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Missed Vani

"Do you remember one of the couple's customers?" vani asked as she and Esi were enjoying lunch.

"Yes, I remember. They are still beautiful and handsome even though they are old. They also look harmonious" replied Esi. "By the way, what's going on?" tanyakanya.

"I feel that the father was similar to that crazy man," said Vani again considering the face of the middle-aged man who had become his customer.

"really? What's name?" ask Esi.

"I don't know, the deposit slip used his wife's name. His name is also not written Lakeswara," replied Vani.

"Hemmm that means no. Maybe just similar, because big people like them will always use the last name of the family," responded Esi. "Did you miss that guy, until everything you saw looked like him?" said Esi again deliberately teasing Vani.

"No. You're just there." Vani, who had finished his lunch, got up first, before Esi continued to tease him.

***

While still a couple, anyone will certainly have a feeling of longing when not meeting, not being patient with each other, feelings of anxiety appear and make us think of a partner. That longing can disappear when we meet the person we miss.

Then, what if the longing is in someone who can not be achieved anymore? Someone who is already a part of the past that cannot be forgotten.

Losing someone you love is one of the hardest things in life. Whether it is caused by separation or something else will always be painful for the losing party.

Along with losing someone, there is always a feeling of loneliness and incompetence, a kind of longing that never seems to be fulfilled.

That's how Johan feels right now. The grievous sorrow of missing Vani. Longing and guilt are always master of the mind, which makes it difficult to think of anything other than Vani and only Vani.

Johan felt that he had made only one mistake: accidentally tidue with Amelia, so why did God punish him so severely? Johan felt that God was unfair to him.

While his wife and parents thought Johan was in the office, Johan was out of place.

Johan is currently in the parking lot of a bank building, a building that for the last three years he often visited.

Johan is still faithfully waiting in his car staring towards where Vani works. Following Vani has become a new habit of Johan lately, becoming a stalker for his ex-lover, hoping that the longing can be a little reduced, he said, but in fact the longing was more torturous when Johan could see but could not reach it. Unlike the previous where Johan can always stick to Vani.

Johan can only stare at Vani from a distance, crying over her stupidity that has hurt Vani. Johan should have realized that hurting Vani was tantamount to hurting himself.

It was very desirable for Johan to come back and apologize to Vani. But Johan couldn't do it. Not for not being able to apologize and admit his mistakes. But can not be when later to hear and see Vani getting away from him and keep a distance from him. Vani has repeatedly refused her presence and it scares Johan.

Three years together, Johan understands Vani's attitude and nature. Johan is very confident that Vani will always keep his distance from him. That's the kind of rejection Johan can't handle. Say Johan is a weak, cowardly and stupid man. Johan admits it's all true. Because he also felt that he was the stupidest man in the world. A foolish man who has hurt and let go of a woman as good as Vani.

"I miss you so much, my dear. Missed you so much!" The cry of Johan was heard again when the figure of Vani was seen coming out of the office with other office employees when the office hours were over.

Not a second Johan missed without staring at the figure of Vani.

Degh's.....

The heartbeats again beat fast when Vani's gaze accidentally leads to him. Although Vani will not realize his existence but Johan feels sure if in the depths of Vani's heart, Vani must also miss him.

I know it's you, Jo. Even though you're using a car that I won't recognize, but I know for a fact that it's you in that car. Go Jo, get away from my life. Like you who easily let me go then please let me live a quiet life without your shadow. Go Jo, because I won't glance at the man who already belongs to another woman. I'm a woman who upholds self-esteem and appreciates women's feelings, you're wrong to think I still feel for you. The real mind of Vani is aware of Johan's presence.