When Passion Is Greater Than Lust
Restu bude

A year passed without feeling, after catching bude crying because I was worried about my future, I prefer not to talk about Dadang again in front of bude.

My relationship with Dadang is still going on. I don't know if maybe the guy changed his mind because I decided to LDR, which means I forbade him to come home. And we only connect by phone.

Dadang also did not discuss his promise a year ago if we spoke by phone, to be honest I began to doubt our relationship is not like a couple in general..

" Bude, what's this meat going to cook ?"

Bude is mengolek chili, the job I avoid the most if in the kitchen, the kitchen,

" Rendang aja Ti's. Bude I want to eat that now.."

A year later I was getting used to waking up early, we would cook together. And always discussing about the menu that we will eat every day, it seems like my hobby is now turned into cooking, because indeed I am no longer busy reading novels or writing .

"The season is already in the refrigerator yes, the chili is not too much," Bude again voiced because I was just silent from now on.

" Okay bude..!! Ready-to-do.."

I began my activities, by sauteing spices that have been milled and prepared by bude, do not forget to add a little chili according to the instructions of bude. Before long the fragrant smell of rendang came out of the frying pan in front of me, After it was felt enough time I put the meat that had been washed clean and also roasted in the previous pan ,so that the water content is slightly reduced and reduces the time of the maturation process which is very long.

After adding water to the meat pan I closed the pan with a transparent lid, then sat near the bude who was still mengolek chilli. Bude does like to ngulek himself without using a blender, said bude chili will taste bitter if blended.so he will spend hours just for this one activity..

" How about Dadang Ti ? Is there progress ? Or has he not been able to successfully fulfill his promise to you ?"

I fell silent, looking at the flame of my cooking stove earlier. Why did Bude suddenly discuss Dadang. The thing I've been avoiding if I'm in a conversation with Bude.

" so... When did he come with his family to propose to you ?"

" I don't know bude. Dadang never discussed the wedding plan again.Bude probably right if we were too easy to make a decision yesterday, and now just feel the impact even though we are not married..

proof is not as easy as when we talk.."

Bude stopped his kneading motion and washed his hands on the container that had been prepared beforehand . Now looking at me who was also looking back at him with a disappointed look.

" If Dadang did not discuss, why don't you just start first..!! perhaps bude's remarks to her made her feel heavy with her intentions . Or how about Dadang you tell me to come here and let Bude ask. How is your relationship going forward....."

" Bude !!"

I cut off the bude speech that excitedly talked about Dadang.

" Why did Bude even ask this ?"

Not the answer I got but I saw that Bude's tears were flowing, making me panic and not understand.

" bude why ?"

I held Bude's shoulder and hugged him.

" What is bude, did Siti make a mistake ?" I wiped Bude's tears with my hands.

" Bude knows if you want to keep bude feeling, by no longer meeting Dadang. But bude also knows if your heart is depressed because of it. You often bengong now, and it makes bude feel evil Siti. should not be selfish under the pretext of worrying about the future of the household that you will live later..

Bude restui you Siti, bude Ridho'i you for your choice. Invite Dadang here to meet Bude, even though he can't keep his promise."

" Bude don't have to blame yourself. I have resigned to my relationship with Dadang. If we are a match, we will be reunited in marriage if not, it means that this relationship will only get here, I am fine bude. so don't worry !"

***

The day began to run.I now sit on the front porch of the house..

Staring at a flat object that is showing a cooking process event . Although I rarely execute what I learn but there is no harm in adding knowledge. Maybe someday can be realized when already married..

Thinking about it I smiled.

" Salammuallaikum...!!!"

I reflexively stood up, it was Dadang's voice. I can't hear wrong.

I dropped my gaze towards the front.that young man who came to see you, his skin color was darker than the last meeting. Her hair was also cut short, making her sweet face look fresher..

Tukkp..

my forehead was the target of Dadang's finger quotes, the pain I felt but my surprise of his presence was more dominant so I did not think too much about my pain.

" Kok bengong hek dek. people say hello instead of being answered instead of silence. Why ? Shocked what a kangen...!!"

I turned my hot face to the side.

" Emh was shocked. Come sit down dang , e Bang.hehhe"

I was clumsy myself because I was not used to calling it directly, even though we had long agreed.

" Bude where's deck ?"

Dadang looked inside before he sat down and asked.

" Ordinary patrol bang.."

I suddenly didn't know what to say, so chose to keep quiet waiting for him to talk first.."

" It's now exactly 12 months, 54 weeks and 365 days. One year deck. And today as promised I'll propose to you. Although I have not met the target as promised, but I will prove to bude if I will give you the dowry according to my income for the past year. You'd like it if the dowry only suits my deck..."

Dadang said his words, and now asked me to agree to his proposal.

" What do you think I'm gonna ask for for our wedding dowry ?"

I laughed as if I was going to ask for a big dowry for our wedding.

" To me is quite a set of prayer tools, and also a Qur'an. The important thing is legitimate and not to burden you as my future husband.."

Dadang seems to think, "But the deck, the meaning is very deep about the dowry, what you can do if mandated about the afterlife . ." his speech is slow but still able to hear.

" but.. We can both learn about religion, right, so Brother will be able to dowry.. And also some money from the personal brother. As a place to keep the promise you made a year ago.."

I nodded in agreement, seeing that Dadang was apparently so happy that he had unknowingly stood up and hugged me who was still in the chair..

" Ahemm.. if you want to be friendly, kangen-kenan. You must remember the place. Don't come from sosor....!!!"

Bude's voice sounded to make us freeze for a moment..