When Passion Is Greater Than Lust
you're special

A week has passed, even though there has been an answer from the bottom of my heart, but bude's request seems to always hold my tongue, I can't bear if later my answer even makes bude disappointed.after all bude was right, I've never even met Dadang's family. All I know is that if Dadang Dadang is a PNS, the rest I am completely blind. If this is so then what commitment will I hold if it turns out, if it turns out, his family was bad and did not match the expectations that were on my mind.

Even so, my relationship with Dadang is now getting closer , we just exchanged news over the phone. It also gives me a lot of information that I want to know, ' he said, I also no longer hesitate to ask about anything that if even I know about Dadang and the big family of the man.

It turned out that Dadang was the first child, out of five brothers.

Her mother was just an ordinary housewife. What I heard from Dadang, his mother is a very friendly person. Given that, I shouldn't have to worry if he doesn't welcome me well, right ? . Bude's worries won't happen.

" Bud. I'm allowed to play at Dadang's house. Can be "

Right now bude is cooking in the kitchen, I ventured to express my wish that from last night I had intended, but it can only come out smoothly now. Bude continued his activity to cut the thighs of the chicken he bought at the traveling greengrocer,,

" Bude said, I don't know his family yet, so his intention is to contact aja bude. can you ? "

Bude now stopped his hand, he turned off the stove that was boiling water to make coffee, the water happened to be ripe, after pouring hot water into a cup containing coffee powder and sugar . Bude looked at me seriously

"Are you sure of your decision Siti ?"

"what do you mean bude?I still haven't thought in that direction.!!"

I haven't told Bude if I accept Dadang, why as if bude already knows ..Batinku.

" Don't fool Bude Siti, or you really don't know. If you come to the house of Dadang and be introduced to the whole family. It's the same way you received Dadang's proposal, , "

"I just follow Bude's advice, didn't Bude say that I should get to know his family first. !!"

" Then ? after that what ? You will come forward and accept Dadang if you feel his family is good. so !!

Or you will step back and say it does not fit into Dadang when you feel his family is not good.

It's not all that simple...

You must be wiser in your attitude, if you do accept Dadang it means you have to accept how later his family treats you. .."

Bude is now sitting in the dining chair, while I am still at home in my position

" You are too young Siti. You may think bude forbid because you don't like Dadang.but basically, Bude is just afraid that you even regret the steps you take now.."

His eyes now look glassy. Looking at me gently, both of his hands extended towards me . I greeted him and hugged Bude tightly.

" You are Siti's bude treasure. Although not born from a bude womb, your happiness is more important than anything you have. Think carefully, dear. Because in marriage, there is no word to try and then when it does not fit we turn around. No Siti, again marriage is a lifelong commitment. Although divorce is allowed in our religion, but do not make it an alibi justification of something that is actually very wrong.."

I look at Bude's face gently, I really don't want to make him feel sad about something that isn't necessarily happening.

" I feel comfortable when I'm with him Bude. I don't even know what I really feel about Dadang. But may I live this story first, bude. I'm not ready to get married now either. So, do I have to cancel my visit to Dadang bude's house ?"

I was finally able to express my heart in front of Bude, as well as ask for his opinion directly.

" If you have already promised, yes already, Siti. But remember take good care of yourself, bude let you. As long as Dadang picks you up here..!".

I broke my arms to Bude, looking at that face again.

" Thank you bude. Bude's always been the best place for me,.."

we hugged again .

" This is the chicken to be cooked what bude..!!"

I continued the delayed bude job because of me. I also asked bude to sit sweet and enjoy the coffee he had brewed earlier.

" Make a rendang aja Ti ! The spice has been bude made in the refrigerator, you just stir-fry, the food has also been prepared.so only execution.."

I checked into the refrigerator, sure enough everything was available. Bude is a tough woman and also deft, fortunately the attitude decreased to me, and I hope this will also be my provision if I stay home later.

"why are you Ti. Later gosong loh. cook it while smiling is not clear..."

Apparently bude had been watching me. I just glared by showing off my row of white teeth.

Do not want to answer , because the habits of bude who likes nyerocos are not clear if his chatter is responded to.

***

Exactly at 09am. Dadang came to pick me up, his face seemed radiant in my eyes, whether my feelings alone or not that clearly Dadang look sumringah even when greeting the bude Dewi who is now sitting with me on the front porch of the house.

" Are you ready Ti. .? if it's come, now we'll just go..."

Dadang immediately expressed his intention to come here..I turned to the place where bude was, bude nodded making me also do the same towards Dadang in response.

" Bude I'm going to take Siti home.. Promise will not be too late in the afternoon we will come back here.."

Dadang seemed to know what bude would say, it made me feel a little relieved. At least Dadang tried his best to take bude's heart.

" well. Titip Siti yes Dang. Take good care of him. There the hunt departed, the weather was cloudy fearing it even rained on the road. You guys are using a motorbike.."

Bude looked at Dadang's H*nda motor. Either bude means what but there is a slightly upset tone when bude says that. Does Bude wish that Dadang would pick me up in a car ? I don't know, only Bude knows his heart.

Actually Dadang has told me that he will only use the motorbike. So I just use boyfriend jeans combined with an oversize crop shirt, I also add a long cardigan to make it look more polite. While my usual hair stalls now I pigtail Cepol only. anticipate my hair messy due to the wind hit later .

Along the way we just fell silent, enjoying the wind that was present because the weather was cloudy. The Dadang motorbike also drove slowly, adding to the romantic impression that was suddenly felt. The cold made me hug my own body tightly, I really wanted to feel what it was like to hug a special person, but if I did it now, would I be considered cheap, Although I know Dadang is not a man with a spicy mouth, but still the attitude of Dadang silence makes me a little afraid to do something a little aggressive.

" That time, when you were still dating Angga you sat it not gini "

We are now in the shade because the drizzle suddenly came. Dadang said that without bringing our bodies down from his two-wheeler.

We did pull the bike over the parking lot of the shop that looked uninhabited.

" Does this mean that Angga is more special than me ?"

I wave because my position is now getting closer to him and also my legs are squeezing Dadang's body because he turned while holding both my legs in both hands.The eyes even look at me sharply asking for answers.

" Nnn ngak..." I tried to get down but Dadang made it harder for me to just move.

" we'd better get down, I'm a bit ri-sih with position i...iini..!!!"

Dadang laughs, "No need to strain Ti. anyways I joke. we should continue the journey.we are still half way. Fear even later on the road , the courtship later we continue at home. The drizzle is gone too"

Tuh. The nature of jail. Dadang don't know if I've been deg-deg an half-dead. Now he's relaxed as if nothing happened.

But his words made me more relaxed, now I even dare to hug him, while leaning my head on his airy back.

" you and Angga are different, but you're more special.."

The words just flowed from my lips, whether Dadang heard it or not, which obviously I feel relieved because I have told him my heart..