When Passion Is Greater Than Lust
What happened to Mom ?

Although the coffee fruit tends to be less than the previous year, but because we use the money that will actually be used to build a house, then although a little coffee beans can still be collected.

My spirit is getting bigger now, because gradually the nature of bang Dadang has returned again like before.

"Sir, why hasn't Bara taken a shower at this hour ?"

Bang Dadang approached me while holding Bara who was still wearing a nightgown.

" I'm sorry Bang. I haven't finished cooking it yet, did you say to yourself today that many people will invite to join our coffee harvest."

" yes. Yaudah let the brother who bathe Bara ya Dek.."

I do not care about the words bang Dadang, because it is my duty in the kitchen is still very much, because today I work alone, Salsa who usually always helps today again stay at her friend's house, because today I work alone, because there is a group assignment from the lecturer..

Apparently bang Dadang really did what he had just said, secretly I smiled. Thank God who has moved my husband's heart

" Loh Dang how did you bathe Bara, which mother?" Mother's voice was heard until here, Bara was bathed by bang Dadang, and carried my husband to the middle room , I who was finished with my duties in the kitchen even stopped my steps who were about to take Bara who was being changed by bang Dadang.

" Don't be spoiled it's your wife, your job is to make a living, not be a nanny. It's not fair, everything you do while your wife is relaxed.."

"Siti again cook Mak in the kitchen, today Dadang many people bring to help the harvest so it is quite long cooking, while waiting for Siti's work to be completed , yes what's wrong

if Dadang Bara bathing initiative, let it be handsome and fragrant will be Bara deck..."

I was made to feel moved and more appreciated by bang Dadang, now. Although my mother behaved like she hated me but if bang Dadang beside me and always supported me then I would not be okay, even though I had to always wash the wounds of the heart that always bled..

" It's up to you that Dang, the wife just saw how you felt. If he's getting lazy, and no longer cares about your whereabouts..."

" don't be fierce, Grandma, you'll soon be old .." Bang Dadang imitated the sound of a small child, while driving coals towards me, although a little surprised to see me who was staring motionless near the dividing door between the kitchen and the living room, but bang Dadang was just plain, just plain,

" Have finished Deck ? If you want to leave it is not good if it is too late,"

" It's bang, it's been stacking in the backpack, brother just lift and leave, God willing everything is complete, nothing is left behind.."

" Thank you Ma'am, the best is my wife.heheheh"

Bang Dadang kissed Bara and stepped into the kitchen.

Soon the father of my three children came back, carrying the backpack I mentioned.

" So I leave on deck. Bara do not be naughty dear " Again bang Dadang kissed Bara, my youngest child seemed amused by the behavior of his father, even Bara screamed so happy.

***

When entering the inside finished delivering bang Dadang to the front door. I found my mother looking at me with a look I did not understand.

" Siti, you're actually already good at meeting Dadang. As a farmer's wife you never even saw your garden directly . So give thanks for not having your husband work at home..."

Apparently, Mom was waiting for the departure of bang Dadang to rebuke me about this. I who used to obey just nodded in response, afraid that my mouth even mispronounced later and even made the situation hotter.

" Sit little sympathy to Husband. the affairs of the house and the child is your responsibility, and about the garden so that it becomes the business of Dadang. I guess that's fair enough, don't you think?"

" Yes, Mom. Sorry if Siti was wrong.." I say goodbye from in front of Mother to breastfeed Bara who has been a little restless in my sling.

In the room, I put Bara to bed, and now I lie down next to my padlock boy, cleaning him. Bara is used to breastfeeding while sleeping.

Actually what you said earlier is true, because it was married, pregnant Rama and now even has three sons I never once joined the Dadang bang into the garden, he said, Even when harvesting.

If in the past when Rama was still the only grandson, Father and Mother did forbid me to join bang Dadang even for a while, afraid if Rama was bitten by mosquitoes, and after the birth of Dio. Apparently I was a little troubled and now the presence of Bara made my mother think that Bara was like a weapon to me, which I used to influence my mother to understand if I couldn't get to our garden , but apparently my mother was upset because of all this. And instead it addresses this as a defense to his son, who is my husband.

" You why Mom. How to talk to Siti cynically like that.."

That's the voice of the Father, although wonder why my father-in-law did not go to the office, but I also do not have the right and courage if I have to ask because the father is still at home at this hour.

" Do you want, momong Siti's third child ? Let him come with Dadang for the coffee harvest ?"

" Udalah sir, even defended continue tuh the Siti, here whose name is the wife of the farmer who must also help the husband go to the garden. Many people take their children to the garden. They can do it, our daughter-in-law's time is even on our hands..!"

" You were Mak when the kids were kids too ! do not be too hard, child of the people who are not even comfortable here, anyways Dadang just accept why you even protest . You are not defending, but justifying the slightly wrong direction of your mind..! "

" humm. We'll see, sir. They said they wanted to get up, money from where. The money is enough with the money from Indra "The Voice of the Mother sounds Sewot and belittling.

" By the way about Dadang and Siti's plan. You want to apply for early retirement, so you can get retirement money. Can we use the money later to help Dadang and Siti, even a little.."

"Loh sir, can not do ditu dong. our son is still two tablets who went to college even though Agung finished this year but Salsa is still two years more pak lectures. Later even our children do not graduate because help them..!"

" That thought, Mom. Dadang is also our child, Do you forget if all this time Dadang always helped finance his younger siblings while in college, Indra aja remember, Kok you as his mother even as if blindfolded. anyway Father will help them, about the lecture of Salsa and Great, God willing there will be his own provision.so do not worry too much.."

Now there was the sound of a leg in front of our room, and finally the atmosphere was now quiet, Only the sound of the hape played by Dio was heard, he said, Maybe Mom and Dad thought if I didn't hear their chat because it was fun to accompany Dio to play mobile phones,

" bang Dio, you wanna come with me ?"

Bara had finished breastfeeding, and my son was chattering, a special babble Baby.

"where's Ma?"

" Front of the hawk, Yukk ! Taro used to be his hape, don't take it, okay."

Dio hurried to put the hose on the nightstand, then approached me who was now fixing Bara's position in the sling.

I just remembered that today I did have a promise with the mothers of the arisan members, because today is the day that has been agreed to make the deposit of the arisan money, as a sign of the start of our annual arrivals.

" Where are grandfather's grandchildren going ?"

" Want the same group of neighboring mothers around here sir, want to discuss the annual celebration, make it more if there is less with our plan sir .."

" oh , Good that Siti, let's not feel it's better to join the charity than borrow the same person right !! Here let Bara and Dio aja aja who was victorious, because Mr. holiday also today, so can help you momong Bara and Dio. It's hard to take them."

I doubt at once feel awkward, later even blamed again the same mother. But, "Didngerepotin sir. They'll be fussy later.."

" No need to think about it, you don't bother. There you go, it's safe if you take care of me.."

" Thank you sir, then Siti said yes sir ."

I greet Father after putting all the equipment Dio and Bara back into the room, coincidentally my two children have been wearing diapers .

" This, Bara milk yes sir. And this one's got Dio." I put two bottles of milk in the chair next to you,

"Assalammuallaikum..!!

" Waalaikumsalam, Maternal drugs.."

I saw Bara and Dio calm down and did not cry to see my departure.The two sons looked happy, looking at his grandfather's face.

" E Siti. Which rama?" I shouted a little, because my position had indeed been a bit far away.

I almost forgot, with my first child, huh Am I the bad mother

" At Revan's house sir, Sinta's son. Next-door neighbor.."

" Oh yeah, let Agung pick you up..."

The father nodded in understanding and now invited Bara to play the Ba peek. Rama my eldest son was happy to play outside with the park his age now, and no longer feel at home. The child will only come home when hungry and if he wants a snack. Even so I always advised him not to go too far if he wanted to play, and disciplined him to go home on time,

Finally I arrived at the house of Sister Salma, We have indeed agreed if this meeting is done here. The woman in her 40s greeted me with enthusiasm , but his eyes were looking for something when I came alone.

" Why is it, Ma'am ? Find what "

" Loh Siti . Where are your kids ?"

" Oh .. the children with his grandfather mbak, it happens that the father does not work.so, he offers to take care of the children.he said let me not bother also hehhe."

I can see the look of disappointment on the face of mbak Salma, mbak Salma was married a dozen years but not also blessed with momongan. That's what I heard from some of the mothers when they gathered at the patrol station the other day

" Oh, I think Salsa's mom's the one who broke up for momong, huh.

if there is a Mr. Nurdin mah pantes oruh can be left.." Madam Ida responded to my words casually.

" La iyah, my mother said Mr. Nurdin was always momong his children every afternoon, bathe, play nemenin and also nyuapin eat, very lucky Salsa mother can be a husband like that. Not the mothers..."

Now it's Sandra's turn to open her mouth, the young mother's age is two years below me.

" Huum, I if the husband model Pak Nurdin. Must be calm - just calm though brojol every year.."

Laughter now fills the house of mbak Salma, because of the curse of Bu Ida who is famous for being outspoken.

I also did not even realize that I was laughing, although a little disbelief if my Father-in-law, applies like what mothers here say.

" Eh But Siti. What if your husband ? same with Mr. Nurdin ..The fruit usually falls not far from the tree.."

Now mother Ida looked closely at me, although a little misbehavior got the gaze, but as much as possible I displayed a cheerful smile in response.

" Alhamdullilah Ma'am, Aman hehehhe"

" Thankful dong. You must bother taking care of three children whose birth distance is close, what else is still the same as in-laws, if not get support and help from the husband, address can stress .."

I just put on a smile, responding to Mother Ida's words. Although it is a bit uncomfortable why even this question was discussed earlier.

No matter what the state of my household, I never told the neighbors, when gathering with mothers who were close neighbors of the Mother's house.

Bude words I always make a reminder alarm, so as not to let slip open the disgrace of the husband, because the disgrace of my husband is also my disgrace. So as much as possible I put the brakes on the words that could lead to ghibah about the husbands..

" Where's the money..

Deposit , deposit..." I seemed excited, diverting the honest conversation made it uncomfortable.

now wait for the members to spend their deposit money.

After calculating one by one the amount of deposit money from each member, and it felt that all was enough, I collected it into one and put the money in a brown envelope that I had prepared.

Our Arisan is not so big nominal. Only three million dollars a year. With 11 members,

" so. You guys will be neighbors dong same mbak Salma right, mbak Siti ?" I did say I want to build a small house on Sandra and I did not think , if the sweet woman proposed that I form an annual only, and thankfully the members now number 11 people, he said, me included.

" Yes San, pray everything is fine. And the money can be enough.."

" Amijin.."

At once these 10 mothers confirmed my words, I give many thanks for their presence in my life. Even though I was a stranger and they did not know him before. But here, I was treated well and also undifferentiated.

Like a piece of advice, look for a place where you are valued, not needed.

Let's just hope all the things I planned went well and ended in kindness anyway ..