Soul Pain
Chapter 40
"Well, strangely enough, they don't worry at all. Mama also said we can do whatever we want. Weird not?!” larisa.
“That's Aunt Davira right by the way don't think what huh? When the parents out there are worried about the girl, uh she is relaxed and seems to suggest that,” said Kania.
“That makes me feel there is something strange about them.”
“Judah anyway, maybe that means they believe in you. So, please do what you want as long as you know the limits.”
Larisa nodded. “Maybe also.”
“But you have to take care of yourself, Sa. Don't want to be modelled on Abi. Early hugs, kisses, bobbing together ntar kebablasan. Moreover, Abi's sister had lived abroad. You don't know how he went through his love affair there.”
“Now I am no longer Larisa who can be fooled by men. I used to be used by Bayu about money, now I do not want to benefit Kak Abi about lust under the guise of love.”
Kania gave her two thumbs in front of her best friend. “But if he does love you, he won't do that. As much as possible you will be taken care of. Yes, if so I went back to the hotel, yes.”
“Oke.”
They both got up from the couch.
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“Now you want to know what it is about, Brother?” abi asked his wife.
They had just finished their dinner and were enjoying a relaxing time in the living room while watching the show on television. Larisa who was sitting leaning on her husband's chest seemed to be thinking.
“What's the reason, Brother, can like and love me the same?”
Abi thought for a moment. ”Sister, never read the novel SINKING VAN DER WIJCK. There is one sentence that you always remember, it sounds gini, ‘Love has many doors and the best door is through pity.’ At first, I thought we could love someone just because we feel sorry for him. Then when Brother meets you and Brother remembers Mina from there comes a very deep sense of compassion. What else is fitting to see you relapse after meeting Bayu. Make Sister feel pity and do not have the heart to see you suffer.”
“That means, Brother, just pity me?”
Abi stroked his wife's head. “Dengerin first Brother story until finished.”
Larisa was not a protest.
“Makanya Brother broke up to bring you here to be away from Bayu. Then when I first met Abah, Brother asked him whether what Brother feels is really love even though it is based on pity? Then Abah replied, ‘Dikasani it is a wonderful way of loving, why? Because it has nothing to do with physical things at all. At Pity itself is the embodiment of God's love for man.’ After that, I am sure that what I feel is truly sincere love from Allah SWT.”
“That means?”
“Gini, there are people who fall in love with their partners maybe because they are beautiful or handsome. There are also those because of their property, some are possible because of their good nature. It all has to do with physical things. One day beautiful or handsome may fade, treasures and objects may be lost, human nature can sometimes also change. That is, Brother loves you because of a sense related to God. Until anytime Brother will never be able to hurt or hurt you.”
Larissa was moved, her eyes glazed over listening to that. This was probably the most sincere thing he had ever heard in his life. He immediately slid into the man's arms.
“Now you believe the same Brother right?”
Larisa nodded. “What was the first time abroad, Brother also had time to like patients?”
“Hhhmm no! This is the first time.”
“Keep, Brother, used to definitely have a courtship there?”
“Yes, ever, but it doesn't last long. At most just a few months.”
“Why?”
“That must be because of differences in principles and culture. If abroad there doing body relations in courtship is common. Because for them it is a form of expression of affection or proof that they love each other. Whereas in our culture, especially in the religion that we profess it is very about. So, Brother has a principle will not do that.”
“Terus?”
“Ya, girlfriend Sister angry dong. Brother try to give him an explanation, but it does not make sense to them. We finally broke up.”
“Keep that kiss? Must have dong! Brother, just a kayaknya expert.”
“Hahahaha .. just that.”
“If here, Brother has ex gak?”
“The same SMP time SMA was dating. But it's just monkey love anyway. After college, my sister chose to focus on learning. If it is close to a girl there are some but not had time to be.”
Larisa nodded in understanding.
“If you yourself how?”
“What?”
The woman nodded. “From SD, SMP, to SMA I'm nerdy. Go to school, yes, learn. Go home to the tutoring house again about lessons for tomorrow. Well, after Papa's lecture, Mama just started giving me freedom. First time likes same guy tuh yes same him.”
“Terus?”
“We PDKT continues to be and finally survive until they want to get married. I used to be stupid, easy to believe in him. Uh, it turns out .. “
“Working what is it?”
“No. The way, eat, watch it. The rest I'm busy studying.”
“So, yesterday's first kiss dong?”
Larisa covered her face with a sofa pillow. “Do not discuss. Shame!”
Abi smiled proudly, it turns out he got a woman who is still fresh.
“Kak?”
“What, my dear?”
“Iih, the answer is ordinary aja.” Larisa pinched Abi's stomach.
“Loh, unfortunately Brother right?”
The girl bent her face.
“He deh. What, La?”
“Patients, Sister, in the clinic there are many tuh there must be beautiful also right.”
“Iya, continue?”
“Later, Brother, even like again the same one of them.”
“Hahaha .. no! You think this big brother is a man? The eyes of the basket, every clear clay immediately like. She works at a professional clinic, baby. When it comes to the heart, no one has.”
Larisa blushed in shame.
“It's night, we're sleeping, yuk!”
Both walked to the room. “From now on we sleep alone again, yes,” Larisa said.
Abi's face seemed disappointed, but he appreciated his wife's decision. Maybe Larisa just wants to keep the boundaries even though they are a halal couple. Abi won't reveal it now.
“OK. Good nite, muech.” Abi left a kiss on his wife's forehead as they parted in front of the room.
“Night too, Brother.”
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Larisa started to look around and find out about some of the famous faculties in Bali. Although it has not been determined whether he will continue S2 in the near future. Accompanied by Kania he has written in his notes some of the faculties that became his choice.
“So, when do you go to college?”ask Kania.
“Not yet.”
“Why?”
“Gue again wants to enjoy life first. Enjoying and rearranging what used to be a mess.”
Kania nodded in understanding. “Really! you have to give back your spirit, joy and happiness completely. After that, just start planning one by one the purpose of life lo.”
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The words of Abi and Abah above, about love because of pity I take from the words of Ustad Felix Siauw.
I think Dikasiani is a very deep sense of sympathy, Empathy and Iba.
Sympathy only shows a sense of concern for what others are experiencing. While Empathy is able to put themselves in the position of people who are experiencing sadness and feel what they feel. Lastly, Iba felt compelled to ease the suffering of others. Now while self-pity is a combination of these three things, which ultimately makes us act far to make the suffering person happy. Maybe that's what it means to love based on pity.
What do you think yourself?
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