Tone of Nara
Chapter 89. My promise
POV NARA'S
My date with Pradipta was considered successful by M and his team. All the plans they set can be executed thanks to yesterday's date. According to M and his team, Pradipta this time has fallen in love with me, his own wife whom he does not recognize. Even last night silent I heard M say that Pradipta started to turn his attention to me from July. This is news that makes them happy. According to them, back then, it was very easy for me to control Pradipta. Although M himself said that there are other factors that make Pradipta and Juli stay together. This factor is what we have not yet known and we must investigate. M said that we need to make a special investigation into this.
I feel weird M right now. He kind of forgot his goal to get to July, as he said he used to. I think there's something else that I don't understand, in the heads of the three men who've always taken care of me, M, Henry and Adrian. But I don't want to ask. I believe they'll let you know if they think I need to know. In their world the less I know, the better, that's what I've been with from Adrian. And I agree. I concentrate only on my duty, the rest, let them think. After all, M was quite open to me and I never felt aggrieved for the thing he was hiding. If I ask something, M will say what it is. It's been a pretty big sacrifice that M gave me. Both materially and in time. I shouldn't have demanded more from him. M has given me so much. In fact, M didn't have to support me when I came to him a year ago. There was no need for M to open the door of his house for me. There is no obligation M to finance my life, meet my needs especially to spend a lot of money to change
my appearance became the Nara I am today. I worked my whole life I couldn't pay my debt to M.
And because of that, I couldn't afford to disappoint M. I couldn't bear to see his disappointment knowing that I didn't want to continue a project that I thought would hurt many people, including my husband and his family. I can't imagine what risk they'll take. I can't hurt Pradipta and his family and maybe my mom and my best friend.
M kept trying to persuade me to say what I had in mind. I feel like I'm stuck between these two guys. I was so confused choosing Actions that would definitely hurt one of them. I chose I was the one who was hurt rather than the one who was injured. But that's not an option. It makes me breathless. I feel the oxygen in the room is thinning. I need to get out of this room. I'll move immediately
my feet went to the porch, leaving M talking to me. My head felt so low that I didn't hear what M said. I was lost in thought until M came in front of me and made me say everything I felt. I knew I would never lie to her, and ended up with all the stories flowing and soothing hugs from M.
My body stiffened as M's soft lips landed on my head. There was a strange sense of sighing that I had never felt. This is different from the swish that appears when it is frowned upon by the Pradipta. But I also can't explain what kind of strange. I dare not even lift my face. The color of my face that feels hot must be like a tomato. Suddenly my heart skipped a beat while still hugging me, she lifted my chin so I could look at her. He demanded that I say everything I've done. And though I hesitated and feared to disappoint him, I said that I did not really want revenge. The desire was gone from my heart and mind.
still have to answer, right?
“M, after I thought, I want to be his wife like I used to be. I am still his wife, after all. I will regain the position of daughter-in-law in that family. I will get again the residence of Hermawan and his wife as Nada. I want to be the mistress of that house, and not July,” I said with
a broken soul. I know I've hurt M. And he just laughed. I don't know what's on his mind. I don't know why he laughed. But in my ear, M's laughter is a disappointed laugh.
“My gear must have been disrupted. I misheard ya?” she looked at me with hurt eyes. But I also don't want to lie to him. Because that's the last thing I'm gonna do to M. I have promised to always say what is and be honest.
“I want to be with him again M. Not just for revenge. Let them take all the treasure, but I return to be Nada, wife of Pradipta,” I said.
“I don't understand Nara. You know you're not Nada now. You are now the special Nara, beautiful, great, clever and kind. With your current beauty, you can get any man you want. With all these advantages of yours, you want to go back to them? With everything you have right now, why go back to that bastard?” M looked at me with a dislike view. Yeah I know, M doesn't like my words.
“M, I once had an oath before God. A vow to make him the only man who will age with me. Moreover, if I go back to my husband, Juli will be alone. You can be with him back. That way both problems are solved,” I tried hard to make M understand the reason why I have this doubt. However, I am not a traitor who can simply renege on a promise before God.