Soul Pain
Chapter 144

“Tante doesn't know what to do with Abi. Sometimes he sits quietly and suddenly gets emotional, throwing and destroying everything. He also once dismantled Larisa's tomb and took Kyra away without our knowledge, ” explained Ningsih.

“That's because he's trying to stay sane. On one side of his heart said to follow Larisa, but the logic says that here there is still Kyra who needs it. Then why should she be separated with her son?”

“It was for Kyra's own good. I'm afraid Abi could hurt Kyra,” replied Viona.

“Omong blank what are you talking about? Thought it was his daughter, there was no way Abi would hurt his own son,” Boni said.

“Do you have no pity to see Kyra who is so lonely? After she lost Larisa then she also had to be separated with her Papa?” ask Davira.

Ningsih bowed and she cried. “I'm sorry, I just don't know what to do. Larisa's departure changes Abi completely.”

“Then from that I came here to bring Abi and Kyra to Bali,” Boni said.

“Why go to Bali?”

“Because this is Abi's request. There I can also help him to stay sane.”

“But here is Viona.”

“What by separating Father and Son who are injured, it's a good way for both? I think not! Aunty and Viona also seem not one destination,” press Boni.

The question from Boni made Ningsih silenced. Right, all this time he had too much faith in Viona. Forgetting how his son and grandson felt. All he has in mind is that Abi has to heal, how it is up to Viona. 

“Well then it's up to you. If you want to bring Abi there, please, but I can not come.”

“Let me come, Aunt,” by Viona.

Ningsih agreed. He did not accompany Abi in Bali not because he did not care, but he could not accept the situation where his two children were depressed. It made him think whether all this time he had done a lot of mistakes so that his children suffered.

Finally Endra and Davira decided to stay in Bali. Accompany Abi and Kyra there. They believe that if Abi is able to get back up, he just needs time and support just like Larisa used to.

“You to room?” ask Boni to Abi.

“Yes, surely Larisa is waiting there,” replied Abi.

Boni just smiled and accompanied her best friend up the stairs. Arriving in front of the room, Boni opened the door and told Abi to come in. “Gue tau lo is still sane, Bi. You're just trying to deny the truth. Let go of your sadness and longing in this room, after which accept the departure of Larisa and return like Abi who was originally.”

His best friend just nodded, after Abi entered Boni also closed the room door.

Viona who was with them was taken by Kania to the guest room. “Please enter. Sorry if the room is small.

“Gak papa, this is enough for me,” said Viona.”

Kania was about to leave from there, but he stood back in the doorway. “I know, Ma'am, must still love Kak Abi. With the situation like this, Ma'am, is trying to win his heart. But I'm sure what, Ma'am, did it would have been worth it. His love Abi is only for Larisa, so good luck.” Kania smiles and helps Viona close the door.

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In her room with Larisa, Abi tries to lay down on the bed. Silence of the eyes try to open the memory and replay their memories. Larisa's laughter and smile clearly reflected in her mind made her smile. 

Only a warm hug from his wife could no longer be felt. Back made Abi shed tears while hugging Larisa's picture frame. “Kakak kangen you, baby. Why do you have to go? Don't we want to have another child?”

He curled up on the bed, staring at the side that Larisa usually occupied. “Did Brother wrongly want you back on this side?”

The empty mattress and pillow returned to realize Abi that now the recesses of his heart were completely empty without Larisa. He was crying more and more so spilling the pain and longing that became one in the heart and continued to torment him all this time. Unconscious eyes finally closed to dreamland.

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“Bi, wake up, this already want magrib,” said Boni. Abi's thin body was shaken until the man woke up. “Mandi and change clothes, we pray together under.”

Abi just nodded. 

“Don't follow the incitement of demons, you should be able to fight it for the sake of Kyra.”

“Iya.”

After Boni Abi's departure gazed at her reflection in the mirror, where Larisa used to stare herself. “You must be laughing look Big Brother like gini, right?! Your husband is now no longer taken care of since you left.” He laughed, but his tears fell. 

“You must also want to say that Brother is crybaby.” Abi nodded. “Iya, now Brother is indeed a crybaby because of you. Because you went to leave Sister just like that.”

Unable to withstand the increasingly heavy crying, Abi immediately went into the bathroom. Under the shower, he again spilled the pain of his heart. Until his chest felt a little light then he came out of there wearing a cocoa shirt that usually prepared Larisa for her prayers.

When he opened the door, the princess was waiting for him there. “Papa, ready?” ask Kyra.

Abi nodded his head.

“Come, we pray and send prayers to Mama.” The princess pulled her hand down the stairs. Seen below Endra, Davira, Boni, Kania and Viona were waiting for him. Staring at him with a sad look.

“I'm not papa, Ma, Pa.” Abi said as he arrived in front of his in-laws.

Boni smiled broadly to unravel the tense atmosphere that was there. “Yuk we pray it out we read the Quran.”

In the middle room Boni had prepared a prayer mat and some scriptures for all of them. Kania also helps Kyra put her face on. 

“Mami, later teach Kyra to read the Quran, yes. Kyra wants to send a prayer for Mama,” pinta the little girl.

“Iya, dear,” replied Kania slightly choked.

Endra also invited Boni to lead the prayers of their family members. Abi also agreed. After the iqamat was proclaimed, all the bodies were asked to prepare.

“Allahu Akbar .”

The magrib prayer this time went so solemnly. After Boni's greeting leads everyone to recite. Afterwards they all raised their hands to ask and to ask the almighty. May be given strength, patience and fortitude, especially for Abi. Hopefully the man will soon be able to make Larisa's departure.

Boni gave a Quran to his friend. “Read and ask God for guidance.”

Abi accepted the scriptures and prayed in his heart. Finished praying he tried to open the Quran at random. Arrived at one of QS Al-Baqarah's letters: 216  

 وَعَسَىٰ أَنْ تَكْرَهُوا شَيْئًا وَهُوَ خَيْرٌ لَكُمْ ۖ وَعَسَىٰ أَنْ تُحِبُّوا شَيْئًا وَهُوَ شَرٌّ لَكُمْ ۗ وَاللَّهُ يَعْلَمُ وَأَنْتُمْ لَا تَعْلَمُونَ

“You may hate something, but it is very good for you, and you may (also) like something, even though it is very bad for you; Allah knows, and you do not know.”

His heart felt a little stifled when reading the meaning of the verse. Long time he sat pensively on the prayer mat until the call Davira disperse daydreams.

“We have dinner first, yuk!” bring your mother-in-law.

“Iya, Ma.” Abi folded the prayer mat and the sarong he was wearing and his feet stepped towards the dining table.

“Papa, here sit near me,” take Kyra.

Abi smiled as he pulled the chair beside the princess and sat there.