Tone of Nara
Chapter 37 Loss of Mary

The whole funeral procession went well and was a kidmat. Neighbors and gentlemen were present to pray

Mother. Many volunteered to help smooth the funeral process, since we arrived home until it was over. Most of those present seemed to be sad to take Mom to her final resting place. Mother is quite well known, loved and respected in this complex.

I did breathe a sigh of relief when my best friend and his men were helped by neighbors, having taken care of everything well. But there is one problem I have solved. Who else would not be Mary and her babies. From the hospital, Maria did not say a single word. Mary also accompanied the mother, without expression, without sound and without tears. Many eyes looked at us with pity, but could not help.

Mary did not stop at her mother's funeral. From that day on, Mary never spoke a word. His view was always empty uninspired. Every day he does nothing, just sits in his room. A week after the funeral, Maria barely even ate.  He only ate what I put in his mouth. He just chews in silence. Mother's departure made Mary like she lost half her life. This makes me very worried. My friend who is now commonly called Mr. S, suggest to take Maria to the doctor and Psychiatrist.

Maria is currently experiencing PTSD. Post Traumatic Stress Disorder suffered by Maria due to traumatic events that repeatedly ended with the death of Mother. It seems like my wife's mentality can't survive the events caused by the actions of those bastards and always think about it. Mary, who is sensitive to everything and always tries to think for herself, becomes overthinking and emotionally becomes more intense. Every day Mary unconsciously returned to the events of the terrible event and was always frightened, crying and then empty. Not to mention the nightmares that he always experienced every day made him sleep less. Maria is no longer approachable by men other than me. Even for treatment, I had to replace everything

the doctor became a woman doctor.

Whenever she met or saw men, including gardeners and bodyguards in our house, she fell into her arms and was terrified. His body trembled strongly, then cried and if left unchecked, He would fall asleep or go blankly silent. Since her death, Mary has never communicated with anyone. He never said a word to anyone else. But on his own, he will monologue about his fears, about his hatred for the man who ruined his life, about his guilt for Mom. Sometimes he says he killed Mom. Several times she spoke with a gentle smile even with tears in her eyes, while stroking her protruding belly. He seemed to talk to his two children about his hopes in the future, when his children lived happily with Papa Janu.

With me? Not once did he respond to me. He only accepted whatever I gave him with resignation. At first, when she did not want to take care of herself, I bathed her and replaced her clothes. As I said before, she also resignedly ate from my feed. As the moon changed and with the help of experts, Maria began to be able to bathe and eat by herself. Although he never asked, whatever food and drink I put in front of him he always spent.

Until finally the content of Mary reaches 9 months. Mary's situation has not changed.  He is still in his depression. His body is getting thinner and his condition is not okay. Even so, the condition of a pair of babies in his stomach is fine. That morning, I just finished feeding my wife. Just as I was about to leave, Maria pulled my hand gently.

“Janu, forgive me for always being your burden,” he said gently. My heart skipped a beat, my eyes wide in disbelief. After a few full moons, Maria greeted me again and asked me to speak. After all these months, his eyes shone again and looked at me with a gentle look. This is a miracle! I hugged her with happiness.

“Janu, thank you for everything you do for us,” Maria said after successfully breaking free .

“Tsk, what the hell. What are you talking about? You are my wife, my responsibility forever. No need to thank you,” I said sambal dipped the top of his head. Mary smiled at me.

“Janu, no matter what happens I beg you, give priority to our two children. If you have to choose between me and them, save them. I'm too tired for this world. They deserve to be happy and live better with you. Tsst, listen to me, don't interrupt me,” Maria said shutting my mouth with her thin hands, as I wanted to file a protest.

“I beg you, let me talk. I know, I won't understand. Mom will pick me up after delivering Agusta and Juli to you. Take good care of them. My one request, for whatever sake, don't let that bastard take my kids. Our kids. Tell our children that his mother loves them very much,” Maria said.

“Hey, what are you talking about? We're going to raise this child together,” I said half-screaming I really don't like what Maria said. I will not let anything happen to Mary who is now healed.

“Janu, listen. Everything is arranged by God. You and your presence in our family are given to them by God, I have them, and I believe you can be a good father to them,” Maria said as she rubbed my face with her finger.

“Now, take me to the hospital to give birth. My waters had broken and it was time for them to be born" he said, opening a blanket that had covered his stomach to his feet. The bed linen and blanket were wet. I immediately panicked and shouted to my bodyguards to prepare the car. I immediately picked up Maria, ran to the anarchist car in the yard, while shouting the housekeeper to carry the prepared suitcase, into the trunk.  I saw that my driver was ready to open the door for me. I immediately went in and took Mary. I no longer care about my pants wet with Mary's fluid, which I don't know. We drove at full speed to the hospital. During the journey I made amusements to maria to calm down.

“Janu, you have to calm down. I am from the fish tad already calm,” said Maria sambal smiling amusedly. If you imagine mothers who will give birth while screaming in pain, squeezing her husband's hands until red, clawing and cursing? No, that's not the picture this time. Maria who was in my arms even just smiled calmly at me. There was no picture of pain on his face. I think Mary's face looks very calm and peaceful.

“Janu, since you are my husband, may I kiss you for the last time? You can consider me a man. If necessary I can borrow Mr. Dirman's hat,” he said while giggling amusedly. Mr. Dirman was our driver who always hid his bald head with a hat. I smiled and looked at Maria. For some reason, at that time Maria looked very beautiful. I also did not understand when my heart was pounding like I was facing a beautiful creature that made me fall in love. Maria immediately drew her lips to my cheek. It was then that I moved my face that made your lips fuse together. And no matter who started it, we were both full of love. This is my first kiss with a woman. And it turns out that I really enjoy the pale sweet lips, like I enjoy the lips of my lover who was in fact male. Maria is not a man. The occasional long kiss stopped to get extra oxygen to our lungs and finally stopped after we reached the hospital.

“Thank you my husband,” Maria said as she peeked at me. I immediately got down and carried him towards

the bragar is waiting for us. There I see Mr. S is waiting for us. Not far from us, I saw Jerry looking at us with a haggard face. He was detained by two of Mr.'s bodyguards. S. Again and again He wanted to break away and call Mari's name. I glared fiercely at him, but the man did not care. Maria caught a glimpse of Jerry and grabbed my hand, which ran across the branch carrying him.

“Janu, please, do not leave Juli and Agusta to them,” Maria said.

“I believe in you,” Maria said. After that, Mary's breath seemed to sting to make me scream to call out to her. The doctor who was waiting for us in the delivery room immediately examined Maria. He ordered his men to prepare for the operation immediately. There are even some heart shock measures

this is done while waiting for the operating room. The heart support device that had once been installed on the mother's chest was also attached to Maria. From there I knew that the condition of Maria's heart was very weak even almost flat. Sister asked me to go out of the room, take care of all the administration and permission to act. Although I am heavy

out room. I see Mr. S and his assistant approached me and asked me to sign a letter of operation on Maria. Both babies must be removed immediately if they do not want fluid poisoning. I immediately signed it and gave it to Mr. S's assistant, my best friend.

“Sabar Janu, pray. The doctor said Maria was not well. Chances are we have to choose between a mother or her baby,” said Mr. S

“No! Mary! Forgive me!” a male cry was heard behind me. I saw Jerry sitting on the bench behind me guarded by Mr.'s bodyguards. S.

“Why are you here.For what? Want to hurt Maria and her children more? Don't expect you can take Juli and Agusta. You will die if you disturb Maria and our two babies,” I said coldly. Suddenly the man slumped against my feet making me jump back.

“Ampuni I'm Maria. Save Mary and my children. I love them. Ii'm sorry. I promise I will do whatever you ask, as long as Maria and my children are safe,” Jerry said. I only grieved angrily at that pitiful-looking man. The two guards who were guarding him pulled Jerry and sat him in the chair.

“Here bro, don't mind him. We also don't know, he suddenly appeared here before you arrived. Looks like she knew that Maria was going to give birth and head to the hospital. And it just so happens that he's around here somewhere. That's why he can come with you,” said Mr. S. I can only be angry at this moment. My angry brain is trying to chill me. Right now my concentration is only on Maria and her two babies. An hour later, the doctor came out of the operating room. I immediately approached the doctor and asked about the situation of my wife and children.

“Congratulations, both babies have been born healthy and are being cleaned. Men and women as we thought. But we apologize for not being able to save Mrs. Maria. After giving birth, she regained consciousness and saw her daughter's son. He told her to apologize to her husband and leave her son to her father. After that his situation changed quickly and we did not manage to save him. We have tried sir,” said the doctor cupped his hands together. I sat down weak. I don't know why I wasn't surprised. Whether it was a hallucination or not, I saw Maria looking at me from the operating room door with a smile. She hinted at not crying and excited for the sake of the children. He wanted to say goodbye to me and leave Juli and Agusta, our children.

“Mariaaa! “ a shout resuscitated me for a moment. Jerry's voice took my eyes off Maria. When I looked back at the door, there I saw no more Mary's face. The door was empty of my heart and mind. But I soon realized that this was not the time for me to be weak and melo. Two children are now my responsibility. Well Maria, Mother, as I promised I'd take care of them. I'm determined to raise my children with my own hands. I strengthened my heart and immediately headed to the room where Maria was with her two babies. I was helped by my best friend immediately to take care of Maria's funeral. I held and kissed two very handsome and vatnik babies. Juli is very similar to Jerry while Agusta inherits the beauty of Maria but with Jerry's sharp nose. Both look healthy and very calm. But because it was too small, the doctor asked me to be patient and put them in temporary care to be observed. After handing my two children over to the sisters, I decided to go out for a while, and it turned out that Jerry was waiting for me and wanted to talk.

Jerry begged me to let him see Maria and our two babies for the last time he said.I let the man see my wife, while waiting for the preparation process. I heard Jerry repeatedly apologizing to Maria's body. I really don't know what he's doing. Is he really sorry and sorry. Or is this just a drama so he can get our kids? Body time

Maria cleared, Jerry approached me.

“ Janu, I know you're a good man. You deserve to be the second father of Mary's children

assholes like me. I'm putting my kids on you. Janga worries, I will never bother you and those kids. I promised after Maria's funeral I'd disappear for good. But before that, I asked permission to see the children, first and last and deliver Mary to rest

lastly,” said Jerry pleading. I saw sincerity and regret in his eyes. The hallucinations are back. I saw Maria standing in a beautiful white dress. Mary is like a beautiful bride in a fairyland. He looked at me and Jerry and nodded as if to allow and grant Jerry's request.  And I don't know either, even though my head and my heart were so angry at the bastard man before me, I nodded.

“Jhon, take him to see my son. Take care of him and don't take long. After that drive him out of here, never allow him and his family to approach my children,” I said. After that I saw Jerry pass with the two guards. I was stuck for a moment to prepare myself. Mr. S who had just silently looked at all the events, approached me while handing me coffee in a paper glass. I accepted it and took a slow sip.

“What are your plans for that bastard? We are waiting for your order,” said Mr. S

“No. In the meantime, I'd like to focus on Maria's funeral and the care of the two babies. After all I'm the legal father of Juli and Agusta. At the moment they will not act. Let go of Jerry,” I said.

“What? Let go of that bastard? Wh why? Why did you let that bastard see my niece?” said Mr.

S does not accept.

“Maria wants it,” I said briefly stand up and throw an empty glass into the trash. I tried to throw my gloom with the glass.I took a long breath and turned to Mr. S. “We wait until all this is done. If they interfere, then we just beresi.”