Soul Pain
Chapter 58

Since Davira told her daughter that the letter had been received by Ningsih, Larisa did not expect much. Only the prayer that he kept saying to the one who was almighty, in order to melt the mother's heart from her husband. 

Even three weeks had passed since the mother returned to Jakarta, there was no sign of Ningsih contacting the husband. Making Larisa feel like she failed to give another happiness to Abi.

In Jakarta alone, the letter from Larisa is still located on the desk of Ningsih. The woman refused to read it. However, for some reason tonight her heart was moved to open the white envelope. It was so long that he began to tear off the tip of the envelope and open the contents.

Assalamualaikum Mama-in-law.

How's Mama doing there? I hope to be well and always in the protection of Allah SWT. Earlier I was sorry if I could only contact Mama through a letter and a scratch of black ink, because my condition did not allow me to come there.

Ma, I want to say thank you very much because Mama has given birth to a man who has a very airy heart to sacrifice for my sake, as wide as the ocean in accepting all my shortcomings, he said, as hard as steel goes through the trials of life with me, a rock in love with me and even patience has no limits. 

Thank you for teaching him to be such a perfect man. Surely Mama would be very proud to have a child like Abi, who may have only one on this earth. Can propose me, a woman who is not perfect, even I do not feel worthy to be with her. 

But what Abi has done for me, makes me feel like I have to fight to be able to be his wife. Therefore I ask for the blessing of Mama to be able to accompany Kak Abi until death to pick up, to be able to give infinite happiness to Mama's son, to give her, to give her all the love she has including bringing Mama back to her. Even if I have to sacrifice this life for Brother Abi, then I am ready. If that could be proof of how great this love is for her.

Mama was a woman that Abi loved so much before me. He always followed what Mama said from the beginning until yesterday, although sometimes it is not what he wants to do. Now, he just wanted to choose his own happiness.

To make Mama feel disappointed, angry, to sad. But did Mama know? He didn't intend to do that. Every day he always calls Mama, waiting for a reply to a message or call from Mama. He wanted to try to treat the wound in your heart, but never got a chance.

Until whenever the position of Mama will never be replaced by me in her heart Abi. We each have our own space. Please forgive the small mistake he made.

Oh, yes, Ma, congratulations, yes, in a moment Mama will be a grandmother. I am now bearing the fruit of our love. Please pray that my mother and my future grandchildren are healthy always until the time of delivery arrives. Of course we are very happy but still feel less without the presence of Mama. So from that comes, so that this happiness feels more complete.

I also slipped a photo of the USG in this envelope. Hope your mom likes it.

This is all I want to say. Sorry if there are words that are less pleasing, because I am not a writer who is good at stringing words. The three of us were looking forward to Mama's presence. 

Warm greetings from me, Abi and my future grandson. 

Ningsih opened the envelope again and found a piece of USG photo. The black and white picture is not so clear. However, he was still able to catch with his eyes, a small lump of creature that would call him grandma if it had been born to the earth later. 

He had the letter and the photo on his chest. Makes him unable to hold back his crying tonight. 

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Returning home from the clinic Abi rushed to see his wife in the room. They will go to the Hospital to do a gynecological examination which has now been three months. 

“Aprepared?” ask Abi.

“I'm fine, Brother. So I can get ready myself" Larisa replied

“Then we leave now?”

“Sister, don't change clothes first?”

“No need, yuk.”

Arriving at the Hospital they do not need to queue anymore because Abi has taken the queue from morning. 

“How, Doc?” ask Abi to the obstetrician.

“Good, the baby is healthy, his weight also goes up.His mother's blood pressure is also normal, HB is also right for pregnant women,” explained the woman's doctor.

“No need to bedrest again dong, Doc?” ask Larisa.

“Necessary. Mothers can do activities as usual, as long as they are limited, yes. If tired of rest first.”

“Can I travel far?”

“Bby. Want babymoon?”

Larisa just smiled.

“No papa, as long as you do not get tired. Later I love vitamins let Mother same baby strong for the streets.”

“Thanks, Doc.”

“Sama-sama. We'll see you next month, yeah.”

Abi and Larisa immediately leave the doctor's office. They make up for the vitamins that are prescribed to the pharmacy after returning home.

“You really want a babymoon?” ask Abi while focusing on driving.

“The plan,” replied Larisa.

“We'd better wait a few more months, yeah. Until your content is really strong.”

“Tap, Brother, I ma-.”

“La, I don't want to take any chances. You are healthy, you. Not now,” firmly Abi.

Larisa could not deny that she finally obeyed Abi's words. Actually he wanted to go to Jakarta to see his mother-in-law. Because it seems like the letter he wrote did not give much hope to bring Ningsih here and give blessing to their marriage.

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Arriving at the villa Larisa just silence and choose to sit back in the yard alone, rather than accompany Abi who is cool watching TV inside.

She was only upset that her husband was overdoing it when it came to her pregnancy. Though he believes that the content is strong and they can travel to Jakarta. To meet Ningsing and ask for blessing so that their marriage will always be accompanied by happiness.

But it seems Abi does not understand the anxiety of his heart, making him feel upset.