My coach
Episode 47's

After waiting for a long time, all the students reentered the bus. The time had already shown at 5 pm, and they resumed their journey to school. After 1 hour of travel, Risda also stood to look back, because the students who were there were very crowded singing to accompany their journey.

My father married again, my mother was alone

Be me like this, My dark eyes sing

Where's the money, where's the hunger, where's the rice

I'm looking for, life...

Drunk marijuana and drink, as my escape

A lot of color teak on my body, I lost my way

Be me a street kid, be me a street person

On the street...

They also sang the song together, it looks very crowded even the students who were asleep were awake again. The song clearly describes how the life of a street child, exactly the same as what Risda experienced, only that he did not vent it on a drink but his mischief.

Risda almost got lost in the path of error, if he had not met with Afrenzo, maybe he really lost that time. Drinks like that will make a person become addicted, once drinking they will feel less and less to make them go crazy with drinks.

Risda's gaze was fixed on the bench occupied by Afrenzo, Afrenzo was asleep in his sleep as if he would not be disturbed by the sound of singing from all of them. Afrenzo fell asleep with his chest closed, with his head leaning against his seat, it was apparent that the man was exhausted at this time.

"Da, can you sit down anyway?" Mira asked while complaining because of Risda who stood up.

"Somewhat can, my ass has nails," replied Risda ketus.

"That's the mouth of the dagger ever sled the same brick deh."

"Just bother you, I'll see a beautiful view!"

"What sight'an? The view of Renzo sleeping?"

"Your eyes! Look noh the sun is very beautiful, right when it sets," said Risda while pointing towards the sun.

"Oh think in," answered Mira who seemed to be indifferent to Risda's words.

Risda felt that something was lacking in her heart, as they were on their way home the feeling of sadness in her heart began to reappear, and it was as if she would not want this to end just like that until here.

The song sung by Risda's friend friend also makes the atmosphere in Risda's heart become as if it will not be separated until here, but what power because time has separated them all.

Risda also melted back sitting quietly, seeing that made Mira frown because she saw the change in Risda's face. I don't know what's going on with that girl right now, as if that cheerfulness just disappeared.

"Da, why are you?" Ask Mira.

"Gue ngak papa," replied Risda while forcing herself to smile at Mira.

"Lo can't lie to me, Da. Your face doesn't look okay,"

"You know what you think about my face?"

"Gue know without you knowing, the face of the conch chick lo kek turned into a cake face melas can not be lied to, Da. You must have thought of something, right?"

"Gue misses my family, Ra. I hate my own life which is always denigrated, even considered a burden,"

"Lo's patient, Da. If we work later, you will be treated well. You know it yourself, right? If the people closest to us will uphold us if we have money, and vice versa, Da. If we don't have money, our siblings won't even acknowledge us,"

"Can happiness be measured only by money? So people like me don't deserve to be happy, right? To want me is simple, but it can never be achieved,"

"Lo is strong, I know you can get through this. Look back, there have been many obstacles that you have gone through, right? Cook gini aja lo weak anyway,"

"Gue is weak!"

*****

They also arrive at school when the time has shown at 8 pm. Risda is now sitting at the gate of the school to wait for an invitation from his brother who is at home, because yesterday he left to be delivered so he did not bring his own motorbike.

"Who's going home?" Tanya Afrenzo stopped the bike in front of Risda.

The guy did bring his bike and put it in the hall before. So without waiting for an invitation from the house person he can go directly to his house, see Risda who sat alone was immediately made Africzo stop his motorbike.

"Gue was picked up with me, he said again the trip here," replied Risda.

"Lo has Mas?"

"Not the Bladder, Renzo. But her husband My brother, I had already contacted home people, he said again the trip here today."

"Gue temenin until you're picked up,"

"No, Renzo. You must be tired and need a lot of rest, mending you go home first. I have arrived,"

"Lo chick, ngak good night sndirian,"

"Well, I'm taking lo again,"

"No."

After waiting long enough for the person who picked up Risda akhinya also arrived, the gaze of Afrenzo looks strange to the husband of the Beautiful. It's not unusual for an Afrenzo to stare at someone like that, it's the first time they've met him but he doesn't seem to like him.

"Renzo, I'm going home first. Thank you for making me, I've been picked up" said Risda as he got up from his seat.

The distance between the two with her husband from Indah was only about 5 meters, Afrenzo and Risda were at the gate of the school, while the person who picked up Risda was on the side of the street.

"That's Mas, lo?" Ask Afrenzo.

"Yes, that's my brother's husband. What's up?" Asked Risda who saw the dislike gaze of an Afrenzo.

"Lo must be careful with him,"

"heart? What do you mean, Renzo? I don't understand at all."

"What's not, the point is you have to be careful with him. Go home, it's late,"

"Yes Renzo, yes I've come home first yes, Dahhh.." Risda waved her hand at Afrenzo.

Risda had no idea why Afrenzo told him to be careful with his brother-in-law, since the first meeting there was something strange in the speech of Afrenzo, it was, moreover, Afrenzo said that Risda must be careful with the person.

Risda then rode the motorbike, the motorbike was his motorbike used to pick up Risda. Because the words of Afrenzo immediately made Risda slightly away from her brother-in-law, and gave a distance between the two.

Risda was a little afraid of what Afrenzo said, usually men will understand what the thoughts of fellow men are like. And it immediately made Africenzo told Risda to be careful, Afrenzo also did not explain why he was told to be careful.

Because the house of Afrenzo and Risda unidirectional, Risda also saw Afrenzo who drove his motorcycle behind Risda. Risda turned to him and immediately got a slow nod from Afrenzo, and it immediately made Risda sigh.

"Don't he want to harm me? Renzo told me to be careful with people. But why would he do that to me? I don't have a problem with him. Very strange with the current Renzo" Inner Risda.

When close to the house of Afrenzo, Afrenzo also increased the speed of the motor to overtake him, when the second motorbike was in line, and then sounded the horn of the motorbike 2 times. As a sign that he will first to turn, and hear the horn immediately make Sister-in-law of Risda also sound the horn as much as 1 time.

"Renzo I'm afraid, you mean what'an tell me heart to heart with my brother-in-law? Do you know him? So you tell me to be careful with him," Inner Risda screamed back.

The words seemed to be imprinted in Risda's heart, and she was afraid to move on. Risda did not understand at all the heart of the heart, because even Afrenzo himself did not explain the heart as he meant it.

*****

Because today is a school holiday for Risda and the others after that recreational event. Risda decided to clean her room filled with dust, for a long time she had never cleaned her room.

Risda at home and school is different, schooled she will wear polite clothes and veiled. While at home, he only wears a short shirt with shorts that show both his smooth thighs.

Risda tails high hair that shows the curve of his neck, because Risda's long hair immediately makes Risda lock it high so as not to disturb him to clean the room.

He accidentally saw a book on a small table in Risda's room, Risda then opened it and read the writing in the book. The memory of his dark period was repeated again, where his father treated harsh things to his mother.

"Gue will never be able to forgive that" Risda said, clenching her hands.

Risda also closed the book in her hand, not long after the figure of her grandmother went into her room to make Risda look curious.

"Da..."

"What's up, Grandma?" Ask Risda.

"In front of your father."

"Why did he come here? Risda doesn't want to see that guy again,"

"Son, his family's in debt so he's coming home."

"What's? That's not Risda's business, he wants to stay on his wife's day? Risda didn't want to, and never would have convinced them to set foot here."

Risda was afraid that she would be evicted from the house because she could have done that to him, and she did not want the story in the fairy tale about the evil stepmother to happen to her.

Enough of his brother who was evil to him, he did not want anyone else who was also evil to him. For a long time he could have died before his time, it immediately made him firmly reject the presence of the person in his home.

"No, he's alone." Reply Grandma.

"Where is his wife? Don't tell me she left the house without saying goodbye" asked Risda.

His grandmother just kept quiet to hear Risda's words, somehow Risda's guess was indeed true. His father's family is currently in debt, because his new wife does not want to live a simple life and choose to live a luxurious life and impose his will, he said, he did not care under his debt much and could not even afford to pay it.

Risda's father turned out that all this time did not work, because he was sick no matter what the current pain. Risda who heard that only made him indifferent, he really did not care about the fate experienced by his father

As if his feelings were really dead, even when his father was like that, Risda seemed to be ignoring him. Actually he felt sorry for the fate experienced by his father, but when he remembered the incident he had experienced, immediately made him feel hurt.

The front of Risda's house was an empty house that had been abandoned by its owner, it was the home of his Uncle and Aunt. Since her Uncle died when Risda was still sitting in the 1st grade Junior High School, her aunt married again and was carried away at her new husband's house so that the house was empty at this time.

From that moment on, his father will stay in the empty house because Risda who refused his father to sleep in his house at this time. The little girl who used to love her father very much, now turned into a girl who did not care about her father's condition at all.

After telling Risda that, her Grandmother came out of the room. Risda immediately sat in her chair without continuing what she is doing right now, she just kept quiet and her mind felt empty at this time.

His gaze was straight ahead, I don't know what he was staring at right now. His father's presence in that place makes Risda seem to be uncomfortable, but he also misses the figure of a father.

"Why did all this have to happen in my family?" Ask Risda who knows.

His mouth suddenly shook, his heart felt very sick at this time, old wounds that had happened to him began to feel again, the events that had passed made him even more hurt.

*Flash back on*

7-year-old Risda was crying loudly in her room, while outside the room her parents were having a big fight. Suddenly Risda no longer heard his mother's voice, he decided to go out and see her condition.

"Mother why?" Risda asked with lips that shook when she saw her mother was unconscious there.

Neighbors gathered in the house and raised his mother's body to her room, Risda was frightened when she saw her mother who was closing her eyes very tightly. Risda cried as soon as possible, she was afraid of losing her mother.

The quarrel between his family had made him very afraid, coupled with his unconscious mother was making his fear even more.

Risda then held her mother's hand tightly, the pale face of her mother was increasingly making her cry hysterical. Domestic violence has made her change, all she has in mind is fear, loneliness, and sadness.

"Mother wake! Hicks. hyx.." Risda's cry was so heartbreaking.

Her grandmother then brought closer the eucalyptus oil bottle in the Goddess's nose to resuscitate the woman from her stupor, The goddess finally reopened her eyes and looked at Risda who was crying next to her.

"Risda," said the Goddess softly with tears in her eyes.

"Mother why? Risda was afraid, don't leave Risda," Risda sobbed sobbing crying while hugging her mother's hand.

"Risda don't be afraid, Mother is not papa,"

The goddess then rose from her seat, she carried Risda's body and sat him in her lap. Risda hugged her body very tightly, as well as her mother who also hugged her very tightly.

Dewi felt hurt because of the betrayal committed by her husband, especially her husband had said harshly to her. Since then Risda increasingly hated his father, even when he was touched by his father alone he immediately diverted his hands from his father's hands.

"Bad fuck!" Shouted Risda in his mother's arms.

The crying from his mother was able to be heard clearly in his ears, not just once or twice Risda listened to their quarrels. Even in front of her own eyes, Risda saw her parents fighting each other's mouths, not just the mouth but the physical as well.

How broken a child's heart is when he sees his parents fighting directly in front of him, let alone the child is a little girl who does not know what about family separation.

Mental children who have been beaten since childhood, will make a mental disorder when they grow up. That's what Risda has been going through all this time, it's not good for both parents to fight in front of a small child who has absolutely no idea what.

Without realizing it, it can educate children into bad things, weaken their mental and self-confidence, make it antisocial, can even make a child mired in unwanted things. Like, Drinking liquor, gambling, getting drunk, being a street kid that has no rules, and much more.