The Broken Ring's
There's No Back Way

"Yes?" Erick seemed a little incredulous at what Larisa had said just now. Instantly, the sentence he had previously assembled in his mind became crumpled.

"Go away. I hope, after this you don't have to come here again to see me. I really thank you because you care so much about me. But now it's hard to have Mama and Lita, too" Larisa said.

Erick seemed to gasp for a moment.

"But, Risa ...."

"Don't keep feeling like I'm your responsibility, Erick. We have nothing to do with this other than an ex-in-law." Larisa.

Erick clenched his mouth. Don't know what to respond to. A few moments later, he opened his voice again.

"You're like this because of me, Risa. How could I not feel responsible. I know I'm a jerk. I also don't deserve to talk about my responsibilities. But still ...." No matter what, the sentence Erick spoke just hung up without him being able to finish.

"This has all been my decision. At the time, you didn't know I was pregnant. I decided to drop it without telling anyone. Whatever is happening right now, all of them are consequences that I have to bear alone. It has nothing to do with you" Larisa responded. His tone sounded flat and cold, yet filled with bitterness.

"How could it have nothing to do with me, Risa. I'm the father of that fetus. I'm actually disappointed that you chose not to tell me, even to drop it. But no matter what happens. I want to fix everything, even if it's a little late." Erick.

Larisa turned her head towards the man and looked at him for a moment. A moment later, an asymmetrical smile appeared on his lips as he understood what Erick's eyes looked like when he saw it today. Eyes full of regret, but also accompanied by pity. Not love, especially love. The man just pitied her.

"Let's say I'm cruel and heartless. But you know what, Erick. When I decided to abort the fetus, I was determined to bury all my feelings for you and all our memories. Maybe I haven't done it right all along. But not anymore. I'm really gonna do it. Even though you won't return to Lita until the end, I won't open my heart to you either. The story about us has been over for a long time. Your feelings for me have also ended a long time ago. If only you had realized that from the beginning, you would have been happy with Lita." Larisa paused her words for a moment to sigh, before then resuming.

"So, don't even think about sharing with me just because you feel sorry, Erick. I don't need that. I'm not as weak as you think. I was almost desperate before, but not anymore. I am able to continue living in my present condition even without your responsibility. Don't worry."

Larisa's sharp words felt so striking in Erick's heart, making him unable to speak anymore. It is true that now his love for Larisa has evaporated somewhere. The responsibility he said was also nothing but a form of his efforts to cover up the guilt for what befell Larisa at this time. If they are really married, it is possible that he will only repeat the mistake a second time. It's possible that Erick would treat Larisa like he treated Lalita first. I don't know.

Erick lowered his head in a deep sigh. For the time being he has made a mistake. While Larisa herself seemed to throw away her face in order to hide the pain of all the sharp words she addressed to Erick. He has no choice. This is what he must do so that he and the man do not fall deeper into a pseudo-relationship.

"Sorry ...." That's all Erick can say.

"No, don't give me an apology. Just hate me ...," she said.

Larisa again thins her lips.

"I've hated so much all this time and it finally broke me. I'm not gonna do that anymore. And you too, learn to forgive. Whether you forgive others or yourself."

Erick looked up and looked at Larisa with an indescribable look on his face. His chest felt increasingly tight with regret. Neither regret for his attitude towards Lalita that has not disappeared, nor regret for what he had done to Larisa in the past. I don't know if he can forgive himself like Larisa said.

No more talk after that. Erick finally mutukkan to resign from the front of Larisa. In the corridor of the hospital he again met with Lalita who returned from lunch together with Riani. They both stopped the move with such awkwardness.

Somehow, Erick and Lalita then end up sitting next to each other on a bench located in the hospital garden. Both of them were both staring towards the front, immersed in their respective minds.

"How are you, Lita?" erick asked, breaking the silence.

"Well," Lalita replied without looking.

"There's no problem. The fetus is healthy and the development is good."

"Thank God ...." Erick muttering.

"I heard you want to marry Risa's sister?" Lalita asked.

Erick was a little surprised and became a bit awkward.

"No need to be so nervous. Even from the beginning of the divorce, I hope you and Risa's sister are reunited" said Lalita. His tone was flat, but it sounded sincere.

I don't know, it can't be explained anymore Erick's feelings when he heard Lalita's words just now. It seems that his ex-wife has cleared up her feelings for him properly, when he himself just realized his love for Lalita.

"If you marry Sister Risa, I hope you treat her well. I also hope that your feelings will not change at any time even though Kak Risa cannot give you offspring" said Lalita again.

Ah, Erick's chest just rumbled. There was no way she would tell Lalita if her feelings for Larisa had indeed changed and the woman she loved right now was Lalita. If he admitted that, it would sound funny, right?

"Risa won't accept me. She said she's been burying all her feelings for me since we got married. He also said that he would continue his life even with his current condition" Erick said. In his heart he admitted that he was too cowardly. He couldn't admit that Larisa refused him because she didn't want to be pitied.

Lalita was silent for a moment, seeming to digest what Erick said.

"Sister Risa rejected you?" repeat Lalita then while looking at Erick. His face looks incredulous.

Erick nodded.

"Yes. He wants to live his life without me."

The atmosphere became quiet for a while.

"Then, appreciate the decision" Lalita said later.

This time I don't want Erick to look.

"I'm sure Risa's sister has her own considerations before deciding on that. Anyway, maybe it's better that you don't come back into both of our lives, Erick. That way, Risa and I can escape the shackles of the past that hurt," said Lalita again half muttered.

Erick's mouth opened a little because he was about to say something, but stopped him from doing it. The man finally chose silence while again lowering his gaze. Both Larisa and Lalita, it seems that there is no way for him to return to one of them.

The regret felt deeper and deeper. Somehow after this Erick lived the day with a feeling of guilt and regret that felt will not be brimmed.

Connect ....

Sorry still can not update the routine. actually want to be updated every day, but sometimes still like to come anxious and anxious. Semalem alone feels restless, continues to get panic attacks again, even though it has not been for a long time. Just type this part while occasionally dismissing the feeling of anxiety and anxiety.

Please understand, yes.