When Passion Is Greater Than Lust
Terlene

The more days, the more it feels if my household life and bang Dadang are not harmonious, but as much as possible I still keep this a secret to bude, and do not expose my household disgrace around.

And starting a month ago I took the initiative to send bude money, although not much. Money that is my online sales profit. Bang Dadang I accidentally didn't tell you, because I want to convince Bude if our lives are better after inhabiting a new house. This I also did so that Bude would no longer send us monthly money, under the pretext of his grandchildren.

" Bude sent the deck money ?"

Just now the thought of bude crossed my brain, the figure of bang Dadang even asked about the money sent.

" There is no bang, Sawit again dropped the price.anyan bude also has helped the construction of our house. It's not nice if Siti even seems to be begging to bude on behalf of the children.."

"Humm,., should bude know the deck. if you wake up, everyone must have a setback about the economy. Even though palm oil is cheap, bude is alone.not too much cost.."

I almost made a mockery of hearing the shameless words of the man who had been my life companion for eight years. Bang Dadang could think like that. Even if Bude has a lot of savings, whatever he wants to use for what.

All this time I did not realize if my husband was complacent and impressed to use the goodness of bude.

" Bang.k kok effect you even want to receive a shipment from bude. Some want the need a lot or a little you should not bother to comment, you should be embarrassed bang, We have been quite troublesome bude all this time, our time is independent. You have to work harder . honestly bang, my capital selling online is getting thin, it will not be enough to pay bank installments this month.." Finally came out also all my tirits even though they did not curse.

"Abang is right, bude is a kara. So what's all the property and money for if it's not for you and the grandchildren, stingy in the pet.." Bang Dadang did not look at me when I said all that, I was also reluctant if I had to discuss this sensitive matter . I was already considered a child by my own bud, but still, I think bang Dadang who has now held responsibility for me. Not bude anymore.

"Part of the deck, it's not been two weeks since Abang became a laborer to join the Hajj pack, where's the money you go, right ?"

I immediately went into our room, and came out with a piece of paper. Yes, I have prepared a note, anticipating this question will be heard from the mouth of bang Dadang. Immediately I gave a note of our needs for two weeks, everything I gave details in detail, so that nothing stuck and instead asked me again.

" Why must use this all deck, just talk about what the hell is hard ." Despite the protests, bang Dadang still accepted it . Now the eyes of bang Dadang focus on the paper I gave earlier. Several times I have seen if his forehead appears wrinkled, perhaps dizzy, confused or distrustful of what he has read .

" Kok wasteful gini anyway deck. Children's snacks also why even up to 10 thousand a day. .?"

" You didn't forget that our son has three ...?"

" Yes..Ja.. But you should give understanding to them so as not to snack too often. You can be creative to make a little cake pempek, or other frugal snacks.."

" You do not forget the bang, if in the past at their mother's house they could even run out 30 thousand a day. Know for yourself that children now prefer snacks rather than home snacks.

And also They are still small where it is difficult to find money. .

Don't leave your feelings of inadequacy on our children.."

this house.."

I miss, why bang Dadang even misunderstood what I said.

" Bang, our son is three. And the growth of the children was very fast. I don't want you to accuse me of being extravagant, and about bude, I'm ashamed, we should be the ones giving to bude. But what is it, actually ? Bude who always supports our economy, even until yesterday we woke up the house did not escape the help of bude. You are getting more and more calculations, so I give details. So that you know and understand if the needs of this household are that big.."

Bang Dadang is now down, bank installment payment time, another week. I am always alert and wordless to make payments, now feel tired. Somehow, the attitude of bang dadang makes me now like a dzolim wife. But if

not made like this maybe my husband will not realize and instead fall asleep.

" Yes, already. Later Abang think of a solution about bank money, today Abang holiday first yes deck, tired!! "

" huum it's okay, but I ask for a holiday also bang, okay? just one day. Want to join the neighboring Sari in front of the chili harvest, tomorrow. Not bad, don't buy chili, chili again expensive..."

Actually it has been since a few days ago mothers invited me, the time used for harvesting is also not too long, so Bara can be left with bang Dadang for a while. I hope my husband understands what I want this time.

" No need to follow the deck, besides your duties at home, take care of the child. Instead of following the soap opera that used to be a trend, the world is upside down. Besides cayenne pepper is already there, you took a lot in the garden Pak Haji yesterday. Just wear it, it's more spicy even.."

" Yes his intention let make a mix bang. It's not nice to see, if the cabenya ijo all.."

" The important thing is the deck, about the appearance of your brother will not protest!"

Though I really want to change my busy routine even if only for a day. Not the child's love, but saturation also sometimes comes, because the activities as a housewife are never endless.

" So you want to sleep on deck, let it be fresh again tomorrow. And the spirit of work, hehe.."

Bang Dadang kissed my forehead, and went into the room.

I took a phone and saw the clock, it was ten in the morning. Does this mean that my husband will sleep until tomorrow.

I don't know, instead of thinking about it, I'm now choosing to go to Facebook, check messages and comments. Who knows, orders are coming.

incidentally also Bara and Dio, invited to play at the house of Sister Salma. They will usually feel at home there, so I can take advantage of this time to post the latest products, as well as surfing to watch live sales accounts in the application with the logo f.