Tone of Nara
49. Sniffing good sleep
POV NARA – Flash Back
“Why did you do it? why are you helping me?”I asked while looking directly into his eyes.
“Definitely July reasons. That just makes sense. Wh why? Did he hurt you? “ more with still curious.
“Hayo ngaku!” I said make a serious face. He took a long breath. Wuah! He seems to be lured to tell the truth. It's my chance to find out the secrets of this man who can make me feel good. All this time, she knew all about me but instead, I was completely blind about her.
“July snatched from me!” said slowly. Oops! Excuse me. I seemed to reopen the deep wounds in his heart. I didn't mean to open up the pain M was in. Really, I'm sorry if this is the end of all my stinginess, though,
makes M hurt. Loved her. Oops, I mean, I love him as a friend who owes him a favor. Don't get me wrong. I hesitated to continue the conversation that tended to open up his old wounds, but I also wanted to know because at this moment he was willing to open a story. And this is my chance to know about him. Argha! I'm really confused right now.
Mahardika is not a person who is easily fished. He was too intelligent to be lured with ordinary questions. An opportunity like this now, I will not easily get back later. But if I continue, it looks like it's going to hurt M. I'm worried. Yes, when else can make M vent. Don't I keep whipping into him.
“Meanway? Is Juli yours? Your boyfriend?” I asked slowly, trying to dive into M's mind. It is not easy to explore the contents of M's head let alone the contents of his heart. I know this guy is very good at manipulating other people's minds and eyes. Often people just know and see what M wants. It is he who determines how people see themselves. Without his permission, no one could know what the truth was. Right now I have a chance to look at the contents of M's house from the open window, will I be wasted?
“Yes that. Like you know I met Juli when I was 10 and she was, like, 8. He was with me when he found me on the street. He was the one who took me to sit in the car and held my hand at that moment. Even without saying anything. Since then I have promised to always take care of her. I fell in love with her. He was my first love. Even I said my feelings in July at High School. No one knows, Agusta. Only me and Juli know. We were together until college,” he said glaring. Wua, I kind of hit the jackpot seeing an M open like this. Although I know, this is not the full story. There's still a lot of stories behind this, which I probably can't figure out.
“And Agusta doesn't know?” my many. He nodded and continued with a slightly curled sentence.
“Since the beginning, July has always been spoiled for me. If anyone teases, he always takes cover behind me . He always said they shouldn't bother him, because he's mine. But when we were together, Juli always said that no one should know our relationship and she did not want to be restrained. He still feels
too young to just be glued to me,” he said. Frankly, I was a little hesitant with M's cleverness. Not that I don't recognize this guy's intelligence huh. I admit that he is intelligent, tactical and has the ability in every way. Only now do I know his weakness. Facing July. My instincts are on right away,
saying that M from the beginning was manipulated by his feelings for Juli. Julipun realized that and took advantage of it.
July in men. I'm really not the match. Even my ability is like a drop of water in the dam kong Ali.
“I don't understand M. Some do not connect in my opinion,” I said trying to get out my opinion without offending M. I was really afraid that M was hurt when he found out his love was so great in vain d\itangan Juli. I'm trying to figure out how to make M realize that Juli doesn't deserve to be kept like this. There are many women who are better and more deserving of men as great and as good as M. I wouldn't want it to be finally M
defecate with Juli and become a fake lover like this. But if M realizes, does he still want to help me get Pradipta? Lest he would stop Nada’s Project and release me. Don't don't don't let him be
just leave me. I'm not ready to lose M. Huft, it seems like I better give up.
“Ah stop! In essence, Nada’s Project still has to go and your husband's marriage and July can't happen,” he said, voicing my heart. I was a little relieved because we were one thought this time. So I immediately agreed to her words last night, without thinking much. After all, that was our initial goal to walk together. That was the purpose he spent a lot of time, money and energy on. That was the goal of the project that made me experience a lot of pain and difficulties.
“On the basis we have the same purpose. You want to stop the marriage, right? Let's focus on that plan,” I replied while inviting him high five, which M greeted by clapping his hand on my hand. He took a breath and exhaled and then looked at me strangely. Don't-don't M think I'm young and weird for asking him the High Five earlier huh? Hehehe sorry, I was too carried away by the spirit of completing the project that made me suffer.
M looked clumsy and strange. His face looks red. Uh, don't don't let him get sick? Why is his face red? I didn't get it yet, M asked me to end the conversation that night and get some rest.
“Well Nara, we better take a break. You can continue reading tomorrow. Today is quite draining Energy and emotions right,” he said while tidying up the books I had read in bed. I think M's right, it's midnight. Tomorrow we have a lot to finish. Because everything has been fixed M
and I have been comfortable in my bed since, I just lowered and secured my body in bed. But then I made M fixated with his sweet treatment. He fixed my blanket, then lightly kissed my forehead. My heart was racing when I realized what he was doing. My body feels like electricity. My body refused to move making me look stupid. We were both silent for a while until she resuscitated us with her deheman clearing her throat .
“Ehem, all right, I went to Nara's room,” she said as she turned on the sleeping lights, turned off the room lights and exited my room. He looks clumsy. His face was getting red again. I woke up and remembered what had just happened. Unknowingly I felt the forehead that M had been breathing. I'm still not sure what I've just experienced. My face feels hot. My heart is beating fast. My stomach was filled with pleasant moving objects. What the hell happened to me? What is this feeling? This feeling is very foreign to me. I've never felt anything like this before. My head is starting to feel full.
I seem to be getting weird. I have to go to bed soon or my mind will be even stranger.
The Flash Back Off