My coach
Episode 160's

It feels very foreign even at home, that's every day that Risda feels, although he lived there for a long time even from his birth, but the departure of both parents made the house very foreign to him. Indeed, he knows who the inhabitants of the house, but he does not know what kind of figure lives there.

Risda was always treated like a stranger in that place, even though it was her own home where she was born. Even his own brother never spoke to him other than angry, Riska to the point of thinking that he was not worthy to live.

Risda thought that she was just a burden in the house, and if she left then everyone there would be happy without her presence. He is often blamed even talked about by his brother to his neighbors, so sometimes he was very embarrassed due to stories from his brother who was telling stories to his neighbors.

Even her own brother spread his disgrace to his neighbors, therefore Risda himself did not even recognize his neighbors or the people in his house. When his neighbor dies even though Risda himself does not know, Risda does not want to interfere in the affairs of others even he does not want others to interfere in his affairs.

Maybe if seen Risda is a very closed person, not closed because of his hijab but a figure of himself that is never open to anyone in the house or the surrounding environment. Risda does not care about the surrounding environment either talk about anything about the ugliness, because he believes that the story of people will not be able to determine between heaven and hell.

Every day he did was in the room, Risda even rarely went out of the house let alone out of the room. So if there are neighbors who want to meet him just a minute of money, they will go into his room to meet him.

People will be nice to you when they need you, the rest will show their true attitude when they know your shortcomings, and you cannot help them. Sometimes humans cannot humanize other humans, they raise their own ego more than the feelings of others.

Wishing to man is only a place of hurt, for man sometimes forgets how to honor others. That's what Risda did, he could only rely on his two hands the rest he gave to God.

After Afrenzo drove her home, Risda went straight into her room to put her things away and take her clothes instead. After that he rushed to the bathroom to clean his body, after he finished he went back into his room again.

Risda's arrival to his house was not welcomed by anyone, even his own greetings no one answered because they only he mute without caring about him. Risda was used to being in such a state, it felt very painful if ignored by people around, especially Risda felt alone in the house without anyone accompanying.

"Sister, there was a brother who gave an invitation" said Adifa, Risda's nephew.

Hearing that made Risda immediately open her eyes again, before she was laying down her body while closing her eyes. Riska sat down on the edge of her bed and told her nephew to sit next to her.

"What invitation?" Ask Risda.

"No idea. I can't read yet" Adifa said, handing over the invitation.

"All right, thank you."

"The same."

Risda always used to say thank you and sorry to teach her sister, even though Adifa was a child but Risda taught her since then. After giving the invitation letter to Risda, Adifa immediately came out of Risda's room to play.

It turned out that it was an invitation letter from the mosque teenagers, they were asked to gather at the mosque to determine the arrangement of the new organization. Risda sighed violently, her head still felt very dizzy and her breath was hot.

"It's a bit far from here" Guman Risda read the location on the paper.

Risda then laid her body back in her bed, she felt very tired. When his eyes closed, he immediately opened them again.

"It looks like it's a lot more important than home."

Risda changed her mind immediately, thinking it was better for her to follow the event rather than just sleeping at home. If he does that it means he has other activities, he also feels tired when he hears Indah continues to nag because of her who seems to be lazing.

Risda immediately got up from her sleep, she changed her clothes and used a hijab to cover her head. Without further ado he immediately rushed out of the house, he immediately rode his motorbike to speed quickly left the place.

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"I thought you weren't present, Da. Tumben's really late?" Ask the head of the mosque teenager who saw the arrival of Risda.

"Sorry chairman, I just got home after last night's show. Has the show started?" Ask Risda back.

"not yet. Yeah, we're in first, you're waiting inside, Da."

"Okay."

Even when sick even though Risda remained reckless to go to the event, he did not even sleep all night and until now he had not slept either. Usually if sick people prefer to sleep at home and rest well, it does not apply to Risda and instead he seeks other activities so as not to be at home.

How can one be comfortable in one's own home where the house is inhabited by strangers? They are just strangers posing as family. When Risda needed help they were not there beside her, so whatever she did herself and relied on her hands without needing help from others.

"Hi guys... Been here long?" Sapa Risda when approaching her friend.

"Eh why did it just come? I went to your house, Da. But said Brother Lo, you are not home. Where are you from?" Ask Ara, her childhood friend up to this point.

"Kepo is a person. I've finished an important meeting with someone," Risda said as she dropped down to sit near Ara.

"Meeting? What's the meeting from yesterday afternoon until this morning? A tutor meeting for a child?"

Risda hit her friend's arm hard, "Huss... Semprull boy, watch your words yes! It's good to say, the mouth doesn't have any brakes what?" Seloroh Risda was furious because of Ara's words.

Ara herself grunted with regret because of the blow from Risda, her own parents never even hit her, but Risda lightly did that to her. Ara was very upset with the actions of Risda, but she could understand it because it was a habit of not hitting him even though jokingly.

"Keep meeting what'an since yesterday afternoon until now?" Ask Ara with her kettle.

"Gue there's a martial exam."

"But Brother Lo said that you again..." Ara's sentence hangs because he is unable to continue his words.

"Anyway, Ar. Why do you hesitate to talk to me? Did my sister say the same thing this morning? What did he say?"

"Gue is afraid you will fight with Brother Lo, Da. I know that you are not comfortable with your own house, fear it will even make you more sick at home."

"Just tell me what he said. Instead of later being a mending slander directly talked about, do not you believe my brother?"

"That's not what I mean, Da. I'm afraid you'll get hurt,"

"Why? What is he talking about you? You're honest with me, Ar. I know you're my friend from childhood, you shouldn't hide'in things like this from me,"

"There are many things you should not know in this world, so your heart can be free from pain, Da. Mending doesn't know, rather than having to know it will make you sicker,"

"Lo knew me from childhood, didn't you, Ar? Why is it you're hiding'in from me? Mending you talk directly to me."

Ara was silent while staring at Risda's face, it was heavy to tell it to Risda, because later Risda would be hurt after hearing it. Ara did not want his words would actually make the two brothers quarrel later, while Risda continued to urge him to keep telling her about what Ara heard from the mouth of Indah.

"Surely I'm in ugly sleazy again, right? You're honest with me, Ar. I just want to know what she said earlier, don't you want to tell me that?" Risda asked while looking straight ahead, as if her gaze was empty at this moment.

"I don't want to, Da. But I..."

"Already, Ar. I don't want any more explanations from you. To me your words are just a waste at this time, you're more martial'in my brother than me."

"I heard my explanation first,"

"Gue's sick of you, Ar."

Risda also threw away face from Ara, just to talk to the woman if she did not want to say what Indah had said to her. While Ara could only keep silent to see Risda throw her face out of her sight, she felt guilty for not telling that.

Risda chose to sit at the very back, so that he could lean against the mosque wall. The event also began, throughout the event Risda closed her eyes because of sleepiness and at the same time her eyes as if there would be a glue that was stuck so strong that it made her unable to open both eyes.

Ara thought that Risda was busy listening to the host, because she saw Risda just lowered her head. Ara also approached Risda to apologize to Risda, but she was shocked when she saw Risda who was soundly asleep.

Ara did not have the heart to wake the sleeping woman, because she believed that Risda was too tired for now, let alone know that Risda did not come home all night. Ara felt that Risda's sleeping position looked very unpleasant, she also intended to build Risda to move the bed to make her sleep comfortable.

It could be that in this way Risda fell asleep soundly, who was present at the ceremony was quite crowded so that the organizers did not pay much attention to the surrounding environment. Risda also wriggled when she felt the cold temperature touching her forehead.

Risda also removed something from her forehead, it was Ara's hand that was touching her forehead. The disturbed Risda immediately opened her eyes, and she stared dislikefully at Ara.

"Lo gapain?" Risda asked while looking intently at Ara.

"Lo body is very hot, Da. Lo sick huh? If it hurts mending lo go home first keep resting, do not be forced."

"Gue doesn't hurt!"

"But your body is so hot right now, you really are okay, Da? What will be the severe pain later? Are you afraid of injections?"

As a child Risda and Ara were very afraid of the name syringe. When both are still in the same school, both of them immediately run to a quiet place to hide when the immunization at school. Only the two students were most afraid of the injection, while the others when injected cried, but Risda and Ara actually ran away from the class.

When the whole half busy looking for both, both of them just with the leisure of being in the school cafeteria while eating snacks. Although the syringe is not so painful, it again hurts when fluid is inserted into the body which makes both of them cringe.

The head already felt like it was about to break, not knowing anymore to hear the ravings from Ara. Risda was eager to dismantle and scold the woman, but she realized that she was currently attending an assembly. If only they were in time to relax at this moment, maybe Ara's face was full of egg-stroke wounds because of Risda.

"What if I'm afraid?" Asked Risda who looked very upset like he wanted to eat the person in front of him.