The Last Love of My Life
Self-conscious

The glare was as if it would be painful for Rifki while trying to forcefully open her eyes. His gaze was blurry so he could not see the surroundings clearly at this moment.

"Where is this, Pa?" Rifki asked weakly and almost inaudibly.

"You're in the hospital, son. Soon the doctor will come to check on you" said Haris who heard little of Rifki's voice.

Haris also held Rifki's hand tightly, Rifki who heard the voice from Haris was only able to blink both eyes. The place suddenly felt so crowded because of the arrival of several people to check the current condition of Rifki.

Rifki felt someone was pointing an object at her chest to feel her heartbeat. He also felt someone holding his hand and injecting something in the infusion so that he felt a little pain.

"Where's Dhira, Pa?" Ask Rifki weakly.

"Alhamdulillah, the patient's condition has improved. But still need a lot of rest for a while, do not let him be depressed because of any circumstances," said the Doctor.

Rifki still looks very weak, even to open her eyes for a long time she is unable to do so. Rifki closed her eyes again but she was able to listen to the words of someone next to her at this time.

"All right, Doc."

"For a while, let him rest this time. We'll give her a prescription, fine then, if you'll excuse me,"

"Yes Doc, thank you."

Rifki was back asleep in his sleep, he still needed a lot of rest for a while. Somehow he was easy to fall asleep, seeing it made Haris and the Princess who was next to him feel grateful for the awareness of his son.

*****

Rifki began to open his eyes again, he looked around to look for the figure of Nadhira but the figure was not beside him. Looking at Rifki who started to open her eyes, Haris immediately approached her son to ask about his condition.

"Rifki, what's your condition, son?" Ask Haris to Rifki.

"Where's Dhira, Pa?" Rifki asked when she had started to open her eyes again and did not answer the question from Haris before.

"He's.." Haris sentence as if going to hang, he did not dare to tell the truth to Rifki.

"He's why, Pa? Tell Rifki, "Rifki was getting more agitated when her father did not continue his words.

"Rifki, you're calm huh,"

"Pa! What happened to Dhira? What the hell is it? Tell Rifki,"

Rifki tried to get up from his bed, he was increasingly unsettled when he had not received an answer from Haris. Seeing it immediately made Haris immediately rush to help him, because Rifki did not like it if he was banned.

"Sorry Papa,"

"Dhira why Pa? Tell Rifki now, Rifki wants to meet him,"

"You're still not fully healed, Rif. It's best to rest first until you're completely healed, after healing Papa will explain to you everything later."

"No Pa, Rifki really needs Dhira instead of rest, Rifki wants Dhira here, please call Dhira for Rifki, Pa. Rifki wants to meet Dhira, Rifki wants to be with Dhira,"

"Rifki listen to Papa, you need to take more rest now, you just woke up from an old coma. Papa's afraid, your condition will get worse,"

"Rifki doesn't want to, Rifki just wants Nadhira here, Pa. Where's Dhira? Is she okay? Rifki's condition doesn't matter, Pa. The most important thing is Nadhira's condition, Rifki doesn't want him why,"

"Rifki, please listen to Papa, don't act recklessly, yeah,"

"Why the hell? Rifki just wants to meet him, he must be treated in the next room, right? Rifki just wants to make sure she's in shape, Pa. Rifki wants to meet Dhira, please bring Rifki to him now, let Rifki meet him."

"He's not in the next room, son. Please don't leave your stool, you need more rest,"

"No one? Where is he, Pa? Tell Rifki everything, Rifki doesn't want to have Papa hide from Rifki. Pa, he's fine, right? Instead he wasn't treated here, I knew he'd come here later."

Rifki's speech immediately incised the pain in Haris's heart, he was unable to explain the real incident to Rifki. The pain grew when Rifki looked so worried about Nadhira.

"Why is Papa quiet?" Rifki asked once again when she saw the residence of Haris. "Why why is he Pa? He's okay, right? Answer Pa! If Papa is silent like this, Rifki's not even quieter Pa"

"Papa is unable to explain everything to you Rifki, I'm sorry Papa."

"Why is Papa apologizing to Rifki? What's up Pa? Please don't scare Rifki, answer the truth Pa!"

"Actually, he fell into the abyss of that time, and up to this second, he had not been found either,"

"What!"

Rifki also dropped her tears hearing that, she then tried to get up from her seat and pull out all the equipment attached to her body, he said, Haris tried to calm his son but he was unable so that the infusion tube was released from Rifki's hand.

"Rifki must find Dhira, Pa. Rifki doesn't want Dhira why, Rifki has to go!" Shouting Rifki.

"Riffy! Listen Papa, don't act like this, Papa Moon, son. Don't leave Papa,"

"Rifki can't let Dhira why, Rifki must find Dhira!"

Rifki continues to rebel to ask to be released, he wants to find Nadhira until he meets. He did not want Nadhira why why at this time, all he wanted was the presence of Nadhira again in his life. Rifki does not want the others and he just wants Nadhira back in good condition.

"Rifki listen to Papa, don't act like this, son. Stop that!"

"No need for Pa! Rifki must find Dhira, Dhira can't leave Rifki like this!"

"Rifki, listen to Papa. Your condition has not really improved, then you why on the road,"

"Rifki doesn't care about Pa, all Rifki wants is Dhira. Rifki doesn't care about Rifki's own life,"

"Son, don't waste your life. Nadhira himself had sacrificed his life just to save yourself, then what if he found out what you were doing?"

"He made the decision without Rifki's permission, Pa. Rifki doesn't want to live if without Nadhira, she's bad Pa, she's willing to sacrifice her life just for Rifki, even though Rifki doesn't want that to happen."

"Release Pa! Rifki should catch up with Dhira,"

Haris yelled for the nurses to help him prevent his son, hugging Rifki tightly and not letting her go. The nurses then came to the place and directly injected something into Rifki's hand until it made the Rifki slightly weakened.

"Where's Dhira, Pa? Rifki wants to see him, " said Rifki.

As a result of the drug that makes Rifki no longer have the energy to stand up so that Haris must support his body, slowly land himself began to put Rifki on the bench ya back, yes back, and the nurse again put an infusion hose in her hand.

"You're patient, son. You have been in a coma for 5 months, and all that time Papa has been looking for where Nadhira is, but Papa did not find it at all. Even the fallen members of the Gengcobra were not found, perhaps Dhira had not survived, because the jewel had been destroyed along with the xingsi heirloom keris, he said, if the owner of the gem is gone then the gem is destroyed" Haris told Rifki.

"No way, Pa. Dhira must have survived, right? He can't leave Rifki alone" Rifki said weakly as a result of the drug's effects.

"Please, calm down, son. Arya's father has left us with Dhira, Papa hope you can make their departure. Let them settle down in their new nature, it is very difficult to accept, but this is a reality that we must face together. I'm sorry Papa couldn't do anything,"

"No way, he's still alive Pa, he's not leaving Rifki."

After saying that, Rifki also closed his eyes tightly as a result of the drug. Haris then rubbed his son's head slowly which still saw a drop of tears flowing at the end of his eye patch, Rifki was unable to accept the reality.

Already 5 months she was unconscious, maybe if Nadhira is still alive then the age of the womb has now reached 6 months, and less 3 months she will give birth. Their wedding day passed with Rifki lying on the bench unconscious, she woke up but everything changed without Nadhira present in her life again.

It can not be measured how sad he is at this time, even when he was affected by drugs he was still able to drain his tears. The person he loves the most has now left him for a long time, the sense of loss that is deeply felt by him.

Seeing his son like that made Haris sobbing softly while holding his son's hand and stroking Rifki's head gently. The princess was not there and was coming home to see Ayu who was home alone, so she did not know what happened to Rifki this time.

"Take them off, son. Sorry Papa who can not do anything to save both, Papa should not allow him to come to that place at that time, sorry Papa because of Papa's mistake you have to lose your wife and future child. I hope you can accept this whole thing with sincerity,"

Drop by drop of tears Rifki fell from the eye patch, although still unconscious but can be seen a very deep sadness from the face of Rifki, Rifki, he still could not afford to lose Nadhira for long.

*****

Rifki came home sad, he did not want to talk to anyone and preferred to be silent. The core member of Gengcobra who invited him to speak was only getting Rifki's residence without realizing his words, Rifki really lost his identity when he learned of the departure of Nadhira for a long time.

Without saying a word, Rifki immediately rushed into his room. After being treated for a week he was allowed to go home, Haris and Putri who saw his son like that were only able to stay silent without being able to comfort Rifki.

Behind this, Rifki does not want to talk to anyone, and he seems to have no spirit to live without the presence of the person he loves the most. The princess asks him to stay with her but Rifki chooses to stay in her own house with Nadhira.

"Mas, we can't let her keep going like this" said the worried Princess.

"Then what should we do? I've been persuading in all sorts of ways, but what? All failed, and none succeeded." Haris said, looking confused.

"Then what now, Mom? I'm afraid that if he stays here alone then he'll be reckless later,"

"He couldn't possibly do that, he would definitely still be able to think clearly,"

"That's just you think, Mas. But his current condition was different, he lost his life spirit, and it was as if his current life was meaningless. It could be that he'll do something reckless to end his life, I'm afraid Mas."

"We won't be able to return Nadhira's life either, we won't even find his body. Then how can we calm our own child's heart?"

"Rifki ngak papa, you guys just go," Rifki said as he closed the door to his room.

Hearing that made both of them only able to remain silent without being able to do anything. Rifki also locked herself in the room, she looked around the place where she was always with Nadhira.

The place seemed to be quiet without the presence of Nadhira, where she and Nadhira who always shared stories and joked jokes together, now empty and there is only loneliness in the heart of Rifki for now. Nothing could make him laugh anymore, not even the smile on his face could be seen.

"Where are you, baby? I miss you so much, Dhira. I want us to be together like we used to be, I don't want us to be apart like this. I'm sorry I couldn't take good care of you, I'm sorry baby. Hurry home, I will always wait for you here until you come to pick me up, and take me to come along with you dear."

Rifki was standing in front of his glass window, he looked towards the courtyard of the house where he and Nadhira were always together, he was looking, the spacious courtyard of the house also remembered him back to the figure of Nadhira who was laughing happily together with Rifki.

"You told me to get up from my bed, but now you're the one who left me like this. Why would I wake up if you weren't there for me, Dhira. Why would I live if I ended up living alone here? Come back, Dhira, take me with you."

Seen a tear in Rifki's face, the tear looked very painful. Being left behind by the people we care about most is a very hurtful thing and causes the most deep wounds in the depths of the heart.

"Rifki, the salad is delicious. I really like it, you are the best, "Nadhira's shadow appeared in front of Rifki but enjoyed a fruit salad on the balcony of his room.

"Eating a lot of love, you and our children must stay healthy, yes" Rifki also saw the image of himself who was sitting opposite Nadhira in a small gazebo.

"Yes baby, when to buy more yes, I don't want to run out of stock at home,"

"Yes, I'll buy you a lot, then,"

Nadhira's shadow immediately moved his index finger to take the mayonaise in the fruit salad box and rubbed on the nose of Rifki, which is, seeing that also made Rifki come and wipe it with mayonaise fruit salad that has been exhausted.

"Rifki, my face scoffs all!" Shouted Nadhira with his laugh while holding Rifki's hand.

"Feel my vengeance, Dhira. You look beautiful if coupled with powder from this mayonnaise, must be very cute later,"

"Don't Rifki, no no no. Better you I try it baby, you're gonna look so handsome like no other,"

"Just try, who will attract the most attention later but after wearing this mayonnaise,"

"Riffy! It's a spit again,"

"Lack of tidy, honey, diem. I want a little more to make it better,"

"No, you go first, baby,"

"A little bit more baby, let me clean it up,"

"Darling! Kan my face is full of mayonnaise," complained Nadhira while holding her cheek.

"It's beautiful, though,"

Both of them laughed happily there, the shadow of Rifki and Nadhira was immediately disappeared from before him. So many wonderful memories with Nadhira in that place, and only together with Nadhira will he feel very happy in this world.