When Passion Is Greater Than Lust
fear bude

This afternoon I decided to take my matic motorcycle to pick up Bude, even though it had been hours in front of the laptop but still, nothing interests me in reading, no one, even my brain is lazy to give ideas to the novel I am writing.

Presumably my mind was affected again by Mother's words. For what if it is not published, but still hesitant to master the heart, because I think this is just a hobby. Maybe the time comes when I decide to publish it on social media or a writing platform, or the last idea that is most appropriate let everything remain neatly stored in the document.

The road to the bude oil palm plantation was quiet, even though it was not too late in the afternoon. The dry land caused a lot of dust scattered, it has been a week of rain does not come even though cloudy always felt, just like my relationship with Dadang which is still stuck in place. There is no more discussion of marriage from the mouth of the man, if he calls me by phone either he is focused on his promise or indeed he is disappointed with Bude's words. it seems like my heart is also starting to get dusty because of Dadang.

Last deflected I saw Fian's car parked. It looks like the owner is leaving, or maybe he is negotiating again with the bude palm price problem. The harvest of palm fruit is indeed once in two weeks, but the price of bude is always up to date and will force a rise in the price every time he sells..

I am sometimes amused myself if I remember Bude always arguing the same thing when it comes to harvest time.

" The quality of bude fruit is A Siti so bude is entitled if given the best price, that's bude's answer when I protest at his behavior. But his words are true, because although chatty and annoying price problems, the bude palm fruit remains a wrestler..

"Heii. bengong aja Ti. Later you will know your taste..!!"

Mr. Rohim was suddenly in front of me, he was a Bude confidant, because when the harvest arrived Mr. Rohim was the one who would do it,

" Uh sir.. See bude, right ? searched from earlier I did not meet..!!"

I'm wailing, who knows if Bude can finally find .

" The goddess was in the cottage, same Fian. I'm used to the price nego..."

." oh yes sir !! thank you sir, if that's Siti pamit want nyusulin bude, assalammualaikum.."

"Wa'alaikumsalam .. "

I drove my bike north

the place where the bude cottage is located.

(lodge is a term for a small stilt house with a high pole and is usually used when palm oil workers rest drinking coffee or shelter when it rains)

I approached and turned off the motor after seeing if there really were any shoes belonging to bude near the bamboo ladder .

The intention is I want to surprise the budget but the sound of bude crying instead welcomes me, what is with the bude. Why he was crying, something happened.

" Calm bude's heart. The siti is an adult, she definitely knows what is best for her and for her future, so bude don't worry too much, ,"

"It's good Fian. But in life, good is not enough. We also need to eat, need money when we want something. Bude saw that it wasn't in Dadang, Bude was worried that he wouldn't be happy. Bude loves Siti. But bude can't if it stays on the bude establishment, if it's gonna hurt him.."

"I'm sorry bude, but we as humans can't if we precede God's will. If they are indeed a mate, then nothing will be able to prevent them from sailing the wedding ark. Bude must learn to accept Dadang which has become Siti's choice. Do not think of something that is not necessarily happening, mending bude continues to love Sama Siti's direction so that she can live a harmonious household later.

I was worried that if Siti found out about Bude's heart, she decided to choose Bude and leave the man she loved. And it will affect his mindset about bude and also his views on what kind of man bude would like. The one who runs the household will be Siti bude. so let her choose for herself, with whom she will wade the longest worship in this life later...!!!"

I was amazed, did not expect that Fian was that mature.it is appropriate if bude likes it and hopes we are a match, but even though in terms of face and security Dadang lost terribly, still. I can't if I lie to my heart that has loved Dadang so deeply that it makes me unable to see the charm of another man, who can defeat the Presence of Dadang in my life..

Hape on my shoulder suddenly rang out loud, startled me and immediately picked it up, inexplicably making me a little worried about bude's reaction.

' Why Dang !! I'm looking for Bude, I'll call him later because it's on the road again..'

I decided Dadang's call after previously saying greetings, whether to think what kind of Dadang will be my indifferent attitude to him I glanced towards the cottage, it turns out that bude and Fian have come down and are now standing near the stairs. I could see bude's eyes, but he turned his face away unwilling to return my gaze..

" Why come here Ti ? " Bude asked in a hoarse voice, he then cleared his throat so that I did not suspect, "Tumben you usually feel at home mandangin laptop..!!

" La was bude, who made me bored and decided to look for bude, all of you pick me up because it was late afternoon.."

" So if you are not bosen you will not take the initiative to pick up bude. is it ?"

" Yes, maybe !!

Tapikan better if I don't make it here in a strange direction, right.

I'm Bude's good son, so bude should be grateful to have me.."

I approached Bude and hugged him tightly. There is a smile that appears on the face of ayu bude, making me feel warm, somehow I can convince bude about Dadang, but I hope whatever decision I make doesn't make Bude sad and worried ..

"Have finished bude ? Let's go!!" I'm leading Bude to the bike,

" Bude is still negotiating payments with Fian Siti, so if you want to go home, you go home first.."

" Ish bude what the hell, yes Siti wait . until se-le-sai..."

I gave my thumbs up to Bude who had indeed walked away earlier. Must be bude worried if I heard all their talk earlier.I will still pretend not to know, and still behave normally in front of bude, so that bude is not suspicious and even more a burden on his mind, he said, hopefully Fian's speech made Bude more relieved and believe that everything will be good in the future..