Tone of Nara
CHAPTER 87 Plin Plan
POV NARA'S
The Nada's Project implementation plan is already speeding towards the target. Like an arrow, the bow has been bent, the arrow has even been removed. No one else could withstand the speed of an arrow. And I'm part of that arrow, like it or not. I have to keep going and I can't hesitate. One of the things that made me think about my next steps was Juli. I was forced to face the beautiful woman several times, and lost. I doubt if I can face the woman I think is crafty, if she comes to know of this plan and attacks me. I can still clearly remember how he influenced the netizens with the temple falling and being persecuted. I also remember Nada's biggest trauma because of July. The woman made plans for my death, which made one of my best friends a victim. My heart became a rage because of fear.
But M calmed me down. He knew that July would definitely react when Pradipta and some of the profits he had threatened to be taken by me. According to M, Juli is the type of woman who will fight and defend something she wants. But M promised to always protect me. He asked me not to think about Juli and Pradipta. M asked me to focus on making Pradipta fall in love without me having to tease her cheaply. I still have to position Pradipta as a pursuer and will be blamed later when our affair is revealed. Pretty hard for me. Let alone trapping Pradipta's love, even making my own husband fall in love and stay away from the actor, I'm not sure I can. I don't have that much confidence.
Yeah, I still have my doubts. Not on the ability of M and his team in running Nada’s Project and overcome
every problem. I knew that M and his team had devised a plan to do with the media wave we were going to create and the July attack. Although I know M can't show up for July yet, I know he'll always look after me from afar with Henry. I'm pretty calm myself with Adrian by my side. The man is very capable of carrying out his duties.
But I doubt if I'm capable of doing my part without falling first. Can I perform in front of my husband and family. I pretend I don't know my mom and my best friend. Can I overcome my fear and humility in the face of Juli who has brought me down many times. Can I convince M that July is dangerous. I myself am not sure if the good man will return to the cunning July, often using and hurting him, in light contact with other men. I don't want M to be hurt again and again. I feel M deserves a faithful, gentle, gentle woman,
take good care of M and of course a heart of gold like M. And I know it's not July. Unfortunately M adores Juli very much. He doesn't even believe that the woman was behind my assassination plot. M blames Pradipta, who I don't think could have planned such an evil thing without the influence of the cunning woman, Juli.
“Finally we succeeded..” said M calmly. With his current look, I knew the answer to my question was, yes I managed to carry out my role. The expected result M is achieved. But that means the plan to take down Pradipta and July begins. I don't know, my heart doesn't seem willing if we do this. It does not feel right if we reach our goal by bringing down people, especially the men I have made my life companion before God. Anyway, he is my husband. I promised Papa that
happy with Pradipta. Our marriage is sacred and not a game. So it doesn't feel right and it's not good if I drop it. If I hurt her like this. I really can't hurt Pradipta, whatever M said, he's done to hurt me. I also know M is aware of my thoughts and doesn't like them.
“Why” ask M with low voice. That's M's style if he doesn't like something. I also know I was wrong. I know M has sacrificed so much both material and time for me to regain my position in the Hermawan house. I know everything was made and planned for me. I also realized how disappointed M was to see my doubts and untrueness. But that's not what I meant. I also don't want to be between Pradipta and M like this. I love both of them and don't want to hurt either. I have to calm down. My chest feels tight in this room. Maybe finding some fresh air on the porch could make me
breathe more easily. I got up without saying anything to M. I have not been able to answer her question, and I have not been able to see that disappointed face at this time.
“Hey, where are you going? You why Nara?” tanya M wants to hold me back.
“No why. I just want to find wind”I replied without wanting to look at it. I really can't see that handsome face disappointed because of me. I kept my feet up to the porch. My mind just kept drifting off without direction. I'm really confused right now. Like eating simalakama fruit. Aghhh! Why would I want to plan like this! I screamed inside my head.