Tone of Nara
Chapter 84 Doubts
POV Mahardika
Dating yesterday was a huge success. From what we see and read of Pradipta's reactions and thoughts, the man has begun to fall in love with Nara. Even last night, I, Henry and Adrian agreed that Pradipta's current mind was more focused on Nara than on July. With a little encouragement, Pradipta's feelings will be to choose Nara over July. But this is if not a strong factor other than the thoughts and feelings of Pradipta. We ourselves feel there are other factors that make Pradipta tied to July. I myself realized that my foster sister was very smart and ambitious. He will do anything to get what he wants, including keeping Pradipta by his side. This is what currently remains to be watched out for. After all, for Nara and myself, yesterday's date was a huge success.
“Finally we made it...” I said this morning, while having breakfast with Nara. Actually this morning I did stupidity that had made awkward. And discussing Nara's dating success for the Nada’s Project is the most appropriate reason I can remember. But Nara seemed not too happy with the success. I knew that he didn't want us to hurt Pradipta, and that made a poignant laugh alone.
“Why” I tried to make Nara confess what was in her head and let out all her doubts and sorrows. Instead of answering my question, Nara stood up to leave me at the dinner table. When I tried to get Nara to get her heart out, as usual, Nara tried to deny everything. He always tried to hide his hurt and sadness from people for him to bear alone. It's very
it's not good for his mental health and worries me. I tried to urge him to bring out what was on his mind. Nara just looked at me with her pretty eyes that looked lame. There's a doubt there that I can guess where it came from, but I don't want to admit it.
“Hai, we have Nada’s Project because of you. We want to take away all that is rightfully yours, that is destroyed by men. We avenge the evil of the husband who wants to kill his wife. With your current achievements, you can destroy your husband this week Nara.why with your expression. What's with your eyes? Tell me” I said gently reminding the reason we did all this. More than enough reason to avenge the crimes of the man he still refers to as the husband.
Instead of thinking about his feelings, he again struggled with his guilt for others. She struggled with her fear of deceiving me if it was just because she was too kind, just because she felt sorry for the bad guys she considered to be victims. He was confused between indulging in his heartlessness and discomfort in Pradipta and July, or going on, remembering everything I did for him.
“M, I know all this you did for me. I know it's all in my hands right now because of you. And I know my current desires and feelings will definitely disappoint you. After all, you've put in so much effort and spent so much money. So what's in my head right now, should never have crossed. But how else. After hearing what would happen to them. What will happen to Pradipta, July, sisters-in-law, I can't bear. And I'm confused. I don't want to say it because I don't want to hurt you,” Nara said as she lowered her head.
I really can't bear to see his worry and sadness. I kissed and kissed his head with affection. After that I lifted up my chin. I saw his eyes looking at me with doubt and sadness.
“Why?” ask me gently and firmly. Nara looked at me again. He seems very doubtful about what he said. “Why Nara? Give me a reason and we'll talk.”
“M, after I thought, I want to be his wife like I used to be. I am still his wife, after all. I will regain the position of daughter-in-law in that family. I will get again the residence of Hermawan and his wife as Nada. I want to be the mistress of that house, and not July,” Nara said grudgingly. I tried to cover up the pain that came with a discordant laugh.
“My gear must have been disrupted. I misheard ya?” I said looking at Nara, reassuring. Nara looked at me doubtfully, repeating her words again. Makes me breathe deeply.
“I want to be with him again M. Not just for revenge. Let them take all the treasure
that, but I returned to being Nada, Pradipta's wife,” said Nara.
“I don't understand Nara. You know you're not Nada now. You are now the special Nara, beautiful, great, clever and kind. With your current beauty, you can get any man you want. With all these advantages of yours, you want to go back to them? With everything you have right now, why go back to that bastard?” I said with a little emotion.
“M, I once had an oath before God. A vow to make him the only man who will age with me. Moreover, if I go back to my husband, Juli will be alone. You can be with him back. That way the two problems are finished,” answered Nara making me even more annoyed. I really don't want him
back to Pradipta. Yes, our goal was to thwart Pradipta's and Juli's marriage, but not to get Nara back to that son of a bitch.