Tone of Nara
Chapter 18 My Pain Changed my destiny (part 2)

After yesterday's party of instant noodles and good food, last night I went back to fasting to start phase two this morning. I barely slept last night, I woke up early. I cleaned myself, and lingered on my face in the glass. I poked my face with my finger for the last time. I touched every part of my face. My forehead, my forehead, my eyebrows, I'm slowly palpating. I touched my eyes and eyelids while feeling with my fingers without looking. I closed my eyes, imagining the face I touched. I also felt my nose, cheeks, lips and chin. Fetch every touch. I want to remember this in my memory. This ritual is my last farewell with Nada's face. After this all the parts of the Tone were gone.

Mahardika said that from today I will undergo facial reconstruction through major surgery. The action this time will change starting from the line of the face, teeth, eyes, nose, and all other sides. Even so, Mahardika said it will retain some things from the already beautiful Tone, such as eye color that is soothing while bringing happiness, small lips thin beautiful and thick eyebrows. Not much but at least I didn't really change. Phase two is a full phase of incision, cutting, adding, sucking and removing parts of my face and neck through many painful operations and risking disability.

I'm determined to go through phase two no matter what. I am a strong Tone, and determined to win the struggle to change my destiny.This morning I woke up with great determination. I woke up with a passion and joy that I kept on for myself. I know, if not myself who appreciates and encourages me, then who else? My happiness has to start with myself.

After the shower, the nurse started to prepare me. When I asked if they saw Mahardika, Sister Song said that since last night, Mahardika has been busy with doctors. They are also preparing for my extended operation.

“Good morning beautiful,” the voice I knew greeted me when I got to the operating waiting room. Who else if not Mahardika, my helper god.

“Joh-eun achim, aleumdaun,” Indonesian-faced doctor voice in Korean. I cringed looking at him. He looked very familiar with Mahardika. His face was Indonesian. His voice sounded very thick dialeg sundaanya. But he speaks Korean? Are there Koreans like this?

“Ah she seems confused to see the face of Indonesian pretentious Korean,” said the handsome doctor again. "Include me to the new BTS. I'm a friend of Junkook's."

"Huh? What's?" i said astonishment. Yes I know from Prita and Pipit's Talks who Jungkook and BTS are. But why would he bring her here? I'm not a fan of them like him. I glanced towards Mahardika to get an answer of this strangeness. But Mahardika just put her shoulders together as if she didn't care.

“Oh, apparently you are not a fan of Oppa but a fan of handsome men native to Indonesia," he said while nodding nodding but not while singing, tri li li li li li li li li li li li li li li li. Hehehe I seem to be starting to contract this strange handsome doctor. I see he still doesn't understand.

Why look at me like that Nara? I'm handsome huh? I am indeed more handsome than this brother of mine,” he said as he patted Mahardika on the shoulder. His speech was greeted with a heavy snort from the man who was recognized as the doctor's older brother. The sister? So he's Mahardika's sister? How come I never know?

“Nara, introduce, she is Agusta. One of the best plastic surgeons in Korea. Damn it, this man who does not know himself is also my brother who is very dear to me,” said Mahardika while mellirik people he introduced.  While the man named Agusta was laughing loudly when he heard the words of Mahardika. This man was very friendly and happy to laugh, in contrast to the Mahardika, which although communicative but cold and a little kept a mystery and sadness in his eyes. At the beginning of the meeting, even cloudy is always in his eyes. His laughter never reached the eyes and did not seem to be from the heart. Only a few months ago I was able to see another Mahardika, who was more sincere when smiling. Mahardika who smiles more and laughs more, which I like. I smiled at him and stretched out my hand to greet him. Agusta welcomed my hand with his right hand and patted our hands with his left.

“Hem, you are very interesting and more special after this process. Sister is right, you are an amazing woman,” she said still while patting our tight-knit handshake. Mahardika approached with a face stifled by Nine. He pulled my hand out of Agusta's. I shook my head at Mahardika's behavior, as if she didn't like me being teased by her sister. He pretended to be jealous just to tease his sister, very childish, right.  Agusta blinked one eye at me still laughing, laughing

brother's behavior.

“Already, let's start. They've been waiting inside,” Mahardika said stopping our chat. Pretty good actually too. This chat made me more relaxed and forget about the operation I was about to face. Phase two began then. Like the previous phase, I again had to struggle with anesthesia, knife, incision, hose, suction, cutting and reconstruction.

According to Agusta, she will be working at this time with a facelift or rhytidectomy process. It is one of the procedures in cosmetic surgery that aims to give a different facial appearance. This procedure reshapes the lower part of the face by removing excess skin on the face. Rhytidectomy can tighten the lines on the face, remove folds around the mouth and nose, as well as excess skin and fat under the chin and neck. Facelift for myself, combined with jaw, forehead, cheek, eyebrow, and eyelid surgery. Agusta as a reconstructive and aesthetic plastic surgeon along with Mahardika has made a blueprint for the reconstruction process of my face to the end. I asked the Mahardika, the process this time was done plenary, there was no pause.

It started with the reconstruction of my facial bones. After that, the Forehead Augmentation process was carried out by Agusta to form my forehead. In Korean patients, he usually injects fillers or inserts implants in the bottom of the skin layer on the forehead. As a result, the forehead will be perfectly round and smooth. The average Korean has a flat forehead. But they want a forehead that is more prominent and round in shape when viewed from the side angles. That is why the operation is done. This procedure inserts the implant into the forehead to make it look more rounded. Koreans believe a rounded forehead and slightly protruding make her face look more

youthful. According to Mahardika, I did not see the implant because my forehead was round enough and prominent. Agusta just need to put the filler and form my forehead adar perfect as Mahardika wants. This

to my benefit because in the long run, I do not need to worry about facial changes because of implant damage that is common in people who perform plastic surgery.

The next step, Agusta did Chin Augmentation on me, assisted by a maxillofacial doctor. He cut my jawbone to look slender then realigned the balance of my upper and lower jaw. I know this move is very risky to make people disabled. Cutting my jaw is done by dissecting the mouth and cutting the excess jaw bone belonging to me to fit the shape that corresponds to

Agusta then concentrated on reshaping my nose through the rhinoplasty process, assisted by an otolaryngologist. Rhinoplasty or often also called ‘nose job’ is a cosmetic surgery to change the shape of the nose. According to Mahardika, my nose bone is high enough but has not been seen because it is less competitive with fat on my cheeks and forehead. This time, Agusta changed the structure of my bones, cartilage, and skin of my nose to be what Mahardika wanted without any additional implants.

In my case, Mahardika and Agusta agreed to open surgery. That is making an incision in the columnella or thin tissue that separates the two nostrils. From the surgery, the skin covering the nasal bones and cartilage will be lifted so that it is easier to change the structure of my nose. In addition, Agusta also improved the tip of the nose by lifting some of the cartilage, eroding and reshaping the cartilage structure around the septum. After improving the shape of the nose bone, the skin of my nose was reshaped according to the bone structure that was repaired according to the desired final appearance. You dizzy hearing that? Especially me. But all this I have to do to change my destiny.

According to Mahardika, Agusta had experienced fatigue in the middle of the operation that was done to me. That's why he gave up blepharoplasty surgery or what is known as double-eyelid surgery to a surrogate doctor. But Mahardika did not want to leave me at all and still accompanied the surrogate doctor who handled me. Blepharoplasty surgery is quite popular in Korea. So it is not difficult for Mahardika to get an expert doctor equivalent to Agusta to handle me. This process is an eyelid surgery, done to remove the skin or reduce fat on the eyelids stitch the eye folds with a very fine thread.  With this procedure, the doctor repairs the sagging skin on the bottom of my eye and removes my eye bags that are very visible.

The young surgeon, similar to Park Seo Joon, made an incision following the lash line. Through the incision, he cut and lifted some of the skin, muscle, and fat on the eyelids. Mahardika said, we are lucky to be born as Indonesians with large eyelid folds. This makes it very easy for doctors to bend their duties and not make many significant changes. Area

it has been slashed then glued with the latest skin gluing method. Along with this process, the doctor also gives a little tear to the skin at the inner corner of the eye, to form my eyes become more round and beautiful. This process of epicanthoplasty is not very significant to me, as my own eyes are already wide enough.

Agusta who was fresh, re-joined when the doctor did the Necklift. With the help of Agusta, the doctor made a minimal incision in the back of my ear then pulled the neck skin and SMAS layer consistently and gave it a natural and smooth texture. Agusta overtook the process today by putting a bandage all over my face and allowing me to rest for a while.

Agusta overtook the first phase of the second phase of the operation by putting a bandage all over my face and allowing me to rest for a while.  That means, since then I have had trouble seeing, hearing and speaking. I will also be difficult in the business I like the most, eating. I really can't eat, drink normally and always be in pain. I just eat liquid food through a straw. That'sallthatis. Luckily Mahardika was always there to cheer me up. I don't know, I don't think he ever sleeps. Every time I needed something, he was immediately on standby, next to me, asking me what I wanted.

My suffering this time was indeed heavier than the first phase. If the incision in the body and face is equally large, it turns out that the face feels more pain. Not to mention now that my face is mostly closed. Only in the eyes, nostrils and mouth. The rest were wrapped in bandages like Egyptian mummies.

My condition for 3 days post-surgery, quite painful. My surgical wounds had inflammation, swelling, redness, and pain when touched. But this is normal according to Agusta. Because this is a process

wound healing as usual but because in large quantities it looks different. And during that time, I had to let go of eating with a plate to not let me eat. On the fourth day, my total bandage was opened. Agusta asked me to take care of my skin until the tissue completely closed perfectly and optimally.

After four months, everything will change into a perfect new skin. Of course, there are still other procedures such as botox, dermabrasion and so on.

Although it has been formed, bone pain that is eroded and rearranged and the jaw that is very painful to eat should be experienced for 2 months. Coupled with dermabrasion/dermaplaning or exfoliation procedures, smooth out wrinkles, reduce sproten and scarring on the skin from the face to the entire body. Dermabrasion was done by Agusta's very beautiful friend named dr. Brenda. His attitude is very strange, sometimes good sometimes very rude and fierce. But more often, he shows dislike towards me. I don't know why and don't care. Probably because of M. I think he likes Mahardika. He looks very spoiled to M when there is no Agusta near him. Mahardika herself I don't think she knows the feelings of dr. Brenda. this one man is indeed insensitive at all. What to expect from Mahardika who never understood the feelings of the women who looked upon her with adoration every day. Mahardika says she doesn't care and that's their right, when I tell her. Although he can read my mind very much, but when it comes to the feelings, attention and views of the love of the women around him, Mahardika is not sensitive at all.

Actually I was pretty horrified to demabrasion with this woman. Processes that use sharp brushes

rotating at this high speed discards the top layer of skin manually. The size and depth of the scar or wrinkles you want to remove, determines how much skin is removed.  In addition to demabrasion, in some parts, dr. Brenda also uses microdermabrasion.  He sprayed small crystals to rejuvenate the skin to make it more supple and smooth. He also did skin resurfacing as well as blood vessel repair with a laser.

When the face and skin process is done, Mahardika who suddenly wants to speed up the completion of the Nada’s Project, proposes to do hair transplantation. This I agree considering I also want to finish soon and return to Indonesia.

Dozens of plastic surgery procedures for 6 months without eating properly, only consume liquid food with straws, sayatam, cutting, suction here and there, and so on, removing body parts and the side effects of the surgery and the anesthesia that tortured me was done. Being part of my new destiny as a woman. Because of my pain, it changed my destiny.  But seeing the results, I was quite amazed. No more Tone the swollen elephant changed to Nara, the most beautiful woman in Asia. We also celebrate the success of Nada’s Project with

back to the apartment, shopping for clothes and women's necessities for me and doing a photo session full of laughter, before we finally returned to Jakarta.