Soul Pain
Finished & Thank you

Over time the wounds that had been so wide now began to merge. The pain slowly began to disappear. Although it leaves a mark, but it is enough as a reminder that we used to feel the name hurt. However, this does not mean that the wound cannot heal.

Similarly, with a soul that feels painful, there will definitely be a cure. It takes time to accept, it takes time to be able to mengikhlaskan and it takes time to be able to release. And now maybe the pain of Abi's soul has been successfully healed by time. 

Thanks to the support of friends, relatives, friends and family. Abi can go back to living his life as usual, although there is no longer a wife on the side. Surely there will be many differences, but with Kyra he will make this life go on as it was when Larisa.

Abi and Viona are waiting for Kyra to return to school. They will be heading to the hospital soon because Kania has just given birth to a son. 

“Papa,” cheer Kyra runs while stretching out her hands.

Abi crouched down so that he could catch the princess. “Child Papa.”

“Come, come, we're going to the Hospital. I can't wait to meet baby grandpa,” urges Kyra.

“Iya, darling. We walk now.”

Viona smiles seeing Abi and Kyra finally get back to how they used to be. The three of them immediately got into the car and Abi also put on the four wheels.

Arriving at Kyra hospital immediately ran into Kania's room. He was impatient to immediately see the figure of a tiny baby who had been moving around in the stomach of the Mami.

“Mana Grandpa Her Baby Pi,” urges Kyra.

“Sabar, darling. We wait for the nurse to take the baby's dedek,” replied Boni.

Soon the sisters came to bring a pig boy named Faiq Harsa Maulana.

“Wwaahh handsome, yes,” praise Kyra.

“Kakak is also beautiful,” reply Kania.

Abi and Viona share the small family's happiness. “Congratulations to you two,” Abi said. 

“Thank you,” replied Boni. “Lo can also think of our child like your own child.”

Abi smiles. He looked at the baby Boni and Kania who were sleeping soundly in his lap. As if remembering the last request of the wife who wants to get pregnant again. Maybe this is the answer, even though they are not able to realize it, it does not mean Abi can not have a child again.

“She's Kyra's sister and it's for sure she's also Papa Abi's son.”

“Yyyeeeaa..” Kyra Cheering happy.

Endra and Davira soon arrive. The Kania family welcomed their arrival with warmth.

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Tonight Abi invites Viona to dinner at one of the restaurants. The woman was impatient to make her prepare in a salon. From there they met at the place Abi had ordered.

“Kyra is asleep?” ask Viona.

“Not yet,” replied Abi. 

“Still, yes, Bi, over dinner.”

“Same-sama, Vi. This is a form of gratitude I make you.”

The woman smiled blandly. “Bi, may I ask.” 

“What is it?”

“How are you feeling now?”

A long breath came out of Abi's mouth. “Much better.”

“Do you still miss Larisa?”

“Every day I always miss him.”

“Then how now?”

“Me and Kyra will continue our lives with Larisa.”

“How about me?”

Abi looked at Viona sitting opposite him. “You mean?”

“How about our relationship?”

Abi nodded in understanding, then he smiled. “I think you came and want to help with a sincere heart. But it turns out you expect a reply to your feelings.”

“That's not what I mean, Bi. I'm just asking, if I had a chance, then I would always be here until you can completely forget Larisa.”

Abi stopped eating and sipped a glass of water. “Vi, I invite you here just to say thank you, because all this time you exist and want to menamani me through difficult days. Thank you for the time you have sacrificed. If all this time our closeness makes you expect more, sorry I didn't mean it like that.”

“But, Bi, don't you want to try?”

Abi smiled as he shook his head. “Sorry, Vi. My heart has been taken away by Larisa.”

The rejection again made Viona's hopes crumble unnoticed. He realized a mistake he had made. “You don't have to apologize, Bi. I was wrong because I was too hopeful and indirectly I made myself feel disappointed. Though you never asked me to stay near you.”

“Thanks for realizing it, Vi. Once again I'm really sorry for not being able to return that sincere feeling.”

Viona smiled widely even though she was actually in her heart crying. “It’s Ok. I'm doing fine. Maybe after this I will return to Jakarta.”

“Hopefully you can find a good man there. Until you can love and be loved.”

“Aamiin.”

“Then we go home now? Let me take you.”

Viona. “I still want to be here. You can go home first, Kyra must have been waiting for her Papa.

“Hahaha .. yes. He has contacted me.” Abi shows her phone screen to Viona. Looks like the call from Davira's exact number is Kyra.

While picking up the phone, Abi leaves Viona and walks towards the parking lot. 

When the wide back moved far, it broke the dam that had been trying to hold Viona. It fell down hard even though he was already trying to shrink the tears. So painful that it makes the chest feel tight makes it difficult to breathe normally.

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“It's time Mama again pregnant Kyra.” Abi showed a picture of his wife while pregnant.

“Then this?” The little girl swiped the phone screen to look at the other photos.

“It's Mama's graduation time. Kyra was a child back then.”

“Papa?”

“Iya, darling?”

Unknowingly, the little girl dropped a tear. “I miss Mama.”

Abi immediately hugged the child and rubbed his back. All this time his daughter looked so strong it turned out to be very fragile. Covering his wounds and grief with a carefree laugh was extremely painful.

Actually he also felt the same way, but this time Abi wanted to be much stronger for the princess. “Kyra wants to go to Mama's grave?”

The girl nodded at the chest of the Papa.

“Besok Papa talk to Opa, yes. Now we sleep.” Abi rubbed the child's wet cheeks and tidied up the pillow so that the girl could lie down.

“Goodnight, Papa.”

“Night too, dear.”

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“Makanm Larisa has Papa moved to Bali,” explained Endra. “When we decide to stay here, it means we will also bring Larisa.”

Abi was relieved to hear that.

“If you and Kyra want to go to Larisa's grave, then Papa and Mama will accompany.”

“No papa, Pa. Let Me and Kyra go.”

“You sure?”

“I'm sure, Pa.

Endra looked at his wife and Davira nodded in agreement.

“Ya, already.”

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Abi and Kyra are on their way to a public cemetery. Previously they had bought a series of fresh flowers to be placed in Larisa's tomb later. Arrived at the parking lot the father and son immediately got out of the car. Before stepping the two stared at each other as if giving each other strength.

I will never end my tears

When I remember you

Maybe only you know

Why am I still alone to this day

“Assalamualaikum, soul backrest, how are you doing?” greet Abi. He and Kyra bend their knees to align with the mound of earth that holds the wife's body.

“Mama, Kyra and Papa come,” added the child.

Abi smiled and embraced the child to get close to him. “May you be calm in the paradise of Allah.” Abi took a deep breath to release the tightness in the chest that began to be felt. “Kakak and Kyra are here to let go of the longing for your presence on the side. Maybe we can no longer be together, but rest assured our prayers will always come for you. Be happy dear, for now you are in an eternal place. Can see us in this mortal world, whereas we can only imagine you with our eyes closed. I'm sorry if I had to make you sad there, but now I will make you not stop smiling to see we can live as usual even without your presence.”

Is there you miss me

Even though we are in a different world now

If it's still possible when I turn around, I'll wait for you

Afterwards Kyra and Abi put the flower they had brought on a tombstone that read the name of the most meaningful woman in their lives. “We read a prayer for Mama, yes,” invite Abi.

Kyra nodded and raised her hands and prayed with Papa. 

“Pamit equals Mama.” Abi said he was done confirming their prayers.

“Ma, Kyra same Papa go home first, yes. We will be here often. Dada, Mama, stop by my dream ,ya.”

Abi smiled at the child. “Assalamualaikum angel surgaku, wait for me there.”

Then the father and son immediately set foot away from eating Larisa with a hand that never left.

Let me keep it until I'm there

Calm yourself in peace

Remember my love you are invisible no more

But your love is eternal

Trained ; Remembered you.

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Thank you to my loyal readers who still survive to the end that may be said not to match your expectations. However, the author hopes that from this story there is little wisdom that we can draw together.

Novels or stories do not have to be about a beautiful dream world, but sometimes there are times when the author tells a little story inspired from the real world. So that people know that the imaginary world is sometimes not always as beautiful.

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Aamiins.