Neighbor's Blanket
Chapter 41

The claustrophobic feeling, sometimes I am confused by my own feelings. There are times when I feel indifferent and bodo with what is done by Mas Dirga with the woman behind me. But there was a time when I felt as sick as I am now.

Because however, for more than 6 years my life has only focused on Mas Dirga. I closed my heart, even closed my eyes to other men out there during the relationship and married Mas Dirga.

Maybe there is my fault. My life is too focused on Mas Dirga. And gave my whole heart and trust in him.

To the point where Mas Dirga betrayed, I really felt very devastated.

Even worse, I had to pretend to be strong and pretend not to know in front of Mas Dirga.

"Bia, are you okay.?" The gentle touch of Mas Dirga's hand on my shoulder, made me rush to throw away my face and wipe away the tears that had been running down my cheeks.

"I'm okay," I turned my head, carving a fake smile behind my current sadness.

"He longs for the old house." I developed a smile to cover the sadness that felt stuck in my chest.

"You forgot that next week we're going to Jakarta."

"You can drop by there if you want."

Just a few moments ago, I just remembered that Monday's heart will have to go to Jakarta for 2 days to take care of a new project that is in the process of development.

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Dirga POVs

"I can't wait for long for you and Rayyan, after this I have to go back to headquarters."

"You want me to drive you to your friend's house, or you still want to stay.?" Tawarku on Ziva who is accompanying Rayyan to play in the playground.

"What time is it.? If it's just for a second, let me just as Rayyan wait here." Legally.

"Don't wait for me, I could've gone home tonight."

"It doesn't matter if you still want to be here, let me know if you want to go back to your house." I turned to Rayyan to tell her. The boy, of course, whined and did not want to stay. But I tried to persuade her until Rayya let me go.

"Mas,," Ziva suddenly pulled out my hand as I was about to move.

"You sure you only care about Rayyan.? What about.?" Ziva's eyes glazed over. His voice shakes withstanding the crying. His eyes looked at me expectantly and pleaded.

"Zi, I have Bianca. You know I love him so much." I slowly let go of Ziva's hand.

"Then how do you feel when we spend the night together.? Lying if you don't have any feelings for me after we do, Di."

Ziva began to shed his tears. I always couldn't bear to see a woman crying like this in front of me. Immediately I pulled Ziva in a paddle and put a swab on his back.

"Don't I Zi. I just want to defend my household with Bianca. All this time He was beside me in joy and sorrow. I can't hurt her."

"You have to believe, one day there will be someone who can accept and love you both. Don't expect anything from me,,"

Tangis Ziva broke even more after I said all that.

"Zi, please forget what happened that night. It's not just me who's wrong, we're both wrong."

"Please, don't look up any more mistakes that make me look bad for Bianca." I pleaded, hoping Ziva could understand my position.

"Me and Rayyan are going back to Bandung." Ziva said as he let go of my arms.

"Don't you, don't you want to see your family.?"

"I promise you tomorrow morning will take you."

"Come, you better go home Tika. You need rest, Rayyan too." I rushed to hold Rayyan who was playing.

I thought I could leave Ziva at this Mall, but seeing Ziva's chaotic condition, there was no way I could just leave him. Moreover, Ziva came to Jakarta with me because he wanted to find his family.

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Bianca POVs

It has been 2 days since Mas Dirga said goodbye to go to the headquarters, just a few times Mas Dirga called and sent me a message.

I also deliberately did not send him a message first, because I want to know if Mas Dirga still remember me or not while going with the woman.

Tonight Bandung in the rain. I've been anxious since, afraid of suddenly power outages. Not only that, the sound of lightning was heard gripping each other.

I chose to curl up in bed, trying to go to bed early to avoid the atmosphere that I thought was scary.

Being alone in the house with heavy rain conditions accompanied by lightning, made my frightened soul more and more.

The sound of the phone ringing forced me to shift to grab the phone on the nightstand.

The name Mas Agam is on my phone screen.

"You must be scared. Open the door, I'm in front." The soft voice sounded calming. At that moment without thinking, I went straight out of the room to open the door.

Sitting both on the living room sofa with the door locked, since then I and Mas Agam were silent to each other.

"You want to sleep.? Let me go to sleep, "Take him after seeing me yawn.

I immediately shook my head.

"Tonight Mas Dirga came home," Just by saying that, Mas Agam knew what was my concern and the reason I refused his invitation.

"I'll be home before Dirga gets there. You ask me when he leaves Jakarta." Sahut Mas Agam's.

I do not know what charm Mas Agam has until I easily obey his words.

"Sorry Dek, I forgot to tell you. The work here is not finished yet, so it should add 1 day. Tomorrow afternoon make sure you're home."

I clutched the phone firmly in my hand as I read the reply from Mas Dirga. Even subconsciously almost threw the phone in my hand.

"If you don't need hp, don't need it. There are still many out there who need hp," said Mas Agam as he took the phone from my hand and placed it on the nightstand.

"Mas Dirga did not come home," My voice choked.

My stupid and weak side turned out to be difficult to get rid of despite repeatedly convincing themselves not to have an effect on Mas Dirga's betrayal.