Neighbor's Blanket
Chapter 35

For a whole new time this time I feed a man other than Mas Dirga. It felt so awkward, embarrassed and nervous to be one.

But I also can't let Mas Agam have trouble feeding himself with his injured hand. And all of that is because of me.

Mas Agam who was bribed, but even my heart that rumbled was not because of it. He just casually took the first bribe from me.

Chewing my fried rice greedily.

The man beside me still exuded charm despite eating.

"You don't eat.? Or have you eaten.?" He asked after the fried rice in his mouth was gone. Very quickly he ate, even though the feed was 1 full spoon. It looks like Mas Agam is really hungry.

"Later to eat at home." I looked the other way. Somehow I explained in words about the eyes of Mas Agam who was so and seemed able to penetrate my heart. That's why I always avoid eye contact with Mas Agam if his gaze is this deep on me.

"A plate of two, besides the fried rice you brought is also mostly if I myself exhausted."

The offer to eat a plate both made me even more agitated. I really am aware of what I am doing right now.

And basically we as adults can distinguish what is right and what is wrong. That is why an affair cannot be called a khilaf, not even just an affair, but all bad actions do not deserve to be called a khilaf. Because we are aware of what we are doing and know what the consequences will be.

Except for adults who may not be sane, because he will not be able to distinguish what is wrong and what is right.

"Bia deliberately bring a lot to make Mas Agam full."

"People who want to eat fried rice Bia at home. Dirga's coming home tonight, she's definitely having dinner outside."

With the rest of my consciousness, I tried to resist.

It is not safe to eat a plate together with Mas Agam. It is not safe for my heart and my heart. The longer the feeling, the stronger. I had trouble pulling over and throwing those feelings away.

"It's up to you." Agam is not forcing.

She opened her mouth again as I pointed the spoon at her.

"1 week away from my divorce hearing with Karina. You have no intention of catching up.?" Mas Agam seemed to be chuckling amusedly at the end of the sentence.

He seemed to laugh at the fate of his household and my household which was not much different.

"Mas do'ain Bia became a widow.?" Just pissed. Although already have the intention to end the marriage someday, but somehow there is sadness that surrounds when imagining my household and Mas Dirga will end.

It cannot be denied, in my heart there is still the name Mas Dirga. Even if he has lied to me often and hid big things from me.

"Not really. But at least I have hope." Relaxedly.

I was shocked to hear that. It looks like Mas Agam is really serious. After all, he did not deny having feelings for me, even though he did not express them directly.

“Not to be surprised Bi. You must know I've been serious all this time."

"If Dirga is tired of making you happy, I am ready to replace him." I suddenly grabbed my hand. I wanted to pull it, but could not do that and instead just resigned when Mas Agam grasped it tightly.

"Don't deny your feelings. Just let that feeling grow and develop in your heart."

"You're not wrong Bia, you deserve to be happy." He said with a deep look.

For a moment we stared at each other. Eyes cannot be lied to. I could see clearly there was love in Mas Agam's eyes while looking at me. And vice versa, Mas Agam certainly can see and feel my heart on him.

Mas Agam took the plate from my hand and placed it on the table. The atmosphere is getting quieter with the heartbeat getting louder. I can guess what will happen after this. Moreover, Mas Agam is moving forward.

And somehow I couldn't pull over when Mas Agam's lips started touching mine. My body felt stiff, I didn't move a bit. Even my eyes were getting round without blinking.

I slowly closed my eyes as Mas Agam's lips began to soften and sip.

"I'm sorry, Dirga,,"

I really feel guilty and sinful to Mas Dirga. During my 6 years with Mas Dirga, I kept my pride and dignity in front of other men. But tonight, I was so resigned to give my lips to Mas Agam, my own neighbor., he said.,

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Dirga POVs

I'm out of Rayyan's room. The boy had just gone to bed after asking me to sleep with him.

The clock has shown at 9 past 30. I need to get home soon.

All this time I've been lying to Bianca. A wife so perfect and good for. I hope Bianca never finds out about this. Because I'm afraid I'm gonna let her down and get mad at me.

To be honest, there was no intention of lying to him. But I can't be honest with him about Ziva and Rayyan either.

After all, Ziva is part of my past. I'm sure Bianca won't allow me to help Ziva and his son rise from the brink. That's why I chose to meet them secretly.

If Bianca ever finds out about this, I hope she can understand Ziva's situation.

Because right now he really is in need of the presence of someone beside him to get through this difficult time.

"You want to go home, huh.?" Ziva came out of his room and approached me.

"Yes. Rayyan just went to bed. I'll go home first,"

I moved, but just a few steps, Ziva hugged me from behind. I was surprised, even though Ziva had hugged me a few times like this.

"If our relationship hadn't ended, we would have,,,"

"Zi, there's no need to talk about the past." I cut off his words and broke free from Ziva's embrace.

"I'm beside you right now not to return Zi. Don't think too far," I warned.

"But you made me think far." Ziva's eyes glazed over.

"Don't you forget that night.? We both know how to do it."

"And from then on you made me wish." Ziva looked at nanar.

"Zi, that night was my biggest mistake. I'm so sorry Zi."

"You're also in on it, so we're both wrong."

"I'm really sorry for that, please don't get me wrong." I gently touched Ziva's shoulder and stared in the shade. I hope Ziva doesn't get worse.

"I have Bianca, Zi. I don't want to regret betraying her." Since the beginning I did not intend to betray Bianca, my closeness with Ziva was only limited to pity and wanted to help him alone.

"May you understand. I'm sure one day you'll find the right replacement." My speech. Ziva did not respond, he stayed in place with a glaring look.

I went home, knowing that Ziva wouldn't respond. After that I hurried away from Ziva's presence.

"You said it was a mistake.? But you repeated it again just then.!!" Ziva cried out with a slight shout.

I nailed in place. Can not be evaded, because the second time I remember with our good times 8 years ago.