When Passion Is Greater Than Lust
Seriously !!!!

After that day everything was silent in uncertainty. My relationship with Dadang felt frozen again, now I believe if indeed the young man was not too serious with his words that want to make me a wife. unfortunately I was even too carried away.

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I am now in the palm of the bude, the palm that is not too high is lined up very neatly. I actually never want to come if Bude is reviewing the state of his palm tree. But today somehow I feel a very bored, especially now my mind can not if not think about what Dadang said two weeks ago. I don't know if Dadang also thought the same thing that was clear until this moment none of us tried to contact first.

Actually I was wrong, had left Dadang without a word, and even asked to be escorted Fian a man who often cross paths with Dadang if he wanted to visit. I don't know why the figure of Fian was there at the crucial moment of the day.

" You why Sih Siti !! bude noticed you these days daydreaming a lot. Fian also said that you don't even focus on talking to him anymore.."

Fian, a young man from a neighboring village is the son of a palm oil businessman in the area we live in. Fian was a handsome young man, good at getting along and also very polite. No wonder Bude really likes the young man and even intends to match me with him.

" Wanted to ask you !!"

Bude's annoyed voice sounded again in my ear.

" I don't mind bude . Males by the way, hehhe"

" have a mouth kok males talk you Ti. there-there are only children today whose behavior likes strange let alone taste.."

Loh. kok bude talking in that direction. hmmm this must be because of Fian. Basic bude..! I don't think he'll be this serious about what he said to me yesterday. But it turned out that he was constantly thrusting the young man at me..

"If I married young, for example. Does bude approve, ngasi permission. Later even shock because it is not ready because I have to marry young .."

Bude looked at me seriously, his eyes suddenly looking up at me from top to bottom and then up again

" if the way is reasonable bude will allow. But if for some reason, and it cannot be tolerated then bude will be forced to also allow. Yes the point is if you have met your soul mate yes bude can what ..!!!"

I hugged Bude tightly to hear the answer, Bude Dewi was as understanding as that if it was about my wishes.

" The same origin of men who bude likes but yes..."

jinfbb.....

ah bude, always teasing me in a million ways..

The middle-aged woman left me with a cry. It turns out that the haru I felt was just the wind then for bude.

The phone with my pants on suddenly shook. Curiously, I immediately picked up the flat object. Name Dadang listed on the screen..

Reluctance to answer suddenly came, but honestly I had waited too long to just call from him.

"Assalammualaikum Ti's. Where are you ? your house is empty.."

A little while I was silent, what this means is that this young man is at home, thinking about meeting him again makes me feel nervous. Somehow I have to react and behave later.

But I was also curious, that guy was really serious about wanting to marry me or just joking, just like before, when he always teased me with his jokes.

" Ok !! I'm home now."

The phone disconnected with the completion of my speech. Huh, why is he always insensitive like this.

I see Bude still discussing the price on Fian, I don't know since when the young man took over his parents' job. And also when the young man came here, I think my curiosity can only be suppressed.the fact is when I get to bude I shut up and try to choose the right time so I can immediately return home.

" Who are your guests ? women or men."

Bude said full of investigation as if nothing had happened before, while Fian looked at me with the same look as bude ..

" Life,bude. That's Dadang. youth next door.."

" Which village, ngawur..."

" Well just a little far from our area. ..hehhe"

My words justify the words of Bude who said I ngawur .

" Don't mess around at home. Take care of yourself as a woman. You understand what bude means ?"

I just nodded and saluted my bude, and also threw my sweetest smile in front of Fian.

" I'll take Ti !"

" No. . I happened to have the bike with me." I don't know if it feels uncomfortable if you have to reciprocate Fian's good treatment. Afraid the young man misinterpreted and instead hoped for more. As a woman, of course I know that Fian does have feelings for me, regardless of the attitude of the bude who betrothed us.

After riding the motorbike for 10 minutes, From afar I have seen if Dadang's motorbike is still hanging out in the yard of the house, the figure also looks riled up while occasionally looking at the hape in his hand .

The roar of my motor engine seemed to make Dadang realize my arrival.

" I'm sorry long ago. It was nemenin bude around.."

I quickly got down and immediately opened the bude house that was still locked tightly. Dadang followed me, even the young man entered before my lips allowed him. He sat on a wooden chair in the living room, and now he looked at me who was still standing with a wrong look.

" Let's sit down.." He patted the long chair he was sitting on.

"I'm gonna get a drink first." My answer is not good, the guest period is not treated to drink, especially Dadang has long been waiting for me in front of the house earlier. Without her consent I went straight to the kitchen to make a sweet tea. I honestly don't know what kind of drink Dadang likes.

"I thought you were avoiding me, because of what I said back then !

I'm sorry if I make you uncomfortable with my present presence..!!"

Now I'm sitting opposite Dadang, it doesn't feel right if I'm sitting next to him while alone at home like this.

" it's okay anyway you're just kidding. So relax, don't think too much .." I laughed with my own words.

But I see the look on Dadang's face that looks upset as if it does not accept.

" So my words at that time you considered kidding..!!!"

I froze what it meant.

" I didn't expect your humorous value to that extent. Is it because of the man who drove you home ? you guys are already, so you think I'm just kidding.."

I was still speechless, looking at Dadang's eyes filled with disappointment, somehow I felt so guilty. It seems my tongue cannot compromise..

" dn-at ....Are you serious ???"