When Passion Is Greater Than Lust
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From that day on, my relationship with Dadang grew closer. Although there is no certainty which way this relationship will actually go, we still enjoy and live everything casually . He is still a humorous person but now he looks more able to keep his jokes, and it makes me more comfortable if I am close to him.

We are getting closer, especially Dadang often come to just visit the bude house.

Today I promised to meet him somewhere. The place usually young people hang out and pass the time casually.

Under the shade of the tree and the breeze hit the face. We sat side by side. I don't know if usually young people like to hang out in cafes or hangouts together exploring culinary. But not with both of us.

we had bought some snacks to accompany us to sit here casually, treated to wild racing young people who are looking for identity.

"How are you related to Angga.."

I turned, feeling strange with Dadang's question.The face was not looking at me but I knew he needed an answer to the question he had thrown.

" The risk is too great, if dating the child of a diplomat. He's gotta move the city. While honestly, there are girls who want LDR, especially at our age. Not that the relationship should be based on trust . but for a person like Angga big no. He is handsome, rich and charismatic. He is the loyal type, but ties a relationship that does not know where the end is the same as undergoing something free. We have long since broken up and even we no longer exchange news to just continue the silahturahmi. It's all really over.."

Dadang. My answer might make him feel funny, I don't know because I think everything is normal. I just express my heart.

" For a man who should be enjoying his teenage years, your mind has gone too far. Or do you intend to marry young ? "

there is a sense of heat running down the cheeks. Dadang's words made me think. Am I like that. As a fan of novels, things related to the word handsome and wealth became commonplace to me. But to get married young, I never thought I'd go there. I was always dissolved in the imagination, especially if the writing of that person could make me carried away in the story he created.

Then my imagination will grow wild and defeat logic.

" i don't think about getting married young, but if God has sent a soul mate. Why not ??"

my long strands of hair were blown as breezy as the wind, making the hair cover almost part of my face.

our close sitting distance makes it easy for Dadang to put this hair behind the ears. Our eyes clashed for a moment.

He smiled "that man must be lucky to be able to match a beautiful girl like you..!"

" i'm not that pretty to feel special. Oh yeah, how was your college ?"

Dadang's eyes were still staring at me when I asked that question, actually you were just trying to divert the conversation

" I decided not to continue my studies. Because now I'm more focused on being a successful coffee farmer. You know if we are comfortable and can make money from the comfort itself. Why do we have to look for a new path again and start from scratch . any job that will result in success if done diligently and never give up.."

" You chose not to go to college because you just want to focus on being a farmer !!" I asked as well as feeling amazed . how can big dreams be thrown down just for the sake of rough work whose skills can even be learned by self-taught.

Dadang shook his head ,

" It's not really the main problem. But there is a family disaster that must first be resolved. So Well as a person who feels comfortable because a year has not touched the book. So it's only if you have to dwell again with a book with pages as high as Monas. Why not go to college yourself..?"

" We seem the same, I still want to be in my comfort zone. Although bude is often angry and pushy but well we as humans also can not if forced. hence while still being able to refuse why to be bound by compulsion..."

I pinched Dadang's waist tight. " Apaan anyway. Who said if I wanted to get married young..!!"

"Well, what was it ? you said it yourself...."

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" If it's God's stipulation I accept but, that doesn't mean I'm looking for a husband.and about bude's attitude maybe just your feelings, just your feelings, besides, it's not just you who often come to the house and chat with bude, , ,"

I replied Relax while observing the race that was getting more crowded with spectators, but because of our higher position. I'm not worried, and I don't have to cram in that crowded crowd.

" so. I am not the only one who comes often!! "

Dadang suddenly clasped my hand, forcing me to look back at him. " Is it okay if I ask for a relationship that is more than just a friendship ?"

Sialll !!!! Why now, and why suddenly. My comfort and all the sweet treatment today made my tongue feel muddy. Unable to say a word.

I turned my face away, trying to divert the heat that was again running down my cheek.

I was confused as to what to answer ..

" Siti Will you marry me "

I looked at Dadang's face again, it was as if it was emitting light now..

" What not..ter..last ..ce-pat.."

I seemed to lose my ability to talk, but Dadang's expression that seemed to smile casually even awakened me.

" i don't think we know each other very well..."

" Unfortunately . I won't wait any more ..I want that certainty right now. You would have said it yourself if not just me who often came to your house as a guest. I'm not going to give anyone another chance to get ahead of me.. Enough One person, namely Angga. There are no more Anga-Angga others.

You want to be my wife..??"

I hurriedly stood up and left Dadang without a word. To be honest I was so shocked that I couldn't think of anything else I could do to avoid the man..

Is this the answer to my original speech will mate earlier ? Or is Dadang just teasing me again. I had to dodge first to clear my brain that had been tainted by Dadang's words.

Young wedding, first night ,old nasty, sister-in-law julid and light-handed guy.

The shadow of the scenes - the scenes of the novel milling in my head. I don't know which one I'll experience. Really, I really can't think right now. Especially if you remember the behavior of Dadang who used to tease me with his jokes will he be laughing satisfied now ??

Thinking about it made my head even more dizzy.