My husband is Acute Bucin
What's up with me?
Renata wiped away her tears, then stepped over to her son, but had previously taken out a medicine box to treat the wounds on his son's hands.
He sat right in front of Johan. Biting her lips, refrained from crying when she saw how devastated Johan was.
"Jo," said Renata, trembling withstanding her cries.
As hard as Renata tried not to cry, her tears still flowed as Johan lifted his face, and looked at his mother with eyes flooded with tears, let's say he was a weak man from crying, but that's the truth. That was how Johan vented his sorrow with tears.
"Well" he said, wiping the tears that flowed from his mother's face. "I'm sorry!" the instant immediately below entered by Renata into his arms.
The two let go of their cries, Renata unceasingly rubbed Johan's trembling back crying in her arms.
Which mother's heart doesn't hurt when she sees her child's destruction? Which mother's heart does not grieve when her child is sad? Which mother could see it?
"I'm sorry, Mah. I've tried, but still I can't forget Vani." Johan was crying.
"Mama understands son, Mama really understands, but here we know if Vani is happy with his life, you can not be together," said Renata who also cried.
"I know, Mah. I realized that, I had no intention of seizing her or destroying her happiness, but it was hard to get rid of this feeling of love and guilt. I had hoped Amel would help me, but he left before I could confirm and say my intentions. I want to have a happy family Ma, I want to make Arsen happy and the people around me, I want to be a good and useful man," johan's words sounded so heart-wrenching to Renata who heard them.
So much love Johan had for Vani, Renata realized that her son's mistakes were hard to forgive, but she also prayed and wished God would grant her son's prayers.
"Trust everything to God, son. God must have a beautiful plan for all his people" Renata said.
"Jo, what exactly is the reason you want to marry Amanda? Is it because she looks like Amelia?" ask Renata. Although he realized it was not the right time because his son was sad, but Renata thought there was no harm in him asking the truth before it was too late.
Johan stopped his crying trying to calm himself down before answering Renata's question.
"Don't make any more mistakes, Jo. Mama doesn't want you to come back sorry" Renata said.
"Mahs. Right now all I think about is making Arsen happy. Arsen liked it, maybe it was all a mistake, but I know this mistake was good for my son as well. Arsen will feel the presence of a mother, especially Amanda is very similar to her mother," replied Johan.
"Please don't hurt him. Mama feels she's a good woman, she sincerely loves Arsen. Young children can sense which people are genuinely sincere or vice versa, Jo. Although mama is also doubtful about your decision, but Mama hopes you can accept each other and become a whole family," said Renata who only responded to Johan with a smile.
"They have very similar faces, but their attitude is different. Amanda has more attitude and nature like Vani, only their faces are different, but still both are beautiful. Isn't that a bonus for you? You have a woman like Vani, but also Arsen has a mother like her real mother. That's profitable, isn't it?" said Renata again in a joking tone to make the face of Johan who previously looked sad a little radiant.
"Do you think she's pretty?" Renata continued to comfort her son.
"Ma, I don't want to talk about it," Johan tried to shy away from his mother's question.
"Well, mama's going back down!" Renata slowly got up and walked out of Johan's room. "Your face is blushing, Jo. That means you agree that Amanda is beautiful" Renata said, laughing before actually leaving Johan's room.
Johan who heard that rushed towards the mirror and looked at his face in the mirror. "What's wrong with me?" muttered.