Wagering
Reason

Rinai the rain that poured down on the earth bore witness to Fabian's passing away from her mother forever. Under the rain, she let her mother's body be filled with earth, and she could never embrace it again as she once did. Angan to live happily together also he buried with the body of his mother, leaving severe bruises that somehow took how long to heal.

The burial area is back quiet after all the mourners— whose number is not how—pamit retreat. Now, there is only her who rests beside her mother's navel, and three members of Pain Killer and Sabiru are waiting behind her. He had warned Baskara not to appear before him, but the young man seemed to be very stubborn and still came to this cemetery despite knowing the consequences they might face until one of them was unconscious.

Fabian knew he shouldn't hate Baskara, because the boy didn't know anything. At least, he will believe that Baskara does not know about his mother's obsession to build a happy little family. But, still, this was all still too difficult for him. Seeing Baskara always made him imagine on the cruel face of Sera when the woman killed his mother's life.

"Bi, uh,"

The speck of rain that had originally drenched his body, instantly came to a halt along with that resounding clear voice. Then, a swab landed on his shoulder, making him unwillingly raise his head and find Sabiru standing beside him, holding a black umbrella so that the two of them would not get wet.

"Let's go home." Take the girl out and extend your hand.

On another day, he would accept the helping hand with pleasure. But this afternoon, when what appeared before his eyes was no longer Sabiru the Lemonade girl he had met in Mega a few months ago, but the lover of a friend he was avoiding, Fabian thinks he's not up to it.

"Lo. I still want to be here." He said, then looked back at the mother's belly button. The colorful flowers that were sown there shifted exposed to rainwater, gradually sliding down leaving mounds that were still wet. As if unwilling for the flowers to leave their mother alone, Fabian picked them up, then placed them back on top of the mother's belly button.

Instead of leaving as he commanded, he instead saw Sabiru crouching down beside him. The black umbrella that shaded them was removed, left to leave its function because it seemed that the girl also preferred wetness. "Gue temenin you're here." Said the girl.

"No need." Ketus Fabian's. Again, please remember, she sees Sabiru as Baskara's lover now. So all the emotions that are not aimed at the girl, forced to spill because the girl is too stubborn. "Gue didn't want anything to do with Baskara being around me for a while."

If this was another girl, perhaps her words would have been put to heart and she ended up being left alone. But since this was Sabiru, and Fabian knew the girl was indeed little else, which he found instead the girl stared straight at the headstone bearing her mother's name. The girl's lips thinned before it finally opened and the girl said, "But I'm here as Sabiru, the girl you met on Mega a few months ago. Girls who want to be fat because you come to the club only wear T-shirts and shorts. I didn't come as Baskara's girlfriend or the girl you used to make bets." The sentence was spoken with a very calm intonation, making the originally fiery Fabian also carried away.

For a few moments, all that was heard was the sound of the rain getting heavier, as well as the occasional sound of their breathing sounding earthy. Their bodies were already completely wet, it was too late to escape so they only ended up resignedly receiving more splashes from above the sky.

"Lo know?"

Fabian. The blue girl was casting her eyes forward. I don't know which object was the target of the girl's sight. Whether the Cambodian tree is beginning to flower, or even the ranks of the tomb that looks worn under it—looked long ago not visited by relatives.

"Disclaimer first, I don't want to fight fate. But ... lo lucky because at least nyokap you have a final resting place that you can visit whenever you kangen." Blue seemed to take a deep breath, then the girl turned to him. "I didn't even leave a body to be buried. They were gone, as if they had never existed in the first place. Whenever I miss it, I can just sit on my balcony, watching the stars in the sky and assuming that they are the embodiment of the bodies of my dead parents."

"I mean, let's just sleep here, Bi. You can come again tomorrow, the day after tomorrow or whenever you want because you will not go anywhere else. So, why don't you go home now, make it come again later with better conditions?"

"The end keeps telling me to go home." Fabian grunting. Instead of moving, he dropped his butt on the ground. He sat cross-legged, chin-backed while playing one flower petal separated from the herd. "Gue told you, I still want to be here."

Blue clucked. Failing was her attempt to become a meek girl who came with all kindness to comfort a grieving friend. Indeed it seemed that her facade of being a meek girl was already completely exhausted. "Yes but it's cold, anjir." He complained, rubbing his own two shoulders. "Lo may be raining, but I'm not."

"Yes you're staying home? Why are you still running around here?" fabian sewot. The impression was like he had forced the girl to accompany him here. So annoying.

"Yes, I'll tell you." Blue moved his body closer towards Fabian. Keep approaching until they know their arms have touched each other. Then, the girl whispered right next to his ear, making him shudder as the warm breath of the girl hit the exposed skin of his neck. "The yellow will not let me go home, if you don't go home either."

"Whose nose?" asked Fabian in confusion.

"Friends, you are! Who else." Blue keeps her body away. "They'll probably be snacking on their feet there, until you're ready to go home."

Hearing Blue's words, Fabian became interested in looking back. Sure enough, his three friends who were standing under the auspices of the two umbrellas seemed to be throwing glances at him. The faces with anxious expectations seemed so clear even though the rain that fell obscured most things.

"Lupain is the middle, if you don't want to consider him a friend. But those two, how can you ignore that?"

Fabian looked back at Sabiru. His calm facial water seemed to tell him that there was nothing to worry about, as long as he still had his friends. But then, that is not what makes Fabian willing to rise and extend his hand. He saw that the girl's lips were turning blue and her body was trembling slightly. Even though it was hidden as well, it was clear that the girl was cold.

The gentleman souls within Fabian cannot be simply removed. So, he decided to give in to this girl now.

Blue seemed to smile happily before grabbing Fabian's helping hand. And when his arm was pulled in full force to the point of almost falling into the arms of the handsome young man, Blue felt a pampered gurgle coming from inside his chest. He did not have time to let his heart beat even more so, because his body was shivering and they should immediately go to find shelter before he froze to death.

They walked over to three other young men who had waited patiently since then. The black umbrella brought by Sabiru, was finally left on top of the Royal Pusara, as a memento so that the woman would not feel alone tonight.

"Well my car?" haggar Reno, ready to open the door.

However, Fabian shook his head instead. Without a cue, he pulled Blue's arm so that the girl's body re-attached to him. "Gue wants to go home with her, if you don't mind." He said with a gaze fixed towards Baskara.

"If your son wants to, you can take him home. But if not, I hope you won't make him follow you." After replying, Baskara took over the umbrella that Juan had originally held, then he walked over to Sabiru. "And please don't take him to play in the rain, his body isn't that strong." While giving the umbrella to Fabian— let himself change to get wet.

For a full 30 seconds, Baskara stood in front of Blue, looking at her lover fixedly before he finally exhaled slowly and turned back to look at Fabian. "Please get him home before midnight, tomorrow he's got morning class." Her speech. It was the last message Baskara had ever given Fabian. Because after that, he walked unsteadily towards the exit of the burial area.

Reno's voice shouted his name, as well as Juan's pursuit of nothing he ignored. Baskara continued to step up, not knowing where she was going after this.

...****************...

Without thinking that Baskara was handing himself over to Fabian as a small form of penance, Blue came home with Fabian. He said when the young man took him into a taxi, he asked the driver to take them to the young man's residence.

This was the first time Blue had set foot in Fabian's house, and the vibes' loss was clearly felt even as his foot was freshly stepped on the front door.

"Gue can tell you to borrow my new shirt." Bargained the young man as he was led towards the living room.

Blue does not. His body was already shivering and to be honest, a hug would feel better for him at this moment. If only the one who was holding his hand tightly at this moment was Baskara, he would definitely scatter into the young man's arms.

Ah ... Basque. Until this moment, Blue still could not free himself from the guilt of having had the intention to take revenge on the young man until a few months before this. It was truly inconceivable that he had destroyed the young man, at a time when his life had already been shapelessly shattered.

"Lo hear me say what?" Blue felt Fabian's hand shake off.

"Look."

"Your mind is definitely not here anymore." Accuse Fabian suddenly, making Blue raise one eyebrow. "Lo said come here as a friend, but your mind is clearly left somewhere else."

After knowing where Fabian was talking, Blue let out a long sigh. "Gue's freezing, Fabian. And you know what can make me stop shivering? Yes. A hug. That's why I think of Baskara now, because only he can give me that hug."

"Gue can love too." Fabian spread his arms wide, but Blue was grieving.

"You're not my boyfriend." Said the girl with eyes that started to glare. "Gue just wants to be hugged by my boyfriend."

"Call as a friend is there." Fabian is still tight. His arms are also getting wider. It was as if he wished that the soaked little body would actually scatter into his arms.

"Nope." Blue shakes. "Gue his son is loyal."

"Faithful from Hong Kong? Don't you remember cheating on me?"

"That's another, yeah! We're just dating pretend, so it doesn't count as cheating!"

"You pretend to cake, not kekak, the fact that you are related to Baskara when we are still dating it has dropped your statement about faithful."

"Well, whatever!" Blue relented. There was no point in arguing about being faithful or not, because I swear to God, he was already so cold. "Now, mending you're still my change of clothes before I freeze to death."

"The book is in my room."

"Yes on?"

"It has to be taken first."

"Yes on?"

Fabian sighed softly, "I went there. We'll take his clothes together."

"Well, why is that?"

Not only did he have time to answer, his hand had been forcibly pulled by Fabian. He was held up, like being dragged to climb one by one ladder when the steps that Fabian swing so wide and he was forced to compensate. It's so inhumane!

"Slow down! I'll be stuck!"

"Bi!"

"Ah! Your legs are prolonged, so I'm hard to follow your steps!"

"Fabian!"

Dizzied to hear Blue constantly blabbering, Fabian finally took a step that could be said to be quite extreme. Without warning, he lifted Sabiru's body, carrying her through the remaining five steps. The fussy lips were no longer blabbering, and the owner could only gawk and would not want to put his arm around Fabian's neck so that he did not fall.

"Bukain dong, please." Fabian said when they got to the door. Both of his hands were busy making sure Blue didn't fall, so he couldn't use it to open the doorknob. "My hands full—sama lo body."

A little awkward, Blue let go of one hand to open the door of the Kingdom room. After the door opened, Fabian stepped in. Blue body then he lowered, then his small back he pushed slowly towards the wardrobe.

"Tuh, there's the closet. Find your own clothes. I don't know what's right on your body." Fabian. Then, Fabian walked over to the bed and sat down in front of him.

Remnants of shock over Fabian's sudden act of lifting his body still made Blue have trouble digesting things quickly. As a result, he was even stupefied in front of the wardrobe, not knowing what to do until finally Fabian had to repeat the order 2 times.

Long time choosing, Blue finally decided to pull a dress in navy blue. The length should only be a little below the knee, but considering the body is not very high, the dress may look a little longer on his body.

"Wear this one?" ask Fabian. The young man had indeed allowed him to choose himself, but as someone who still had manners, he still intended to ask permission first.

"Wear whatever you want." Fabian. "It's all comfortable." Keep up the young man. His attention wasn't really on Blue. He only glanced at the glance of which dress Blue chose, then looked back down at an object that stole his attention since he found it a while before Blue invited him to speak.

It was a journal book, tucked away in a nightstand drawer next to the bunks, stricken with other objects. When he was a child, Fabian often saw Raya struggling with this kind of journal book, but she never had a chance to find out what kind of writing Raya made because she would always scold him whenever he sneaked into the room to peek.

"But, Bi,"

Fabian turned his attention back to Sabiru. The girl looks confused while carrying her choice of blue sea dress. "Why again?" tanyakanya.

"That's ..."

"What?"

"My underwear is wet too. Keep if you wear this dress, later—"

Blue's words were unresolved because Fabian suddenly let out a sigh. The young man was tired himself with the problem of changing clothes that never finished. Ah, he hasn't even had time to take care of his own clothes that are still wet.

"Lupain it, put the dress again, you wear my clothes only. My clothes are tebel-tebel, so it should be okay even if you do not use underwear."

Ughhhh! It feels awward once must discuss about underwear now. But how else? That's the biggest problem they're facing right now.

"O-okay." Blue put back the dress of her choice as ordered by Fabian. Then, he followed the young man walking out from inside the room.

He was led to another room, which was located right next to the one. Unlike the bachelor children's room in general that tends to fall apart, Blue actually found Fabian's room neatly arranged. Bed linen and pillows are back in place. The blanket folded neatly on the bed. No towels hanging on the bed. Even with a clean corner of his room without dirty clothes scattered on the floor. If it can be given a number, Blue will assess the level of neatness of Fabian rooms with a number of 100/100. Alias, perfect.

"Now" one navy oversize shirt and one black training trouser were extended to him, and Blue accepted it with pleasure. "Replace in the bathroom there." The word of Fabian, and again Blue followed the command with pleasure.

Blue walked towards the bathroom, pushed the bathroom door slowly, and was again stupefied. Just at the door, he was greeted with a fragrant aroma that calmed the soul. There is no foul aroma of dirty clothes that are allowed to get wet by splashing water. Visually, the appearance in this bathroom is also not inferior but with Fabian's room. Bottles of shampoo and soap are neatly arranged on the shelf. The small glass there also looked shiny, like there was never any naughty water splashing there to make it blurry. Anyway, both the room and the bathroom, really shows how young Fabian loves cleanliness and neatness.

While Blue was stunned by the clean and neat bathroom, there was Fabian who was again fixated on the journal book he brought from his mother's room. In addition to this journal book, he also noticed there were some other objects stored in it again and he had not had time to touch it.

Fabian took a quick glance at the bathroom whose door was closed, then he walked towards the wardrobe, picking up a change of clothes for himself.

"Bi, I'm going to my nyokap room yeah, want to change banju!" he screamed from the bathroom door.

Blue replied from the inside, and that was enough to be an excuse for him to swing his steps out.

...****************...

Truly, bringing Blue here is a form of camouflage. He instead brought the girl to launch revenge on Baskara. Not at all. Such things did not cross his mind at all, moreover he knew that Baskara was innocent. He deliberately brought Blue here so that he had a reasonable reason to go into the mother's room. Because from the beginning, he knew there would not be a single piece of clothing belonging to his mother that Blue would be able to wear.

After flushing his body with warm water and changing into new clothes, Fabian again sat himself on the edge of his mother's bed. If not wrong, he had seen there was a cellphone stored in the nightstand drawer, and now he intends to check what the contents in the phone are. Not to be presumptuous, he just wanted to know who his mother was communicating with all this time, what kind of people the woman was contacting when their lives felt worse by the day.

Because unlike him who still has Baskara and his other friends, Fabian knows his mother has no one. His grandmother and grandfather who lived abroad also may have long cut off contact when they moved here. More than that, she was not even the expected grandchild, so losing track of her might not be something big to the pair of parents.

The phone Fabian was looking for was dead. He thought the phone might have run out of power, but when he tried to turn it on, he, it turns out the phone can turn on and the indicator in the top right corner shows that the phone power is still left 65 percent. There is still enough to last for the next two days, if the phone is not in use.

Fabian tried to unlock it by sliding the screen up, and it turned out that it could. It turns out that his mother did not use complicated passwords to lock her phone screen.

But that wasn't enough to surprise him. There was something else that made him more confused. Made him quiet for quite a long time with an unwavering feeling. Her mother, who always told her she was worthless and her birth was never desirable, used their photo as wallpaper on the phone. There, her mother seemed so happy while holding her still-infant self. There was no hatred emanating from those eyes at all. The smile that was presented was also so sincere.

On the one hand, Fabian was happy because it meant at least once in his mother's life, he was considered valuable. But on the other hand, he became wondering. What was the reason that he ended up being treated badly? Is it because Jeffrey once promised his mother responsibility, then reneged on the promise so that his mother became angry and disappointed? Or ... Is it all because of Sera? Because she did not want another woman to be happy with her son, because she was afraid that happiness would make her happiness disappear?

Fabian thought he would find the answer when he opened the phone. But it turns out, he found something else that gave him a headache. There is a secret folder hidden there. Need to tamper with as many as a dozen times before he finally found the folder. The good news is that the folder is unlocked. The bad news, the folder turned out to contain a messaging application in which there are only messages from one person—Jeffrey.

Initially, Fabian intended to leave the message there. He was too afraid that what he read in the message contained things he did not want. What if the messages his mother sent each other with Jeffrey contained romantic things, which in the end made them seem like two people who were having an affair? Because if that were to happen, Fabian would probably start to have a little bit of a revelation as to why Sera hated them so much. And Fabian didn't want that to happen. He did not want to give any publicity for the actions that Sera had done so far.

But in the end, Fabian still ventured to open it. Armed with the belief that her mother was not a lowly woman who would disturb one's household, she began scrolling through the screen until she reached the very beginning when the message began.

The first message turned out to be sent a few months ago, a fact that was enough to make Fabian sigh in relief because it seemed, what he was afraid of did not happen. His mother and Jeffrey had only recently been communicating with each other.

With more confidence, Fabian finally began to read the message one by one.

Hello, Raya. It's Jeffrey. Sorry to be able to contact us after so long. I just want to ask you to take care of my son. I know, I'm not a good father for him but, you know I have a good reason why until now I still can't show myself in front of him.

Sera rampaging. He knew I was looking for a way to get close to Fabian.

Raya, I know you're a smart girl. Do not let Abraham go any further towards you.

Please keep Fabian close, as long as I can only keep him at a distance.

I miss Fabian. Can you find a way that I can meet my son, without making Sera suspicious?

Baskara enters the hospital and Sera forces him to hospitalize. It's not that I'm grateful that my son was cared for, but thanks to that, I got to see Fabian up close.

This morning, Baskara was acting. He keeps himself locked in a hospital rooftop and makes Sera nearly lose her sanity. I'm crazy too, Raya. So crazy, I snapped at a security guard and said that he almost harmed my son. Yeah, you know why I feel bad. Again, I cannot acknowledge Fabian as my son.

Sera's getting crazy. I don't think you guys can stay here anymore. Just move abroad, I will take care of everything secretly.

How's Fabian doing today? I have been indifferent to him lately just to make Sera believe that I don't care about my son.

I am still preparing for your move to Canada. Please hold it for a while longer, and please be kind to my son—even if you are reluctant to do so.

Almost all messages sent by Jeffrey are only replied to by yes or no by Sera. The last message was not even answered. It definitely made Fabian feel relieved. It is not wrong all this time he still grows love for the mother, even though the attitude of the woman is really bad for him.

"I'm sorry to let you go through all this hard stuff alone, Ma." Whisper Fabian, while closely approaching his mother's cell phone.

Seriate