
Assalamu'alaikum everything,
I'm sorry Lalita hasn't continued. I honestly still can't write. I am in a bad mental state.
If anyone is wondering why my 2 new works were also deleted, in the group chat I actually gave an announcement, but there is only a small percentage of readers there. In early May, I suddenly had a panic attack and experienced excessive fear, feeling that death was near and overshadowed by death. Actually remember the death and dreams that lead to it even have been since last year, but I can still undergo normal activities. Ever since that panic attack, I've really felt panicked, scared and anxious. 24 hours of fear, overshadowed, feeling like I've been picked up and thoughts continue toward M. I feel guilty about many things, including having written an unprofitable novel and making the reader negligent in his duty to God. Not to mention there are my novels that contain adult elements. That's why I deleted my 2 new novels because I was afraid to continue writing.
For now, I am still afraid to continue writing. I hope that all of you understand my condition. May all brothers be healthy always, physically and mentally.
Sorry once again if you can't go on.