Tone of Nara
CHAPTER 20 He Is Happy There, I'm Exhausted and Sickness Here, Changing My Destiny(part 2)
The morning is approaching. Slowly my consciousness returned from a pleasant dream trip. I woke up feeling the warmth of the sun on my face. Reduce my body to eliminate stiffness. Then I slowly opened my eyes and blinked, just greeting the beautiful morning sunshine from behind my window. Slowly but surely, my memory returned I remember last night I had some sort of attack I never had. My body I can't control at all.
My cheeks blushed red as my memory reached the close embrace of Mahardika. I fell asleep last night in the arms of that man. I curled myself over his lap without any shame. Oh, geez! What a shame to Nara! Why don't you get down from his lap and fall asleep in his chest.? What if he thinks you're taking advantage of the situation? What if he thinks you're teasing him? Worse yet, what if he considers you cheap?!
You're still somebody else's wife after all!
Argha!I shook my head hard. My consciousness is now fully present. Then\, how did I end up in my own bed? Was it Mahardika who brought me here. I quickly dropped my blanket. Kuraba clothes me and think hard. Ah\, relief! My clothes are still complete and there are no signs of___
“You're awake? I carried you here last night,” a distinctive baritone voice, startling me, The voice that cut through my mind that was already walking uncontrollably. The man stood in front of the door.
“I'm not doing anything to you if that's what you think. I also opened the window
checking you out this morning,”. that baritone voice came into my ear like it wanted to tease me. I think Mahardika is a descendant of psychic. Or maybe he has witch blood. I was always amazed and amazed when somehow, he always knew what was on my mind. Mahardika stepped in and approached me who was still lying in my bed. I slowly began to smell the distinctive aroma of Mahardika. His burly, muscular body was clearly imprinted in a sleeveless t-shirt that looked soaked in sweat. His muscular and sturdy-looking legs look seductive. Oops, Nara, why are you even doing scans like that. If Mahardika finds out, it's embarrassing.
“Thank you,” my great-grandson was embarrassed from under the blanket I had hurriedly pulled back, covering my body. Scroll him from under the blanket. His face that looked fresh with sweat, looked at me amusedly. It seems like he's doing morning exercises without me.
“I've been training. I can't wake you up. How are you doing now? Already improved?” he said while sitting on the side of the bed. With the back of my hand on my forehead, he checked the temperature. Mahardika breathed a sigh of relief. While I try to organize my dag dig dug jantunng and endure the shame of last night's incident.
“Nara, how are you? What do you feel?” He repeated his question slowly. Like I wanted to make sure I heard and understood what he said. I opened my blanket and looked into his eyes.
“I'm fine. Sorry if last night worried you. Sorry to bother you,” I said. Him
nod and smile.
“Mandilah. I wait downstairs for breakfast huh,” he said as he stood up and came out of the room. Whahuh? A breakfast? It's noon and I haven't made him breakfast yet? Arghh, Nara, get up and move! I immediately ran towards the bathroom. Just washing my face and brushing my teeth, I ran to the kitchen. There I saw Mahardika sitting at the table eating. On the table there were already a few slices of sandwiches for him and a slice of sandwiches for me. Complete with juice and milk for me and coffee for him. Huft, late.
“Nara, why are you? “ asked Mahardika while looking at me from her chair. I slowly dragged my feet
towards the dining table.
“Sorry,” I said quietly while bowed.
“For?” tanyanya.
“Ish, definitely not taking a shower. Slut!” he said while laughing.
“Biarina. Where are we going, right?” I said.
“No, no need to go to the gym today. You take a break,” he said.He is back busy with his i-pad and I concentrate with my breakfast.
“Nara, last night you why? You often like that?” ask Mahardika.
“I don't know. Last night, my body felt stiff and I couldn't deliver it at all. My mind is completely muddled, terrified and disoriented,” I said guiltily, trying to make Mahardika understand and trust me, even though it might not make sense to her. “Sorry to trouble you.”
“Not a hassle. No need to apologize Nara. I'm just worried. How about you get an attack like that again when I'm not around,” he said. He put on an i-pad shirt and he held both my hands. Whahuh? she trust me? he understands my words?
“Nara, if such an attack comes again. You have to remember to stay calm and breathe well. Control your breathing,” said. “Help not to freeze like last night ya.” I nodded and made him a note. Because after that night, I experienced the same thing a few times.
My meeting with Pradipta and July at the airport some time ago had shaken me. But Mahardika always reminds me that there is too much that I have experienced and sacrificed. He asked me not to think about Pradipta and Juli for a while.
“Nara, focus on your physical and mental recovery. You are special. There are not many strong people living what you are living now,” he said, brandishing his two thumbs. Yes he praised me. He praised my ability to survive this process. A compliment capable of growing flowers in my heart.
“For a while until the third phase is complete, and you recover, it is better to calm your mind. That freeze of your body is the psychological effect of your mind. The attack was not a physical but a psychic effect. So I ask, calm yourself. Forget what makes you stressed and depressed,” he said. This time he said with
resolute tone. I know, it's not a request or an inducement, it's an order. I think he's right. Since that night, things have been different. I still wish on my first love. Even though I still hold my sacred wedding vows. Although I still want to make my father happy in heaven and my mother, just by staying with Pradipta. But now is not the time to think about all that.
There is still a lot I have to do and live before I can completely change my destiny as a form of revenge. Isn't it the best revenge to be better than the one who brought us down? Isn't the best revenge to be a person or to make a success that they don't think I can achieve and do? And I realized I had to fight hard and feel the pain to change for the better of the actor and get my revenge. I know right now He's happy there, I'm exhausted and in pain here. But that should all be kept for a moment. Now is not the time for me to think
people who have made my life a mess. Now it's time for me to fight to change my destiny.
I felt like I wanted to give up a few times. But I can't, because there's nothing else I can do but go through all this. It's too late to give up now. What I'm doing right now is holding on to get past the effects of the first and second phases. Since returning from korea. I always take painkillers. I also experienced some prolonged dope effects. Well like yesterday I experienced and made Mahardika angry.
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