Neighbor's Blanket
Chapter 50

"Mas," I called Mas Agam who had been busy with his laptop since last night even though it was now showing at 10 p.m.

"Hmmm, why Bi.?" I asked without staring at me. I sat in front of him.

Somehow I felt Mas Agam's attitude turned cold after I received a phone call from Mas Dirga.

"Mas is angry with Bia.?" I stared fixedly, hoping Mas Agam would answer while staring at me.

"Why am I angry with you.?" Mas Agam's tone sounded flat. He took a quick glance and refocused on his laptop. It was obvious that Mas Agam was avoiding looking at me.

"Sorry," I said softly, I'm not even sure Mas Agam heard it.

For some reason I suddenly felt guilty to Mas Agam until finally the word sorry just came out of my lips.

I was confused with myself even with my own feelings.

"I'm sorry for what.? You feel you have the same fault as me.?" Said Mas Agam who looked at me directly. Apparently he heard my apology.

Whereas since then I had hoped Mas Agam would look at me, but now that he looked at me, I chose to lower my gaze. The look in Mas Agam's eyes made me feel even more guilty towards him.

We went too far and made her feel like I had it, but I instead showed Mas Agam that my relationship with Mas Dirga was fine when I received a phone call from him.

"It's not easy for Bia, Mas," My chest is very tight. I spoke in a stifled voice as I held back the crying.

"6 years is not a short time. I've only hung my hopes and my life on her all this time."

"Knowing that painful fact, sometimes I find it hard to believe that he would betray me." Despite trying my hardest to hold back the tears, in the end my tears still shed.

"That's why you're blinded by love." Sahut Mas Agam with a cynical smile. I could see him holding something behind that smile and his relaxed demeanor.

"Then stop thinking about revenge or ending your marriage. Accept the fact that Dirga is double and forgive his mistakes."

"Repair if it can still be repaired. I mean, if you can't get away from Dirga." Mas Agam said the last sentence with great emphasis.

He turned off the laptop, then got off the couch and just left me.

I stared, just silently staring at Mas Agam who now disappeared behind the bathroom door.

The words of Mas Agam became a hard slap for me because I could not make a decision for my household with Mas Dirga.

...*****...

The work at the branch office is done.

That afternoon we returned to London to finish lunch. Along the way to Bandung, Mas Agam and I did not talk much. Or rather Mas Agam put on a cold face that made me reluctant to start the conversation.

The ringing of my phone broke the silence in the car we were riding in. I reached into the phone in the bag, a call came in from Mas Diega making me reflect glanced at Mas Agam. I hesitated to receive the phone in front of Mas Agam for fear of making his mood worse.

I chose to ignore the call after pressing silent mode and put my phone back in the bag.

"Why not lift.? Your husband must be worried about you." Mas Agam said flat without staring at me. Out of nowhere Mas Agam knew that the phone call was from Mas Dirga, while since I took the phone, Mas Agam did not glance at the phone in my hand.

"Mas, I'm going to file a divorce with Mas Dirga." Instead of answering, I actually expressed a decision that I had thought carefully last night.

Because in the end I and Mas Dirga both betrayed our marriage, so it is better to end this marriage.

Not only that, because it seems my feelings for Mas Agam got bigger after we had that forbidden relationship.

Somehow I am sure I will be happy after leaving Mas Dirga and starting a new life with Mas Agam.

Mas Agam glanced at me at a glance, his eyes as if showing that he did not believe my words.

"You better think again, lest you regret that you still love her so much." His words were flat but full of emphasis.

I sighed, chose silence and cast a glance out the window.

It doesn't seem like the right time to discuss this any further.

...******...

Dirga POVs

"Stop Zi, don't continue discussing the mistake that made me regret it so much.!" My anger began to spiral out of control as Ziva continued to discuss the events of the night.

It was an incident that made me realize how stupid I was to be able to do that crazy thing with Ziva.

I really feel guilty and guilty about Bianca. Somehow I made amends to him. While I did not dare to tell Bianca honestly because I was afraid that my honesty would make Bianca leave my life. Just imagining that scared me.

"I will not remain silent.! I'm gonna go see Bianca and tell her what happened between us.!"

"Bianca should know that we've spent the night together, and we used to do it a lot.!"

"I want him to leave you, Mas.!"

Ziva threatens with anger. I immediately snapped him off his phone connection.

"Sh-it.!!!" I almost slammed my phone. Ziva has really changed, she is no longer the innocent girl I used to know.

So far he's been trying to pull me into his arms. I even realized that he had been using Rayyan to get close to me.

If I hadn't cared about Ziva when he first met him again, it probably wouldn't have been like this.

And I wouldn't make a big mistake with Bianca either.

"Sorry Mas, Dek," I'm squeezing rough my hair.

My mind is getting messed up because I'm sure Ziva's threats aren't messing around.

Sooner or later, Bianca will know my mistakes I've been trying to cover up.

My destruction is in sight. The loyalties that I kept for over 6 years for Bianca, would definitely not matter in Bianca's eyes once she knew everything.

My mistake was pretty fatal, I know it's not easy to accept. But I hope Bianca will forgive my mistakes and be willing to keep our household.

3 Years of marriage without ever having fought. Not having children has never been a problem. I thought that my household with Bianca was always fine until death separated, but in fact I was too stupid because now I had created destruction for my own household.