment on he loved to see the beautiful moon at night, the moon that was able to calm his heart, the moon that was able to reconcile his feelings, and the, and the beauty of the moon can make him smile in the middle of the suffering he experienced.

"Oh my God, I'm so hungry. I want to eat,"

A drop of her tears fell on her cheeks, she had not eaten since morning and until night she had not eaten again. For a long time he looked towards the moon and the moon was slowly changing positions, until he did not realize that the hour after showing at 9 pm.

"Mother... Risda hungry hiks.. hiks.. hiks. Risda's stomach hurts,"

Risda also brim*as his stomach continues to ask to be filled it, the longer the hunger is more strongly felt even it feels like being stabbed by a sharp knife because it is not filled by food. His head felt dizzy and even his body was trembling because he had not eaten.

Each teardrop brought drowsiness to him, until slowly he fell asleep peacefully even though his stomach was painful. When Risda fell asleep, she no longer felt that deep hunger.

*****

At the house is now a guest from afar, a woman and her son are playing at the Lasmi house. The daughter of the woman was not much different from Risda, but the child was not allowed to play with Risda because Risda was a bad friend.

Risda does not really bother about it, because he also does not like to hang out with other people even people who are new to it. Although Lasmi forbade him to stay away from Risda though, Risda did not mind at all because of that.

Risda plays alone in her room, she also locks the door of her room so that no one knows that she is in her room. Maybe in front of everyone he can laugh and do funny just to see others laugh, but when he is alone there are only tears left.

The brother of Lasmi was making a food, until the aroma of the food was also smelled by Risda. Risda himself rushed out of his room and saw what he was making, a fish cooked with yellow seasoning that he saw.

Risda hoped that the woman would give him a piece to eat, she felt hungry when she saw the dish. Like the person who had never eaten before, that was what radiated on Risda's face at the moment.

"Risda wants to?" Ask the woman to Risda.

"Yeah..."

"He doesn't like food like that, don't give him food so he doesn't lust. I've warmed up the food, too,"

Risda had not yet answered, but Lasmi immediately interrupted his speech. Risda only sighed, after all what Lasmi said was true, but that did not apply to him who was currently starving.

"That's a side dish this morning, ma'am. Spinach vegetables are not good to consume if it is late afternoon like this," said the woman.

I forgot the woman's name, just call her Eka. So this Eka is the sister of Lasmi, and she is currently playing in Lasmi's new house near Iffah's house. He had also just met Risda this morning before he left for school, and now there was a middle between the time of magrib and isya'.

Spinach also contains high nitrates. Nitrates are actually harmless to the body. But if the cooking is not careful spinach can be toxic to our body. Nitrates can react with other compounds in the body and form carcinogens (cancer-causing compounds).

So, do not consume spinach that has been left for more than five hours. Not only contains ferri, spinach also already contains nitrates. When oxidized with air, nitrates turn into odorless, colorless, and toxic nitrites.

"Who said that? The proof is that I am healthy until now," denied Lasmi.

"But Ma'am, that was the morning meal."

"Of course, he doesn't like to eat fish either. Let him eat this,"

"No papa, Bude. This is enough" said Risda to Eka.

Lasmi also gave him leftover rice, actually not too residual but the rice was hard because the tanakan was this morning. Then the rice he had cooked in the afternoon he gave to Eka and her family, and not to be eaten by Risda.

Lasmi gives a plate containing rice for Risda, she then pours the vegetables on Risda's plate. Risda then received it and took it to the dining shirt that was there, he looked at the plate where the rice turned into a bluish green color due to the vegetable.

"O Allah, if this food is not fit to eat, then turn the poison in it into an energy supply for me. O God, if indeed I will be sick later, I am very sincere to accept the destiny You gave me," Inner Risda looked at the vegetable.

Risda hopes that after eating the vegetable, she will not why after. When he studied in class, he was also told by his teacher that spinach vegetables can not be reheated and will be able to turn into poison for the body.

Slowly he began to spoon the food into his mouth, and he chewed it. There was a difference in taste when he ate the spinach vegetable, it felt a little bit bitter when the vegetable entered his mouth.

Risda did not care about it, he continued to eat it until it was left. After he finished eating, he washed dishes and cooking utensils afterwards. There he inevitably had to do the job, otherwise Lasmi would scold him again.

His head felt very dizzy after washing the dishes, he walked towards his room with a stagger afterwards. Several times he was about to fall and hit the wall, but luckily his hands were still able to hold on to the wall.

Risda then went straight into his room and immediately closed the door of his room, suddenly he fell on the floor while leaning against the door of the room. His head really felt dizzy, even his two eyes were eager to be stifled at this moment.

"Am I going to die now? What if Mother died? Mother, I am afraid to die before I can make Mother happy. If I die, what about Mommy?" Risda Guman quietly as he wiped his tears away.

His head felt very heavy and dizzy, he was not at all afraid of death but only afraid if his mother was lonely without her presence. Moreover, he knew himself that his mother loved him more than his brother, because his brother had a family.

Risda was the only reason for her mother to continue to survive. His mother was eager to give up when the separation happened, but Risda was the one who made it strong until this moment, but if Risda died then the power will be lost.

His gaze suddenly darkened, and at that moment Risda himself immediately fell unconscious afterwards. His dizziness instantly made him lose consciousness, and he did not realize that he was fainting.

*****

Risda realized when the morning prayer rumbled, Risda still felt a very deep dizziness, especially his body now shivering and also felt very hot. Risda fell ill right then and there, and she even had to endure the pain all by herself in her room.

Cold air seemed to be piercing his heart at this time, especially his room did not have a cover and was only covered by a curtain, so cold air could still enter the room.

"I'm still alive apparently" Risda said as she held onto her chest and also closed her eyes.

As if his body would emit very hot steam, even his breathing just felt hot let alone his ear hole at this time. Risda did not care much about it, she tried to close her eyes again because the hot body temperature made her feel comfortable when closing her eyes.

Risda also planned to go to school that morning, but her high body heat made her have to undo her intentions. His body was very hot, even he felt that the air was very cold at this time.

"Da, it's 7. You're not in school?"

Suddenly Risda heard the voice of someone who said outside his room while slowly shaping the door of his room. The voice belonged to a woman named Erin, the son of Lasmi whose demeanor was rather gentle than that of her mother.

Erin is good at advising people, but not good at correcting herself. Usually Risda will leave her room when 6 am to prepare to leave for school, but this time it is more than that so that makes Erin knock on her door to build it.

Erin guessed that Risda woke up late, because Dewi had told her that Risda must be awakened if the morning so as not to be late to go to school.

"Just open up, Ma'am. The door is not locked" Risda said from the inside, trying to get her voice heard from the outside.

Hearing Risda's voice wither, he immediately rushed to open the door and entered the room occupied by Risda. Erin also saw Risda who was still lying on her bed with a blanket that covered her entire body.

"You're not in school, are you? It's noon" Erin said afterwards.

"No Ma'am, my head is so dizzy now. Can you skip a day?" Ask Risda.

Erin immediately approached Risda and pressed her back to Risda. Erin was really surprised when she felt Risda's body temperature was very hot, she immediately rushed to take a compress to compress Risda so that her body temperature was down.

"You've had a fever since when?" Ask Erin.

"Since I woke up, Mom. My head is so dizzy now,"

"Let me get some rice, then take some medicine to get well. Let me get you a minute,"

Although Erin and Lasmi are both children and mothers, their attitudes are very different. Erin was still patient to speak to Risda, while Lasmi would instead yell and say rudely to her.

Not long after, Erin came back while bringing rice to Risda. Risda was unable to get up from her sleep, so she ate the rice by sleeping on her rather hard mattress.

Risda only ate a few spoons, but he vomited all of his stomach afterwards. Instead of entering food, the food that was in his stomach was also coming out along with the vomit.

"Now, we're not going to college, Rin?" Ask someone arriving who is none other than Lasmi.

Lasmi instead of asking about the condition of Risda who suddenly vomited, instead she asked Erin about her departure for college. Erin was studying while she was married but not blessed by a child.

"This is leaving, Mom. Risda had a fever, so Erin checked herself out first" Erin said.

"Just let him, let Mom take care of him at home. You just go to college,"

Lasmi seemed to be taking things lightly about Risda's health, even when she found out that Risda was sick even though she still looked very relaxed and seemed to not care.

Erin also listened to his mother's words, she immediately said goodbye to go to college after. Erin also gave up her responsibility to minimize the medicine for Risda to Lasmi, and she left Risda there with Lasmi.

"Newly sick so it's much better to be a child, want to take medicine yes drink it yourself do not bother the mulu. It may just be a burden, you are living here not to be a burden, if you know this mending you live on the streets only. Do not bother the mulu people to be children," said Lasmi while throwing the drug next to Risda.

Risda did not care about that, he also threw his face away from the face of Lasmi because he did not like to see the woman's face at this time which could only damage her mood. Erin had not had time to clean up Risda's vomit, so Risda had to intervene alone to clean it even with all the power she had.

Lasmi did not want to clean up the vomit, because she felt very disgusted. Risda gave it to herself when she felt that her condition was more mild than before, after she took the medicine.

Because he could not take the medicine by being gulped with water, so he chewed the bitter medicine and immediately drank water afterwards. He fell asleep for a while and woke up just to clean up his vomit.

True not wanting to be considered a burden, he tried to do everything by himself without asking for help from others. Even he did not want to trouble others just because he was unable to do that.

Risda will try as much as possible not to bother others, because not necessarily others who help it will advertise with what they do. They could have just said iklas, but not with his heart that was very objected.