Soul Pain
Chapter 145

"Papa, what do you want to eat? Bibik had cooked his favorite meal, Papa Loh," Kyra said.

“What aja, dear," replied Abi.

“Kyra fetchin, yes.”

“Let Oma aja help Papa, Kyra eat her food,” between Davira.

“Good, Oma.”

Davira filled an empty plate with a spoonful of white rice and looked at the son-in-law. “What's it like, Bi?”

“That grilled fish, yes, Ma?” Abi asked while pointing to the middle of the table.

“Iya. Would you like to eat that same?”

“Bby.”

Davira stuffed the grilled fish into his son-in-law's plate. Then give it to Abi. “You should eat a lot, yes.”

“Still, Ma.”

“Sama-sama.”

Everyone enjoyed their dinner with a look that could not be separated from Abi. They occasionally noticed the man scooping food into his mouth. Abi seemed to chew his food very slowly, as if he was reluctant to eat.

“Papa, come on, the food is consumed. Look at me, already live half,” exclaimed Kyra.

Abi just smiled knot. 

“If Papa does not eat, tomorrow Kyra also does not eat deh.”

“Yes, Papa eat. This is definitely going to be spent by Papa. “ By being forced Abi to stuff rice into the mouth even though the one he swallowed felt tasteless.

Boni and Kania smile, and Kyra forces Abi to finish her meal. If Kyra continues to be next to Abi, then it is likely that the man will easily let Larisa go. Just wait for time.

From the dining table they headed back to the living room. Performing Isya prayer. After that they were all still sitting there, while Abi had entered the room.

“Papi, later Kyra can sleep with Papa no?” ask the little boy.

“It's best not,” by Viona.

“Why?” ask Kania.

“Usually Abi likes to go berserk at night. Do you want Kyra to see her Papa like that?”

Boni looked at his wife.

“Kyra, darling. I guess I can't yet. Maybe tomorrow or a few more days you can sleep with Papa.  We wait for Papa's condition to improve, yes,” persuaded Kania.

“Yaahh .. whereas I miss Papa,” is sad Kyra.

“Tonight sleep with Mami. Kyra later can also hold the stomach of Mami, rasain dedek Baby movement in here,” added Boni.

“Totally? Dedek Bayinya can move.” The little girl looked enthusiastic, she had even forgotten her sorrow earlier.

Kania and Boni nodded while smiling widely.

“Okay, deh, tonight Kyra is booby with Mami aja.”

Kania hugged Kyra. “Then Kyra picked up her doll in the room, yeah. Let Mami talk to Oma and Opa first.”

“OK, Mom. “ His little feet up the stairs to the room.

“Om, Aunt. We recommend that Kyra stay at our villa first with Kania,” Boni explained.

“If it is the best in your opinion, we come,” replied Endra.

“I have to make sure first what condition Abi like,” added Boni again.

“What, Aunt, would like to come with me and Kyra next door,” take Kania.

Davira looked at her husband.

“Solar, Mama,” says Endra.

“Mama is here only,” break up Davira.

“Okay, then, Auntie and Om please rest in the room. Let me sleep on the sofa in the middle room. Just in case that Abi really will be hysterical,” said Boni.

“Why should be in the room?” ask Kania.

“Usually if Abi starts roaring unclear, I will inject a sedative.”

Boni just shook her head. He doesn't seem to like the way Viona handled his best friend. 

Kyra finally got out of her room. He seemed to have changed into a nightgown. 

“Who changes?” ask Kania.

“I'm myself dong, Mommy. Since Mama is not there and Papa also did not go home Oma, I so learned to be able to change clothes myself.”

Kyra's explanation makes everyone's heart as slashed as sharp as a knife. Although this little girl no longer showed sadness, but surely her heart also felt a very deep loss. Until the circumstances demand him to be able to understand the situation that is no longer the same since there is no Larisa.

Kania smiled widely while holding a puddle of water in the eye pelupuk. “Girl, smart. Here hug Mami.”

Kyra hugs the woman she considers her second mother after her mother.

“We go to the village Mami?” ask Kania.

“Let’s go.”

“Om, Aunt, I take Kania and Kyra to the first side,” Boni.

“Iya.”

“Pamit same Oma and Opa first, baby,” Kania said to Kyra.

Davira and Endra embraced the granddaughter and then kissed the cheek that used to be cuby now no longer contains it. Then take off Kyra with a warm smile.

Feeling unregulated, Viona chose to go from there to her room. He exists only because he wants to make Abi recover and see himself who still has love. Not that he was happy if Larisa died, only that he felt it was an opportunity for him. 

When Abi felt empty and lost, that's where he came in. Makes Abi realize that here there is one sincere love that can treat the sadness of his heart. Although it is difficult, he will continue to fight and try.

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Returning from his village, Boni meets Abi in the room. He noticed that the friend just sat quietly on the carpet while staring at the photo of Larisa. He finally sat himself in Sambing Abi. “If you want a story, I'm ready to be a listener.”

“One thing I regret the most until now is our move to Jakarta,” Abi said. “Larisa has often said that he objected to go there, but I just keep persuading him.”

Boni gives a swab of strength on Abi's shoulder.

“But I also realize that what happens in this life has all been outlined by God. So, I can't go back.”

Boni nodded in agreement and smiled. It turns out that Abi still remembers that this life must have been an almighty intervention. 

“Now I just need time, Bon. My heart still can not accept and sometimes instigate me to catch up with Larisa, but my brain is still sane to say that there is still Kyra who needs me.”

“Lo should stay sane, Bi.”

“But it hurts so much, Bon.” Abi banged on his chest. “Sickly. Every day I miss his voice, I miss his laughter and I miss hugging him, but I can no longer hear and feel it all. Although I tried to embrace his shadow, still it can not treat this loss.”

Boni immediately hugged Abi who returned in tears. “Cry, Bi, if it can ease the sadness in the heart lo.”

“Gue is crying every day, Bon, but why don't these tears dry?”

“Then try to sincere.”

“It's very difficult to feel.”

Boni let go of that hug. “Gue knows it's hard, but you have to try, Bi. For Kyra's sake, don't let her see your situation like this.”

Abi nodded then rubbed the tears on the cheeks. “Kyra where?”

“She slept with Kania in my villa. Viona said every night you would be hysterical.”

“Don't know, if at home Mama I really like to get angry to vent this heartache. That's why I sometimes ask him to give me a sedative so I can sleep. Here I feel a little calm because at least Larisa's memories are still stored neatly.”

“Good then. I'm sure you can control yourself, Bi.”

“Gue is working, Bon. Please help me.”

“Definitely. I stay, yes. Try to rest, this time do not use tranquilizers.”

“Insyaallah.”