Neighbor's Blanket
Chapter 20

Almost 30 minutes following Mas Dirga's car. Feelings and thoughts are more and more unsettled when the car enters the residential area. Even if later the house that Mas Dirga came to was the woman's house, I hope all that is just a dream. Honestly, I find it hard to believe all this. It was the kindness and care of Mas Dirga that made it difficult for me to believe that he could betray. It's impossible for Mas Dirga to do all that to me.

"Stop here, Bang. But please wait a minute, take me home later." I asked Abang Ojek after Mas Dirga parked his car in front of one of the houses.

My heart skipped a beat, the feeling grew more and more unruffled, the cloudy and dark sky added to the gripping atmosphere.

"Yes Neng, ready."

Ojek's brother seemed to be reading the situation. He also looked at the house as I did.

Hiding behind a fence not far from the house, I sharpened my vision when Mas Dirga got out of the car with a paper bag in his hand.

In the meantime, I'm ready with a cell phone in hand. I turned on the video feature to record Mas Dirga. That way I would have my own proof if Mas Dirga had indeed come to a woman.

Dirga knocked on the door. It felt more and more unbecoming to wait for someone to come out of the house.

Not long after, the door opened and a figure appeared that made my legs and hands tremble. I don't know how to express what I feel right now. But clearly my eyes were dark, this body was losing strength. I clung to the wall to support my almost collapsed body.

Although it has strengthened my heart, despite having warned myself not to cry, but in fact I am this weak. My tears just shed so profusely, without a sound, it could only scream inwardly at what I was seeing right now.

When Mas Dirga came into the house, I turned off the video and put the phone in my bag.

"However you are, my Lord," I spoke with great difficulty in the midst of sobs and pains in the heart.

Don't ask me how I feel right now. Everything is broken, and so is my heart.

"Neng, huh,,? Neng no papa.?" I lyrics Abang ojek who looks anxious to see me cry.

"So her husband or her boyfriend.?"

I was in a hurry to wipe my tears.

"Boyfriend," I answered and immediately asked the Ojek brother to take me home.

"It's good to be a girlfriend, so Neng survived a guy not really like that."

"Udah has a beautiful girl even playing fun. The patient is Neng."

I did not respond to Abang ojek's words because my mind and heart are in turmoil right now. Let alone to respond to his words, to just breathe it feels very difficult.

What I saw was really painful. The woman opened the door for Mas Dirga with a big smile. How could he do that to a married man.

I'm sure that the woman must know that Mas Dirga is married, there's no way she'll close her eyes to Mas Dirga's personal life.

"It is raining Neng. We shady first huh, afraid Neng's sick."

"Subsequently Bang, but Abang wear a raincoat if you bring it. I want some rain." With a desperate voice, I was still able to communicate with that Ojek brother. At first he refused and forced me to wear his raincoat, but after I explained that he wanted to take a rain shower, he finally understood. What else he saw me who never stopped crying, so obey my wishes.

Under the torrential rain, my tears fell unstoppably. It seems like nature can feel how broken my heart is today until nature also cries.

Mas Dirga really had the heart, I don't know what he was doing there with that woman.

My heart was getting torn to the thought of something that might happen between the two of them inside the house.

"Less what I was all this time.?"

Chest is painful, I would like to ask Mas Dirga why he could wish me this way. If it is no longer love, then why keep me by his side.

I would even let go if Mas Dirga could no longer love me. But that doesn't mean he has to hurt me like this.

"Neng is not papa, right.? I'm afraid Neng fainted and fell off the bike." Ojek's brother shouted among the rumbling sounds of rain.

I immediately answered him by saying I was fine and told him to keep the bike up to the goal.

The amount of rain that flushed my body, the cold bone-chilling air, was unable to cool the heat of this heart when I remembered Mas Dirga entering the house of another woman.

"You really make me look like a fool.!"

"How long have you been fooling me like this."

I smiled wryly, both of my hands clenched. It felt like wanting to repay Mas Dirga for hurting him.

But it feels useless if in fact Mas Dirga no longer has a heart for me.

Stopping in front of the security post, I gave some money to the brother ojek.

I deliberately stopped in front of the cluster because I wanted to walk to the house while feeling the rush of rain.

Footsteps feel shaky, clear circles from the hugging of the eyes continue to come out and mix with rainwater. These tears kept coming out without me being able to hold. Not because weeping Mas Dirga, but crying for yourself which turned out to be very stupid due to love.

"For whatever reason, I will not be silent about all your actions behind my back, Mas.!"

"This pain, it's not fair that I'm the only one who feels it.!"

The pain inflicted by Mas Dirga is so deep, now there is a feeling of hatred and resentment on the figure of the husband that I have been great.

Choosing to remain silent as if seeing nothing, I will let Mas Dirga finish his game. I'll see how far he breaks my heart and hopes.

One day I'll make sure she cries and regrets what she did. He must pay for all the pain that has been inflicted on my heart. It doesn't matter if I have to turn into a heartless person.