Tone of Nara
Chapter 48 I Don't Want Him Injured

POV NARA'S

This morning I was still enjoying my tea while waiting for Mahardika to wake up. It seemed like the man was so tired that his morning waking habit changed this morning. Here I am now, sitting by the window enjoying the orange sky welcoming the sun. I thought back to our conversation last night.

The Flash Back On

“Already.  The point is I know who you are, Juli and Pradipta very well. We know you guys to the slightest. After we lived together, I found out more about you, Pradipta and Juli,” cut off M before I refuted it further.

“This is a photo of me with July and Agusta,” Kata M continues the story, while showing a photo of the three of them. He seems to want me to understand his position between Juli and his family. My instincts tell me that M wants me to understand why he's involved with Juli, Pradipta and me. Does M want me to understand his actions using my presence? In any case, all his efforts would not have gone without my consent. I'm the one who's the experiment here. I was the one who experienced all the pain, which even M himself was unsure of from the start. I looked at his tired face. I also just found out that he was worried about me all day and looking for me. There was a warm feeling in my heart knowing that. But all of that I was straight away. I'm still Pradipta's legal wife. I cannot give the slightest gap to another heart to grow there.

“Since our childhood close to each other. Papa always stressed that we are brothers. We have to take care of each other, no matter what. Papa also told me that I can't think of him as someone else. Papa is my father, though he does not have the same blood. So did Agusta and Juli, we are brothers though not blood. That's what Papa always emphasized. Even when she was dying, Papa asked me to talk about our relationship. Papa says, even though he's not my real father, for him I'm his eldest son. I'm the same as Agusta. He also entrusts Juli and Agusta if anything happens to him,”

remember M. His eyes glare. At first glance I saw there was a flickering like light reflected by the water in his eyes. Is M crying?

“Among the three of us, July was the most spoiled. Mungin because she's a girl. Whatever the request, we will try, to be fulfilled. Since she was a child, Juli was used to it, whatever she wanted, she would fight to get it. That's July. Not easy to give up, always fight for what he wants until he can, sometimes in unexpected ways,” said M. I took a picture of the two of them, Juli and M. I wanted to convince myself and find out if they were really a couple in love or not.

“Do not take it! “ M word quickly and hard. He was acting strange. With an angry face he showed his dislike for me who was presumptuous to take the photos that he had now saved. There was a slightly terrifying aura there. Not often did he do this gaze, but once he did, it gave me goosebumps. If M is like this, I'm like facing a currency coin with two different sides. M's attitude and aura are very different.

“Why? I'm afraid I know the truth?” I said.  I want M to be honest about everything. Nothing else is hidden. Although later I was disappointed if knowing M only used me to take revenge on people who hurt their loved ones.

“That's July, right? Do you guys have any more relationships, other than brother sister? Is your relationship special?” I asked with a sharp tone of hunting. “If from the photo, it looks like you are not brothers. Feel different.” I know I'm starting to bring feelings. Am I jealous? Why is it so hard to control my feelings and feelings? I may be suspicious about his intention to help me. But I know M's a good guy. There's no way he's plotting Project Nara behind my back and setting me up for revenge. Anyway I still believe that.

I saw M so agitated. I was a little worried about how he was last night. I was also arranging my heart which began to have a strange thump for other men besides my husband. My face feels hot and my chest is a little tight. I tried to take a deep breath and release it slowly to break myself. It was fortunate that M seemed to understand me because he paused on his words. He was silent for a moment. I don't know what he's thinking. Is he thinking about Juli? Argha! Why do all the men in my life think about it? I said jealous.

Whahuh? Oh, don't worry. I didn't voice any of that with my mouth last night. It all just rotates in my mind. But yes, with M silent I thought about what he was thinking. I'm sure his mind is centered on July. Could he be thinking of me? Could he be using me? Is he thinking about his revenge plan? My daydream ended when there was a rough breath M did. I tried to pay my concentration to him.

“M, so you really know well with July?” ask again.

“I told you earlier, that we grew up together. Recognize? More than familiar in fact,” he said slowly as if his words were afraid of hurting me. Is he keeping my feelings? Doesn't he want me wrong

thought and jealousy? Argha! Nara, wakefully. Where M might be like that. Even if she was afraid that I might be angry, it must be because she was afraid that I would leave the Nada’s Project and her plan to get Juli back, would fail. Come on

“I actually don't want to ask but I'm curious M. It's been a while since I've realized that you actually know Juli, there's no way not. But you hid it from me. Though you know for sure that Pradipta, July and I are related in Nada’s Project. We will have agreed to be honest with each other and say whatever, what is so long about Nada’s Project,” I said trying to relent and clarify all thoughts

which revolves in my head. I tried not to force M to say what he didn't want to say. Who am I, right? Why should M be honest with me, right?

“I'm curious, but I can't force you to tell me the truth either. After all, I have no right because everything is yours. You're not connected to the three of us. So I'm not gonna ask you again, just hoping you're still honest. Just, can I ask you one thing? “ more by trying not to force. He nodded with a dislike. Yep, yeah,

he doesn't like my insistence. Sure oes. Who am I, right?  There was electricity that surprised me. My hand was already within his grasp and was pouring a strange shock into my body. Whatisthis? Argha! C'mon Nara! You are the wife of a Pradipta. Don't apply like ******! I sniffed in my heart and tried to refocus on my goal, figuring out what M wanted.

“Why did you do it? why are you helping me?”I asked while looking directly into his eyes. The eyes are the windows of the heart. If you are able to dive into his mind, then you will know his heart. You will know when he is honest or not. I'm trying to concentrate my analyst skills right now.

Without me realizing there was a strange swish in my heart. I feel like there's another signal that his eyes are sending me. There was tenderness and something foreign that he sent through his eyes. I've seen this, when? I tried to remember it again. A shadow of Pradipta who looked at Juli while making out in the apartment room was again present in my head. Yes that gaze was similar to the M gaze on me at this moment. But what is it? My heart is beating fast without my control. Unknowingly, my hand was trying to find a grip that could calm my heart. And it was a big palm that was holding me. I felt his breath sounding heavy. But the consciousness came back and I slightly touched my hand to let go of his grasp. He also realized after our silence.

“I want to sell you after you become beautiful.” Said.

“Hah? You're a member of the human sale and purchase group? But why would the mafia want to get involved in revenge for a Nada? Even if it is sold, it does not feel like it will sell as much as your expenses for me. Haish, you are unreasonable M,” I said. In my head I was back spinning horrible things like the ones I saw in the movies. I looked at his handsome face. Yeah, he's a little bit like the mobsters in the movies. Is he really a member of the mafia who sells beautiful women? But, even so, how much do I do? The operating expenses she spent on this makeover of myself were incredible. And I don't think he's selling that much. Or he's planning on selling me to the striped-nose men, until my debt is paid. OH, NAW! what kind of fantasy is Nara. It can't be M like that. I said I was trying to get rid of the balls that attacked my brain earlier. I

shaking my head and stomping my feet was irritated, driving away the stupidity that was attacking my brain. I saw M smiling amusedly. He must have laughed at the ridiculous idea that hit my brain earlier. Huft, why is this guy always able to read my mind.

“Lho was you who asked,” he said winked one eye. Well, right, he must have laughed at what I was thinking. This is so annoying to me. I hit her shoulder with great energy. The outcome? My hands hurt and he laughed.

“Ish Doesn't make sense! It must be July for that reason. That just makes sense. Wh why? Did he hurt you? “ more with still curious.  I tried to distract the silly face that was laughing at my strange thoughts by teasing her.

“Hayo ngaku!” I said make a serious face. He took a long breath. Wuah! Looks like he's hooked

to tell the truth. This is my chance to find out the man who can make me feel good.

“July snatched from me!” said slowly. Oops! Excuse me. I seemed to reopen the deep wounds in his heart. I didn't mean to open up the pain that was in M's heart. Really, I'm sorry if the end of all this, it hurt M. Loved her. Oops, I mean, I love him as a friend who owes him a favor. Don't get me wrong.  But right now he wants to open up the story. And this is my chance to know about him. Argha! I'm really confused right now.